If you are going to think about the future then please get excited instead of worried. Don’t carry fear into your next moment. This life is meant to be enjoyed🥂
If you are wondering when your breakthrough/blessing or new beginning will come then you are still not in the right vibration. You need to be in a state of not caring what happens and just focused on the present moment. This moment right now creates the next moment. If you are in a state of lack right now then how can you expect to be in a state of abundance in the next moment?! So make the decision to feel good and to focus on your blessings or act as if you have what you want and you will see it materialize.
i don’t chase. i attract. what is for me will simply find me. 🧿
When children of God base their worth on external means, they lose sight of what makes them truly valuable. They lose sight of what is inside their very essence, ignoring the real and true power of their own. Knowing your worth opens the door to creating the life you want to live, magnetizing energetic abundance to fuel your beautiful path.
having narcissistic and manipulative siblings is bottom two and not two. especially when your parents make you make up with them regardless of what they do to you. like i’ve always been the type of person to cut someone off the minute i see a red flag but my parents are convinced that their own children can’t be genuinely terrible people and it’s an absolute nightmare to deal with. from my experience, male children are the worst. i’m ✨manifesting✨ that i only have daughters. and that my parents get of the sunken place in regards to my brothers because they deserve so much better than to be manipulated and treated the way they are, all in the name of family. 🧿
Journal Entry 45
January 26th, 2021
Song of the Day: Would You Be So Kind by dodie
I had a dream last night that he accepted a Bible study I sent him. It was very random and I’m not sure what it means, but I did ask some of my prayer peeps on my private story to pray that I find a good Bible study group so maybe that’s a sign that I’ll find one soon? Not sure, could definitely be just a coincidence or my subconscious being anxious about Bible study.
I’m so tired today my goodness I need to go back to bed when class is over. I’m currently watching Demon Slayer, Assassination Classroom, and the Promised Neverland at the same time.
Right now my favorite characters in each are
Demon Slayer - Tanjiro
Assassination Classroom - Karma
Promised Neverland - Norman
I have a habit of overreacting to subtle differences in how people treat me. One of my good friends from high school and someone I really look up to has kinda been distant from me since I reached out. I’m not the same person I was when we were friends, but I still have the same heart which is what I thought our relationship was built on. I’m not the strongest in my walk with God right now and I feel I’m overreacting to her slight change in mood towards me, but I feel like it has something to do with that.
I’m 100% a Christian, that’s not a debate, God wholeheartedly has changed my life, but I am also not as innocent as I was in high school.
I have now rested. I’m going to make it a point to do Bible study today. He is the one who is going to make me feel better because of who He is. I’ll remember what it feels like to have a good relationship with Him again.
a very random wish i got when i read a fan fiction is that i hope people start treating themselves like they would to their favorite book characters. sure you may be vulnerable, lost, has a habit of biting your nails, doesn’t know a thing about that lecture you are taking, breaks down every night which may seem like lame to you. but when i read these same things going on with that character i adore so much, i feel like protecting them. no “why don’t you try harder”, “you are worthless”, or “you don’t deserve happiness anyway because of how your nature and coping instincts are built a certain manner”. all i feel is compassion. i wish i could tell them they are doing great though it’s almost blind to their own eye, that things are getting better very soon, that their fashion sense is not lame and that they have a beautiful smile. i want to protect them for everything that they are. and maybe if everyone looked at themselves like a thriving little soul in a book, looking forward to their survival through all the problems they are stuck in, they’ll try to be more gentle. maybe they’ll try to pat themselves on the back for managing to complete that assignment which they dreaded out of anxiety for so long, that it’s not lame to cry over the lack of necessary love and support you deserve. we are all protagonists of our life, but also an author in themselves for you to decide whether this person should be embraced by the reader, which also in fact are you.
Take a deep breath. You’ll be okay. It’ll all work out.
Miraculous days are natural for me.
I am the master of my mind.
stay open, stay kind, stay loving, stay hopeful, and abandon the belief that this is somehow a disadvantage; it is your soft and sensitive nature that will change the world.
i am open to receive prosperity, success, joy, love and abundance and trust that the universe has every intention of bringing these to me.
Life is fucking puzzle and enjoy it making no matter you put wrong peice you can’t reverse it without taking time you will take time and replace thats what happens with life sometimes you need to replace feelings and it takes time but at last you have a beautiful masterpiece you spent time to make with all different moods and emotions
Love you xoxo 💕
A very sleepy good morning :) going to see a Van Gogh museum exhibit today! I minored in art history at university and I love expanding my knowledge of art. Have a lovely day y’all! 🖼
Keep grinding 💪🏽