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if i haven't lost after eating net 300cal for the past 3 days i am going to riot

ass 2 fat i broke the drawstrings on my shorts trying to pull them over my hips without untying them bc i was lazy

adam and blue! fuck!

marvel should do more with the fact that inside of vision’s body is like, basically a death trap. that feels like an untapped potential of interesting stories.

Would quickly like to say that just because I haven’t talked about/made art with Jim recently doesn’t mean I forgot about him. I think about him every single day and I love him with all my heart. If a romantic f/o grabs my attention for a little while I let it happen, but my friendship with Jim is forever and nothing could ever get in the way of that

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Σήμερα νιώθω πλήρης, γιατί ξέρω πως υπάρχεις κι ας μου λείπεις.

c!quackity bounding people via contracts............ you smart fucking bastard.

Fyi friends of Tumblr, because I follow a blog doesn't mean I support or condone any ideals, my ideals are of my own opinion and I don't agree with anything unless it's anime headcanon, I just follow kin blogs and blogs that have things I like

fate / up against your will / through the thick and thin he will wait until / you give yourself to him

echo & the bunnymen – the killing moon

bất tử luân hồi au 💔 the name of this au is the combination of two words: “bất tử” - “immortal” and “luân hồi” - “reincarnation” 💔 i’ll put the lore under the cut because, as you all know, i tend to ramble a lot (this drawing is also based on the flower shop scene in vertigo!) have fun reading 💔

↳ this au is based on the fact that spirous actually a cryptic undead himself. then i thought that. hm. well he might be immortal but that doesnt mean his husband is too. youre old and wrinkly but i am still a youngster. you’ve been death for a few dozen years but i am still here. yes this is that whole “watching your loved one age and die” trope. its the immortal curse anyways

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spirous an immortal. idk why hes an immortal tho, but hes been living on this earth for billions of years, probably? maybe bc or something idk. we even joked abt how hes jesus too. spisus.

so here we have the usual “immortal curse” stuff, living day by day in boredom with nothing to do no one to do anything with. spirous been here for hundreds of years but he has never once fallen in love. maybe its not for him. just when hes abt to be so sure hes an ace aro fantasio came along and swept him right off his feet. fantasio taught him what love is like, then he also taught him how losing a loved one feels like,, watching your loved one slowly age,,, to love something despite knowing one day that love would leave you behind? good god

after that he obviously couldnt love anyone else. he swore that he only love fantasio and just fantasio alone, the first is also the last. fantasios a mortal, he knew that, he had to accept it. he gave fantasio a proper funeral and then mummified him (cause hes insane) and put him in a casket under his basement so he could visit his husband whenever he misses him

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a few dozen years later spirou suddenly saw fantasio again, under a different identity, in a different body. fantasio reincarnated. since then spirous found himself a life purpose: to find every fantasios reincarnations. i’ll love you and all of your different lives

kinda funny to think abt how he’d approach all the fantasios tho. like what excuse he’d use this time. accidentally bump into the other while jogging? standing behind the other in line and start a small talk? putting hand on top of the other’s on the last milk can in the supermarket? hello you might not know who i am but you’ve loved me in your last life so you gotta love me now?? also the “you” spirou uses for fantasio here is “em” and the “i” he uses is “tôi”, a romantic way of addressing yourself and the person younger than you, since fantasios younger than spirou in this au, technically. but the thing is fantasio fall for spirou eventually every single time. maybe romance is indeed real. maybe thats why spirou keeps on searching. love is real bitch you just gotta believe in it!!! spirou keeps on looking no matter how long he has to wait. spirou keeps on looking knowing he'll lose fantasio again. if thats not love then what is

the first fantasio is the only one who stayed with spirou until hes old though, every other fantasio died young, and he kept dying younger and younger each time, to the point that he’d die a few years after they fell in love, die helplessly and unexpectically and unavoidably? because god killed him? as a punishment or something? like you cant just interfere with fate and natural order and whatnot like that. but spirous stubborn, so he doesnt give a shit. i’d break fate into halves just to be with him. i dont care if god (is there another word in english for? uh. well lets just use that for now ig im too tired to find a western equivalent for easterns stuff rn) forbid us i’ll chase the shape of you i’ll do everything as long as we get to be together, as long as i can meet you again. what is grief if not love persevering?

