#personalgrowthjourney Tumblr posts

  • I started posting witchy stuff on TikTok but I started making videos of some of the recipes I try and it’s been really fun. I don’t always eat vegan but I know my body feels good when I do so unless I’ve been trying to make more vegan meals. This ended up being a really big hit for my family! Should I add the recipe to my website?
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    #instafood #vegan #veganrecipes #veganfood #vegansofig #veganeats #veganfood #tiktok #recipes #thaifood #newrecipe #newfood #dinnertime #healthyeating #healthyfood #eatyourveggies #personaldevelopment #personalgrowth #personalgrowthjourney #selflove #selfcare #selfcaresunday #spiritualhealer #intuitivehealer #instayum
    https://www.instagram.com/p/B8XStEiHQOS/?igshid=49ha1pmu5bim

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  • A gentle reminder! Tag someone who needs to see this ♥️🙏🏽⁣⁣⁣
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    #souljourney (at Venice, California)
    https://www.instagram.com/p/B8B0uofBbXt/?igshid=1uhy5le0jh7lj

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  • What changes are you being called to make for your greatest and highest good?
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    #higherself #change #changeisgood #divineguidance #vibes #goodvibes #highvibes #oraclecards #oraclecardreading #manifestation #manifestingabundance #manifesting #crystalhealing #healingenergy #selflove #selfcare #wellnessjourney #personalgrowth #personalgrowthjourney #mindsetiseverything #mindset #mindful #mindfulness #intuitive #intuitiveguidance #intuition #trusttheprocess #trustyourintuition #intuitionquotes
    https://www.instagram.com/p/B7tawLXn7fQ/?igshid=rysmkwbyyhra

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  • Why not?
    #integrity #leadership #personalgrowthjourney #discovertheleaderwithin #knowyourvalue #behumbleandkind
    https://www.instagram.com/p/B7EFF-0Besk/?igshid=1gvuu5roifcpt

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  • The universe buries strange jewels deep within us all, and then stands back to see if we can find them.

    -Elizabeth Gilbert

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  •       Kenapa mulai tertarik mernulis ? ini adalah pertanyaan pertama yang harus saya jawab sendiri. Didalam buku Simon Sinek start wit why, Simon Sinek mencontohkan kenapa perusahaan iphone bisa berkembang pesat dibandingkan dengan brand lain. Padahal brand lain juga memiliki pe rangkat yang sama. Perbedaannya terletak pada WHYnya. Tentu saya juga memiliki alasan kuat kenapa saya harus mulai berbagi, salah satunya dengan menulis di tumblr ini. 

          Tulisan saya ini merupakan insight yang saya dapatkan dari buku yang saya baca, video di youtube atau podcast yang saya dengar dan juga dari pengalaman hidup pribadi.

          Kenapa kita harus mencari faktor WHY dalam setiap aktivitas yang kita lakukan. Karena inlah yang akan membedakan seseorang  ketika semangat nya turun, orang yang melakukan karena dia sudah tahu WHYnya, dia pasti akan cepat bangkit lagi. Tetapi jika kita hanya melakukannya sesuatu hanya karena ingin dilihat dan dipuji orang lain. Maka ketika kita down, kita akan su lit mengembalikan semangat melakukan itu.

          Saya hanya ingin berbagi tentang insight apa yang saya dapatkan di tahun 2019 kemarin. Saya gak tahu, kenapa saya gak mau menulis lagi, padahal dulu sewaktu SMA menulis sudah menjadi hobby dalam hidup saya. Sebenar nya bukan tidak mau tapi terkadang saya merasa diri saya belum pantas memberikan sesuatu kepada orang lain, merasa rendah diri. Saya berpikir saya berbaginya setelah saya sukses. Ternyata saya salah, berbagi itu gak harus menunggu kita sukses atau kaya dulu. Tapi mulailah dari hal-hal kecil, misalnya seperti yang saya lakukan saat ini. Bagaimanapun kondisi kamu saat ini, mulailah memberikan sesuatu yang bisa kamu berikan. Apalagi itu berhubungan dengan kebaikan dan kebermanfaatan.

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  • I am a people pleaser

    I am a people pleaser

    Yep, I said it. It’s out there. And we all know it now.

    I am a people pleaser.

    I bend myself backwards and tie myself in knots to help everyone and anyone until I’m nothing but a husk. An empty shell of stress, anxiety and depression. I will not fight you. I will not challenge you and I will not blame you.

    But even with that; I will resent you, I will hate you, I will distance myself from you.

    I will cry, I will rage and then after all that I will smile and say sure!! And you know what? You’ll think it’s great, I’m an awesome friend. Always there, always reliable, always steady. Still you haven’t noticed that my smile drops with every favour, my eyes glaze with pain with every conversation. You haven’t seen me break because I don’t think you’d handle that. You’ve never seen me weak because that’s not our relationship.

