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  • solardrink
    01.08.2021 - 6 minutes ago

    sleep never comes easy anymore

    youre lying in bed and youre too hot and the heat is pushing down on your arms and your legs and you feel unreasonably angry

    you toss away blankets and youre freezing and the cold grasps your feet and your back and the anxiety crawls back

    you distract yourself from thoughts you could would never tell anyone because it hurts like a knife to admit to yourself

    your vision swims enough to finally close your eyes and let yourself be lost to the comfortable nothingness

    youre dreaming again

    fuck its a bad dream. no one even needs to tell you because you already know. you know it like you know your name and the feeling of your hair and the way your tears taste

    you instantly feel the fear. it tastes like losing something you cant live without. it feels like the possibility of screaming or throwing up or both at the same time

    everything is fuzzy around your vision because youre not meant to remember this. youre not meant to see this

    like the rest if your memories that are real bec

    ause youre real and ever

    ything is fine and maybe if y

    ou blink and tense your stomach hard enough you can wake up-

    you cant wake up.

    you cant wake up yet.

    look around.

    panicked tears spring up from your eyes already and you cant feel the sensation yet you know theyre there.

    your throat is burning from a sob you want to release because you need to cry but theres nothing to even be upset about. only a crushing dread that hurts your soul

    look around. you force yourself to stare at the walls of this place. youve never been anywhere like this before. theres a dull green glow to the entire place like someone above is shining a green lightbulb over a hazy room filled with fog you cant taste and only makes you feel numb and floating when your feet are on the ground if you focus enough to look

    saxophone is playing too loud and someone young and whole and broken is singing

    suddenly you get the overwhelming urge to jump away from a [nothing] that was about to bite you

    you desperately turn around wildly but theres nothing even there

    theres nothing here you know this like you know your name and the feeling of your hair and the way your tears taste

    but you still feel watched

    you want to leave

    i want to leave

    let me leave

    let us leave

    nothing is right this isnt real let me out let them out

    and youre smiling youre beaming and youre laughing so damn hard you can hardly see and your cheeks hurt from smiling and (your fingers feel cold) and everything is so bright and sharp

    the floor is grass now

    and your mother is here

    she tells you how much you disappointed her and youre still smiling and screaming and you can barely breathe

    its too bright

    its been quiet the whole time

    you bite your lips and clench your fists to make sure you can still move

    youre not empty

    you are so impossibly full of emotion you couldnt even name and your head would hurt to try

    you feel so lost and nostalgic. what are you nostalgic for?

    what have you lost? your old friends and your young innocence? empty rooms that were full of people once and crowded closets with things youll never wear and never play in again and old toys that arent as entertaining anymore and when you could crawl into your parents bed after the monsters in your dreams but you cant do that anymore because they would ask what scared you and you Cant Even Answer That and it hurts like a knife to admit to yourself let alone tell someone else

    so youre awake now

    youre sweating too hard and youre too cold inside and too hot to move

    so youre laying there and youre breathing softly (harshly) and its too uncomfortably warm and [nothing] is going to bite you if you move

    so you check the time and its [nothing] and you put your phone down and you wont run to your parents room with your blanket anymore

    so youre awake now and that was a little scary but the details are slipping away now and you have to get ready for today because youre pretty sure you have to go somewhere at 5 and youre okay and this is real and i love you and that was never real but its alright because does it matter? youre being a little dramatic now

    im glad youre awake

    you dont remember what you dreamt about? im not surprised, its fairly rare to remember what you had a dream about

    Did you know that dreams are often linked to real life events from the past? Usually these are events or thoughts from one to two days before the dream. Some scientists disagree about the meaning of dreams as well. Anyway, I'm happy you're up now.

    you know that youre awake like you know your name and the feeling of your hair and the way your tears taste

    #dreams tw#derealisation tw #heavy derealization tw #derealization #just me practicing writing :D
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  • darkix-draws
    01.08.2021 - 20 minutes ago

    Doodle of alip!Virgil ig?

