Outtakes of @adashofnirvana and I chaotically theorizing about the 19/10 Phanniversary.
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heres my two cents even tho no one asked
dan and phil’s “wedding” is fine to joke/talk about as long as u dont bring others personal struggles into it. cat hasnt uploaded anything to her channel in suCh a long time and for her to come back and just sit down and talk about how bad her mental health was in the past year, and for some of us to just ignore all of the video and take the bit where she says “all of my friends are getting married, getting engaged” is so insensitive. the thing is, is that if it was a different kind of video then it wouldnt be a problem but when shes vulnerable and all shes met with is dumb theories over her friends’ wedding doesnt only paint a really bad image of who we all are but is just not regarding her feelings when u throw all of what she said and cling to that part.
when i first discovered dnp, and more specifically dan, i was pretty lost in life. i was dealing with depression and anxiety and some other issues, and i was afraid to do anything but stay in the box i had created for myself. when i started watching dan, and watching his content from all different times, i was so amazed. dan has gone from the person he was in hello internet to the person he is now, and a few years ago, that was something i could barely believe. i felt stuck; i felt lost; i felt like i held no value. i was extremely suicidal.
in recent years, dan has grown vocal in the issues he cares about, from his experience with mental illness to his experience as a queer person. from my closeted, depressed perspective, he was a revelation. dan’s content didn’t make me stop being suicidal; that was a process that is still ongoing, but it did show me that better times can come, and it was shown through such a raw and truthful perspective that for me and so many other people, it meant an incredible amount.
in a decade, dan has become who he is today, and i feel so incredibly privileged and so incredibly inspired by the fact that we have been witness to that. when dan made hello internet, he couldn’t have known the effect he’d have, and yet from that was built his part of the dnp empire.
It’s almost that time boys
wallpapers with dan howell quotes.
Does anyone else feel like their life is a long 600k word, painfully slowburn fanfic.
too many wedding theories in the right time
Have you ever read a fan fiction that hits you so hard, it makes you feel sorry for pigeon you kicked accidentally despite having done it once before when you were tipsy? Yeah, me neither.
For his ten year YouTube birthday, is Dan going to:
A) make some sappy existential tweet
B) make a self deprecating shitpost
C) stay entirely silent
GUYS I JUST REALISED 19 OCTOBER IS IN 3 DAYS I AM NOT OKAY
so. my birthday. I ask my mom to get me the interactive introverts dvd. she got it, and my dad asks if I want to watch it. after mentally debating with myself for a few minutes I’m like “they made it for all ages, it’ll be fine.” so I’m watching the show with my parents. and of course I forgot that dan is dan and phil is phil and my dad falls asleep and they’re just talking about furries, suggestive events, kinks, and demonetization while my mom is sitting next to me like
YouTube notification: “Daniel Howell has uploaded a new video: 'The Future of Daniel Howell’”
The video is 8 seconds long. Dan yells, “I still don’t have any fucking idea! See you in another 4-6 months.”
And we are thrilled. We have been fed.
It has been 10 years of this fantastic human and I couldn’t be more proud of him. He has come so far and helped so many people including myself. So thank you Daniel x
Here is to another 10!
I think that some people in the phandom are like, “OMG!!! RESPECT DAN AND PHIL THEY DONT WANT TO BE PUBLIC STOPPPPP” and then turn around and write smutty phanfics and cry into their pillows because they aren’t making out on camera. And as someone who as been a part of the phandom as a kid (way way way to young to be exposed to some of this shit).. I was a little bit of a demon and I started right in the height of the 2012 breakdown and so I did lots of digging and found the daily booths and the tweets and Phil’s old content before it was deleted and to be clear.. it was so obvious Phil was gay. And honestly (no tea no shade) dan too. But it was us (and specifically these phannies ^^^) that caused them to return to the closet. Because some people are going to go, “omg did you not watch dans vid that’s not it” you obviously didn’t pay enough attention. While dan has struggled with his sexuality and I will not discredit his struggle.. he did say that he wanted his relationship to be PRIVATE and that all the attention and all the people knowing scared him. I think that was a nice dan way of saying, “ y’all creeped me tf out”. For example, as a TikTok god I spend a lot of time there and often get recommended phan TikToks and there is the one (shudder) melanie martinez Cover of toxic and it unearthed some repressed trauma. If anyone remembers: I never saw the video because I was a baby but I do know about it because of it being a joke in the phandom for a long time. And it made me realize HOW FUCKING CREEPY BROS these are real people. And this was before the legalization of gay marriage. And their was hate everywhere. So imagine: you and your (possible don’t hunt me) boyfriend make videos for fun and a hoard of teenagers, in a hate filled society for the LGBTQ, make actual p*** and fan fiction with you being psycho (cherry), disgusting (hat) , and all around weird (skin) and not to mention very sexually explicit. Like the amount of death threats they probably recived in this time from us shipping them alone. That would make anyone skip right back into the closet. And I am just so disappointed in everyone that’s like “we would have been supportive!!” No Susan. They weren’t worried we weren’t gonna be supportive, they were concerned that we were gonna take it EVEN FURTHER (IF YOU EVEN CAN) like that’s gross and terrible and the fact they ever felt this way is awful. So the problem never was us shipping them. It was the absolute creeps that took it way too far. Plus I’m happy they are keeping their relationship on the dL a little.. ( not saying I don’t want some questions answered ) but this ^^^ is crazy utter insanity and I don’t, DO NOT, want them dealing with any of that anymore.
phil: hey so to celebrate 10 years since you started out on yt i’ve got a special video that i want to share with you :)
dan: awe ty ly bb :)
phil: ly 2 :)
phil: *plays hello internet*
dan: ffs phil
10 years of dinof as of half an hour ago :///// thinkin bout dan howell and how much hes evolved as a person ://////// and all the incredible things hes achieved in such a relatively short period of time :////////// thinkin bout how hes affected and brightened so many peoples lives including my own :////////// daniel howell if ur out there ily ://////////////
October 16, 2009: Dan and Phil’s tweets about Hello Internet!