    And I let you take of me at will because I’ve made myself believe it’s a noble and unselfish way of being. I’m a caretaker – I say – a mothering figure. I have a large kind heart and I should help people.

    And eventually that’s all I became to you and everyone else. That steady caretaker that holds your secrets, let’s you tell your lies, and will forever do the work for you.

    The worst thing is that I enabled you to treat me this way for so long that when that proverbial straw breaks that back. You will think that I’m crazy, that I am being mean, that I don’t love you anymore. And then it happens. You look all depressed or angry and say something like “ it’s was only a small favour don’t have a cow about it” or “fine, I won’t ask for help again” or “come on it’s not that big a deal. You’re so dramatic”

    Then my mind becomes your ally. “It really isn’t that big an ask” it’ll whisper. “They’ll think you don’t care”, “How can you be so selfish?”

    It’s seriously sickening. I have literally taught my brain and body to put your needs above mine! It’s crazy and you still haven’t noticed. So with a sigh, I take your task and I do it. I die a little more inside and I hate you a little more and yet it continues.

    You’re not the first or even the only person. Family, friends, colleagues, hell even strangers take advantage of this personality trait of mine. Take take take and I give give give. I stand quiet where you would be screaming. I stand strong where you would bleed out from the stress and I do it all with a smile and a silent scream.

    Then I begin to change. I learn that saying no is ok. I learn that I don’t have to explain. Most of the time these things still happen I will still explain, I will still say yes even though I shouldn’t. I will not say anything because I’m learning a 30 odd year old habit and way of thinking is hard damn work to change. And so you’ll notice that I don’t really get along with someone that I spoke to everyday. Or that the texts you send me get answered a little less quick then before; or you won’t and I’ll eventually fade out of your life like a forgotten childhood toy. You are, after all, so busy and have so many things going on that the quiet friend that doesn’t go drinking with you becomes a memory.

    Or maybe it’ll seem like I’m dispensable. After all the next person probably has more to offer you then what I did. The point is that eventually I won’t be there and wether you noticed or not. I will most definitely feel it.

    I gave you my loyalty, I loved you, I put you first every time and then I was nothing to you the very second I honestly needed you most. After all, that time you lost that promotion or that loved one I took that burden from you. I held your hand and caught your tears but you thanked someone else. That’s ok, I know I helped you.

    But I said no, so I deserved it, right? My brain thinks so. My heart hurts and I hear you telling the new friend that I didn’t help you when you needed me to. I hear them tell you that I was an awfully selfish friend. That I obviously didn’t care. They are so sympathetic to you and your needs. I’m now nothing but a bitter memory. It’s ok I understand. Life isn’t fair and I should’ve been a better friend, right?

    You never saw how I handled that family members death, Did you even notice? I bet you never knew my daughter was sick? Did you know I had a daughter? You probably did after all we were friends. Best friends as you would tell it.

    So I sit alone with my thoughts, my emotions swirling. I feel all that anger and resentment. I want to scream and hate you but I honestly can’t. If you called me tomorrow and said “help me” I probably would. Because I would need to prove to you that I’m still good, that I still love you, that your important. But I won’t call you now as I lie in my bed with the worst thoughts and an emotional storm. Because I wouldn’t want to burden you. I wouldn’t want you to deal with my pain. I’m stronger then that anyhow. People suffer more then me on the daily. I should feel grateful for what I have.

    But, I’m changing now you know. I’ll probably always want to help everyone and work myself into that empty husk again to do it. But I’ll also learn that I can’t give something from an empty cup without first filling it. I will learn that you don’t need an explanation. I need a break that’s it. That’s all. I owe you nothing. I will always want to give it because I don’t want you to hate me. But I don’t need to anymore.

    Because all this has taught me is that the friends worth having, the people worth keeping. They won’t care if I can’t make it. They understand that life can be a bit much sometimes and we all need some space. The best thing about these people. When I decide to talk about it they will listen with understanding and they will accept that I need to be alone. They will hold my hand, or get angry on my behalf, or even plan the ultimate weekend away to help. Because we get it.

    So really, after all that pain I’m here to say “thank you for teaching me how to be me better”

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  • 🌻✨

    You need to realize that you live in your own reality. We all do. And this reality is controlled by you. You decide what meaning things will have, what beliefs you will live by, what kind of people you will attract, what rules will apply in your reality.

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    I never know how to start a first post. It holds so much weight as it is the first thing people will see when they come to your page. I am starting of my blog on tumblr by touching on who I am and the purpose of my growing presence on social media. I am a simple girl with a complicated past that has led to quite a few mental health challenges in addition to my already present Autism spectrum disorder. I started my mission to spread my story because even though I have been through a lifelime of negative and traumatic events, I have also seen true good in the world. I want to share my story with others in the hopes that I can help at least one other person who is having a tough time, find light in their own lives.