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as i’ve said earlier spirous insane. you’d be insane if you live too long but meh hes already insane so i cant use that as an excuse. everytime fantasio dies he’d mummified and keep his husbands corpses under the basement, along with the first fantasio. the last fantasio went down once (spirou never let him) and found out about it, so he left

man idk everything i’ve ever wrote, this included, i want them to have this,, ~lingering sadness quiet insanity vibes~ and not,, loud shocking drama or anything. so the reveal of spirou keeping all of his husbands past corspes and fantasio finding out abt them isnt there as a shock factor? fantasio didnt fight or scream or anything he just silently left. ok i know thats even more painful then putting up a fight but like we’ve known abt this already? spirou knew it was bound to happen anyways. to love despite knowing it will end in pain. to know it wont end well but still love every single second of it while its happening. idk. humanity. though this dude isnt really that human

fantasio die not long after he left (obviously) but this time hes impossible to find after dozens, after hundreds of years. spirou started to struggle oh no this is it its over now its all my fault i’ve messed everything up i’ve fucked up i’ve fucked up i’ve fucked up oh god no oh

after all of his attempts he still couldnt find fantasio, hes began to lose all of his hopes. hes when through grief and rage and regret and pain, all sort of that stuff, and then he had to stop. he gave up. fantasios gone for good

thats when fantasio came back to find him

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when spirou gave up on everything he asked god to trade his immortality for a life for fantasio. he can just die he doesnt care anymore, isnt this what god wanted? the guy who messed with the order of everything is retired now, and all he ask for is for fantasio to get to live well, to have a full life he deserves, to get to continue iiving somewhere in this world. god agreed, spirou began to age

when fantasio died he asked god to grant im immortality so that he can find spirou again. thats why it took him so long to be reborn lmao dude was busying arguing with god. god told him alright i’ll let you die for a few hundred years if you could remember him then i’ll consider it. then fantasio was reborn and he actually remember it. he doesnt know anything but he knew hes suddenly remember all of his past lives. the time periods his identities and everything might change but there is one thing thats always there, hes only ever loved one person. hes only ever loved the color of that red hair

and so, since god is god (kind of an easter egg the god in here is also the same god in my one of my other universes lmao, the one i build with my friends) he took spirous immortality to gave fantasio even tho their wishes werent related. so fantasios an immortal now, and spirous a mortal. fantasio began his journey to look for spirou

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when fantasio found spirou hes became an old man. that feeling when fantasios lived for a bunch of lives but spirou stayed the same and now when fantasios finally find spirou hes old and wrinkly? the adoring of seeing your loved one,, aging,,,, fantasio on the other hand, for the first time ever youve came back to me, looking as young as ever

fantasio returned and they hug and spirou probably die not long after. or right after idk. fantasio gave his husband a funeral, put his husbands corpse next to his own in the basement, and went on looking for him again. lives after lives after lives. despite the world trying to pry them apart, despite everything. a circle of love

thinking abt the last scene before the ending,, spirou on his last dying days sitting at his front porch waiting for death to take him away, hes have a full lonely life, he doesnt dare to wish for any miracle, but suddenly he saw the image of his husband through the corner of his eyes

is it really you?

yeah, i’m home now

( ^ i ended it on this poetic note but since this is in ENGLISH (derogatory) i gotta but an ugly note at the end again. the “you” and “i” they use is one old married couples usually use. thats all goodbye and thank you for reading ily <3)

That feeling when you re-read a draft of a blog post you wrote four years ago that you’re thinking of dismantling for parts because you always thought it was disjointed and clunky, and it’s actually ...amazing?

GOT AN 11 KILL SPREE IN SWAT I ALMOST FEEL BAD

i'm finishing the blanket that i started for my mama.

god yall ever just see one thing and it ruins ur whole night

thank u tumblr for telling me that i have 0 notifs. much appreciated & v helpful <3

one of the hands in the thumbnail of voids new video is doing the MIDDLE FINGER holy SHIT

diversity win! deku comes out as straight