I miss you when I clean my room
There’s too much space in this bed without my laundry
But just enough room for you.
I miss you beside me
You know…
The whole light up my life thing?
When I open the blinds to the morning sun
Staring at my vague reflections
Wishing you were there to give me direction
There’s too much space in my life
Without all the messes
Too much quiet in my head
Without all my depression.
-DC
Seeds of doubt are meant to grow. Water them and you will be sorry. Protect your garden. Protect what you love. Protect your heart.
Since love grows within you, so beauty grows, for love is the beauty of the soul, the best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen nor even touched, but just felt in the heart…
Semjase 12: 04
I want to roam
Rampantly wild in your disguise
To venture the depth
Of oceans inside of your eyes
Feel the hysterical cries
Running in my naked mind
Have our stars aligned
In fallacies of human kind
I know nothing
But a life left far behind
A vision of our future
Skids through; legally blind
Across dire straits of time
Can you bring me back
To dive across the sunshine
Pouring from lonely sighs
Mereces a alguien que sepa apreciar el arte y los colores de tus demonios. 🖤🥀
“You live in a fantasy world and none of that is practical.”,he said.
Honey,how to make you understand the love I have for you,so deep that it cannot be fathomed,to the extent you’re calling it “fantasy”.
Someone who loves her.
I look at her and it all gets really simple
It all gets really clear
I know the water is only murky with you,
because you aren’t for me.
And every time I leave with that
You come back trying to add something
I tried my hardest to get you away from me
A safe distance from me
But here you are
Making love seem like the most complicated thing
But he loves her
And she doesn’t have to ask
She doesn’t have to try
She doesn’t even spend the nights crying
I used to think it was all about perfect timing
But time won’t stop you from lying
And I spend more and more time
Being lonely
Listening to a love story that could sound so phony
If I hadn’t seen it with my own eyes
And I hate you
Because time has only made me realize
It really is that simple
And I know that you recognize.
And I know it wasn’t real
Because you couldn’t just say it
I used to be so fond of love
And somehow you made me hate it.
-DC
I lose myself easily in your eyes
Pulling my soul away from its ties
Not a thing I can do
But relinquish to you
This dance of hellos and goodbyes
.
three things i know to be true
1.
my emotions are
less like a rollercoaster and
more like a looming wave.
they’re always there,
quiet, small thngs that barely
disturb the sand,
but i know that there will
eventually
be a tsunami to
tear down the
walls i’ve built in my mind.
it will
raze everything
to the ground.
2.
i do not
live like
someone who is
‘normal.’
normal people don’t have
crashing waves or
unpredictable tides—
i have the
beach
to myself.
3.
i am weary
of the fight.
the exhaustion
sinks deep into my bones,
steals what little breath is
left in my lungs.
it begs for me to
finally
rest.
and one i don’t yet understand
1.
i always see people ask
if it gets better.
it is answered,
time and time again—
yes,
yes, it gets better.
instead, i pose:
how do you bear it?
the brutal storms,
winds that shake your
very foundations,
everything that you’re built on,
rain that soaks you through,
leaves you shivering in the cold.
how do you move forward?
i strain my eyes and yet
all i can see is a
whirlpool
pulling me
down, down, down.
I laid in a fish tank
With golds , angels ,
and Mollie fish.
People come and sprinkle food.
Tap on the glass.
See how long I can hold my breath.
Do you prefer stay quiet?
Rumors around, silence inside.
Are you still alive?
I’m in love (with the idea of love)
You really make me feel (worried)
I’ll never forget how you held me (captive)
You leave an ache in me (and I’m still healing)
You say you’d never hurt me (again)
They say you’re no good (I finally believe them)
But I’m not afraid of you (anymore)
“Each of your breaths a whisper across my soul, gentle breeze for which leaves me anything but cold.. the beats of your heart a mold of mine as our hearts beat together, and I can only think that I hope we are together forever. You are me, I is you.. we light the sky wherever there is blue. Me, you, us two into the stars of my heart.”
For an always souls have mated like flowers, growing together and cuddling beauty.. but one time in existence, mine meets yours and I have to tell you.. it’s fuggin awesome, haha! - eUë
.
I remember the one and only time
we tried to eat dinner together
at our dining table, instead of the tv
my dad, he teased me so much
about the boy I loved
that I left before eating
crying all night in my room
that was the last time
we tried to be a family
.