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  • 17 June, 2001.

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    I was born in a small town with a population of about 83 865. My parents only had two children. I am the youngest.

    My mother and father (who used to be an alcoholic at the time) were always at work and the four of us lived with my (maternal) grandmother. My grandmother has always taken care of us for as long as I can remember. She made sure I was always fed and clothed and happy. I would hear stories of how she would pawn her wedding jewelry because my parents couldn’t afford baby formula and other necessities. It’s clear to see that I am the unplanned child. The “mistake” as my mother called it. My parents have always said that they love both of their children the same, but actions really do speak louder than words.

    My bother (who is three years older) has always gotten love and affection that all little kids need from their parents. When it came to me, my parents would only give me half of the encouragement and support they gave him. It’s never easy for a little kid to hear their parents call them a mistake. I know that I sound dramatic because my parents didn’t love me the same, but that affection that I was denied meant everything to younger me.

    As I got older, I became the “problem child”. I was always doing the wrong things and I was always being compared to my “perfect” brother. He always got good grades and did his chores. And I was just there. It became so normal to live in his shadow and always having to hear “why can’t you be more like your brother?” I also got so used to our relatives to always favor him. I remember crying a lot when I was alone in my room. I hated him so much growing up. I felt like I’d never be good enough. I got so used to being nothing but the unwanted one. That doesn’t mean I gave up. I still tried my best to at least get some kind of approval from them. I can recall my father making me say “I’m stupid” as he slapped me. I was around 13 years old. This is when I had my first suicidal thought. He also used to call me things like “useless”. That one word is the only word that still really gets under my skin.

    After a long while, I did actually give up. I realized that I’d never be good enough for them and there’s nothing I can do to change that. Nothing I could ever do would make them as happy as my brother could.

    A few years ago, my mother told me about how my father was so furious to hear that she was pregnant for the second time. I remember crying a lot.

    I do believe it’s because of my parents that I have self esteem issues. But I am working on it and I have come a long way.

    Me and my brother are a bit closer, but there are still days when my parents go back to their old habits. It doesn’t affect me at all though. I don’t care anymore about what makes them happy. I do not live to please them. I am my own person and I will put myself first. Always.

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  • I was looking for acceptance when I acted like I was too cool for things in my past…but as I get older I realize that it’s “the cool one” who ends up losing out.

    When you have to act cool, you can’t act vulnerable. 

    You can’t act like things are new, or that you’re overwhelmed, or be too excited. At the end of the day, you can’t experience true joy if you’re too worried about looking cool. Keep watching to learn more.

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  • Reset - 9 Years

    The past 9 years have been full. Since 14, I’ve never spent more than a couple months single. Always afraid of being alone.. or perhaps being viewed as not enough without a significant other.. I glided in and out of the arms of 6 men. Long-meaningful relationships became a characteristic of mine. They would say “Look, there goes Victoria, the serial girlfriend” and I would smile. I would smile because I liked the idea of everyone knowing me as the one who was always loved, who was worth the time and devotion of handsome men. I was happy because it assured me that everything those awful girls in my middle school used to say was a lie. I was not ugly, weird, unlovable, or a freak. How could that be true when I had had so many men fall in love with me? It just simply couldn’t be, and I was proud of that.

    Fast forward to today and in the blink of an eye, everything has changed. After being single and looking for my next significant other for only a month, I woke up this morning and realized that I no longer want to look. For the first time since I was 14, I want to please only me. I want to be the healthiest, smartest, most successful version of myself. I don’t need anyone else to help me with this, I will do it on my own. I now see the people around me say “Look, there goes Victoria, the strong woman” and that makes me smile because it’s true and it’s dependant on me being me.. not being loved by another. I realize now that I do not so much wish to be loved.. but I wish to find someone who I love. Who makes my heart do backflips, who makes my toes curl with pleaser at their touch, who enhances who I am rather than defining it. I will not settle. I will now only expend effort on someone who makes me feel the way I deserve to feel. My love will make me feel like a queen.. and that man will be my king.

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  •  Over the time of our life, We explore amongst experiences and feelings with different individuals. One feeling we most often feel lately is heartbreak and betrayal (excluding those content in their current situation), this has become a normal for daily society because there are different views, opinions, or choices.  We have become more open than the previous generations before us but the problem is for us is communication and endurance or will to be able to fix even the most minor of problems when being with someone.  

