Bajo el manto de la soledad
Hay medias noches en las que deambulo por los callejones, en busca de una boca para besar, unas palabras que me griten al oído muy suavemente el precio del deseo.
Medias noches que me amanecen antes de cerrar los ojos, medias noches que saben a lunes por la mañana, medias noches sospechosas de asesinar un corazón.
Is it wrong to wish I never met you?
Even though you gave me love
And healed me beyond expectations?
Is it wrong to wish I never loved you?
Because while you’ve cured
You’ve equally damaged me for others.
Is it wrong to wish you’d never loved?
So that you’d never be touched by heartbreak
To be a statue of marble, never wearing with time.
Is it wrong to wish I had said no?
When it was the harder thing to do
So I wouldn’t be here now, wishing it was different?
i know that you took pieces of me before you left
i can see it in the way that you dress
so to say that you didn’t would be a lie
but trying to convince you of something
has always been a waste of time
because when compared to you
i’m never right
but it’s endearing to know that i had such
an effect on you
i hope you smile when you think of me too
Have you ever felt so alone?
That even in a crowd of love
You just want to disappear?
Have you ever felt so lost?
That even when you’ve found your calling
You still find yourself falling?
Have you ever felt that you don’t deserve it?
That even when you have everything
You question why it’s yours?
Have you ever felt so cold?
That even all the warmth in the world
Can’t thaw all that ice?
These are all things I feel
When the siren call of endless darkness comes
Do I call for help? Or do just I surrender?
“Tell me”, says the empty paper,
“If you’re so over her and see her
As nothing more than a friend, tell me
Why is her name spilled all over
This notebook? A mistake?”
I clench my hands together
And feel the butterflies rush in,
My heart floods the word love
Into my veins
And I listen to my brain
For once agreeing.
There’s no argument, so I say
“No, I’m just scared. I’m scared
Of getting hurt again. I’m scared
Of rejection. I’m scared because I think
I’m falling in love when I don’t
Want to be. I’m scared I might hurt her
If she were to find out.
I’m scared that by some unfortunate
Happenstance my parents will
Find these pages…we all know why”.
The words stop pouring out of me
As wasps swarm my stomach,
Fighting with the butterflies.
They’re angry at me for feeling so much
But still, no matter how much
The wasps sting,
I get so elated around her.
Even just thinking about her.
Sometimes her flushed cheeks
And shakey hands
Whisper she likes me too,
“And I’m scared that it might work
Because I still feel like I don’t deserve love”
The paper collects my tears
And envelopes my feelings
To be reopened another day
And I lay down to rest in
A whirlwind once again
Thoughts of nothing but the girl
I want to love and how much
I wish people knew
Overflow in my head.
The classic end to another night
That stole the keys to my closet door.
यह ऐसा है जैसे आपका भूत यहाँ है लेकिन वह मुझसे भी नफ़रत करते, इसलिए वह मुझे सपने बनाते है तुम्हारे सिवा कुछ भी नहीं है।
It is as if your ghost is here but she hates me too, so she makes me dream there is nothing but you.
And Kissed Me How Scalia
Beasts And The River Of Mia
And Wondering Behold A Song When Farr
Sleep Among The Little Ones Mar
Dark Disputes And Said O Bough
Little Ones Thou Go To Allow
D Have Fallen Light Hydea
Thy Father Wept With Plagues The Inamura
Sometimes I scare myself
I don’t wanna be this way
I don’t wanna hurt
I just wanna be okay.
When I look in the mirror
I don’t see what they see
I see someone
who’s beaten and bruised
who’s in so much pain
she doesn’t know what to do.
I feel ugly inside
I really don’t feel pretty.
Mikhail Arkadyevich Svetlov, Selected Poems
En bordure de nulle part, où le soleil trempe ses lèvres à la coupe de l'océan — repose un être
I have drowned in this ocean before
Waters filling my lung and suffocating
Taking my breathe away
Twirling in sweet torture
But I never tried to swim away from these waters
I kept going in
Until the last thing I saw was your body in touch with mine
under this deep blue sky
You were here
Waving your final goodbye.