      Many tend to give up too easily especially when they haven’t gotten to know or understand the reason how it started in the first place or being slightly stubborn. Being stubborn isn’t the only reason why we do this. From my own personal experience from a subject talked before is that we Idealize the relationship to a perfect love story experience like we see in social media. Though I am not saying that we aren’t allowed to have expected obligations or wants from those we choose to be involved with hopefully long-term results, we just forget that things including learning the faults do take time but another is to accept them.

     Accepting doesn’t mean accept an abusive spouse’s faults and actions but I’m pretty sure you get the concept.  

     Many of us don’t give ourselves time to heal and automatically jump to another relationship, trying to fill that void left empty. But are we making the right choice in doing so? Here where it gets perplexed, we are struggling with maintaining stable connections for many reasons; we bore easily or it’s going at an excelled rate that one or both cannot handle, we get busy with other responsibilities, or in it for all the wrong perks of being with the person, etc.. 

     Values change all the time, molding and adapting every decade or so. but it doesn’t mean that this one’s era is not helping us succeed in compatible companionship. This is my opinion for this is through how my eyes see the world and from my past experiences within my own relationships and along with witnessing from friends and family. 

     Then there is something to say about ourselves, We have some not so good traits and impulses, sometimes these aren’t very easy to control or we are oblivious to them. Sometimes we hide them to the best ability we can because we need to be perfect in every shape or form. Some of us lack the understanding of taking consideration for the other’s feelings. 

    We are going to have multiple relationships over our lifetime that is true but we lack certain social skills to better communicate with each other, we can also be afraid and trust becomes much more scarce because we do not take our actions accountable and vice verse. 

     Things are never easy, and being in a relationship there is going to be a lot more effort to be dedicating yourself to someone, that’s also personal growth. Patience is key, it will be difficult at times to be it’s an experience with compromises and that itself can get complicated. As long we are able to take our time to listen before reacting will also help build character for both parties. 

     We need to have a bit more faith, respect, and understanding before we can actually respond than end a relationship. We treat relationships as if we a bunch of teenagers that we no longer are, love is an unconditional thing but some of us treat one another as a prize then actually genuinely caring for said person we’re dating. 

     Being in a relationship should be soul defining and yes it’s okay to fall out of love with someone too when this happens do not drag on the relationship and start finding someone behind your current partner’s back. That’s disrespectful because if done to us we would be just as upset. we lack empathy in many of our choices most times we are just acting based on natural instinct, we should take a moment and think if we are making the right choice or will there be consequences to the path we are about to embark.  

    We Forget that we are human and have forgotten the basics and values that should be in place in any kind of relationship whether it is monogamous or not. Effort, understanding, patience, trust, respect, and empathy are what keep any connection balanced something that we should be able to do in our sleep. 


    Maybe we can bring back what a relationship should be. Not personal status and popularity. 

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  • If you’re lacking purpose and direction right now it’s not because you have some healing to do or some internal blocks to clear🧐

    No amount of digging up the past in therapy is going to bring you back into alignment with your word which is your integrity✊🏽

    When you’re in alignment with your word and living your life with integrity it means you don’t buckle and fold under the thoughts, opinions or actions of others - you can keep it moving because you know where you want to go and what’s going to help you get there👏🏽

    I’ve heard so many people ask me how to find their purpose but the truth is we all have it, it’s been inside us all along! All we have to do is unlearn everyone else’s bullshit that has been imposed on us since birth and get clear on who we were before we stopped asking why🤔

    When we stopped asking why that’s when we became cloudy and directionless because things that didn’t make sense to us were now belief systems we “had to” go along with them & this is why unlearning our conditioning is essential💯

    How do we do this? LET IT GET REALLY FUCKING QUIET IN YOUR HEAD 😁

    Cleanse your environments and watch what happens to your clarity of mind ✅

    #personalgrowth #personaldevelopmentcoach #personalgrowthjourney #quotestoliveby #lifepurpose #lawofattractionquotes #mindfulliving #wisdomquotes #spiritualaf #spiritualgrowth #positivenergy #healingquotes #healingjourney #collectiveconsciousness #consciousliving #knowledgeofself #fulfillment
    https://www.instagram.com/p/B18y8PDnTPj/?igshid=1cqz8pbvz11v6

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  • Infinite truth! What do I have?
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    #spiritualgrowthjourney #personalgrowthjourney #personalgrowth #personalgrowth❤️ #vinyasa #yoga #armbalancing #inversionaddictcommunity #inversionaddict #forearmstands @melspirations
    https://www.instagram.com/p/B14Kl_bDGyu/?igshid=1p1g4zdd8x635

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  • Just like a horoscope, but Warriorscope let’s you know what type of warrior you are based upon your date of birth. This will help you be the best you can be, as you allow your inner warrior to shine. Written by Elizabeth Roden and Orville Burch. Available on Amazon

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