    @residentanchor

    #my art#digital art #a lesson in practicality #alip!virgil #doodle #sanders sides fanart #sanders sides #sanders sides au
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  • thecindercrow
    01.08.2021 - 34 minutes ago

    We have begun the disco game. let the disappointing of Kim commence

    #I knew next to nothing going into this game. we are so much more of a disaster than I could have ever anticipated #I know I see practically everyone who talks about the game feelings some ways about kim #I did NOT expect his literal first introductory descriptor to be ''in the event of danger this man would die for you'' #he's the best of us. he's too good for me. I have just met him and I'm already ashamed of how much I'm going to embarrass him
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  • passsionfish
    01.08.2021 - 38 minutes ago

    Dragon head sketches

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  • mallgothtsukki
    01.08.2021 - 41 minutes ago

    extremely low quality oisín doodle because i still don't know how sai works

    #guild wars 2 #gw2#guild wars#gw2 sylvari#my art#jupiter's graphite#oisín#my oc #i tried to practice backlighting lmao #i'm gonna get some info up about my plant baby soon #but i think you'll love him
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  • doolallymagpie
    01.08.2021 - 43 minutes ago

    look, i don’t know what bad batch is actually about, but it looks to me like they thought “hey, our riff on lone wolf and cub was really popular, let’s do it again!”

    except this time, instead of a singular gruff loner (who keeps accumulating friends against his will), it’s a group of extremely dangerous oddballs raising the child in question

    #star wars #the bad batch #i mean 'lone wolf and cub' is practically one of the mandalorian parenting manuals so it doesn't surprise me they'd do it with #the mutant clone troopers i've heard so much about #(is the kid another clone? i've heard she might be but i uh haven't seen enough clone wars to feel 'right' watching bad batch) #i kind of prefer an ensemble of dangerous oddballs to a single gruff loner tbh
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  • gojohater
    01.08.2021 - 47 minutes ago

    my brother is learning how to code and he told me once he learned ccs or something like that that he would make me a tumblr theme<3 

    #its literally the first time in MONTHS that we talk without arguing... #he also made this practice for coding that its like a farm with cows and you can control a pig with the keyboard arrows #txt
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  • sarchelyur
    01.08.2021 - 50 minutes ago

    Could have continued working on some WIPS but nope, drawing spicy demons and angels instead.

    #¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #well hey let's pretend this is anatomy practice #ocs
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  • theanarik
    01.08.2021 - 51 minutes ago

    High School Musical 3 fact: Ryan often picked Chad out of everyone to show how to do the choreography for the musical, just so he could get him closer

    And you CANNOT convince me otherwise

    #just to show you how a person who doesn't dance does it #hsm#hsm3 #ryan and chad #ryanxchad#ryan evans#chad danforth#chyan #after hsm2 this totally happened #it's an inside joke now #chad is actually very good #tho he really enjoyed practicing the Night to Remember choreo with Ryan #he obviously failed on purpose the steps just so he could get Ryan to hold him close #sneaky bastards
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  • arifinfrds-blog
    01.08.2021 - 56 minutes ago

    Compose Your UseCases to Create New Functionality using Composite Reuse Principle

    Compose Your UseCases to Create New Functionality using Composite Reuse Principle

    On the previous article, we already learn about how to create a UseCase. In this article, we are going to learn how we can composes use case and create new one that has different functionality, using Composite Reuse Principle. Let’s visit the previous article example. The previous example, we have a LoadTransactionsUseCase protocol to get a general picture of a use case. This protocol, does not…

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    #Clean Code #Composite Reuse Principle #Good Programming Practice #Software Engineering#use case#UseCase
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  • guillemelgat
    01.08.2021 - 57 minutes ago

    Vaig anar a caçar bolets amb una amiga i un amic de la seva família, que és un professor de matemàtica rus que treballa a MIT i dona tot el temps lliure que té a ser boletaire. Vam collir uns quants (sembla poquet al foto però els més grans són d’un pam, no sé si es veu gaire), però segons ell típicament en recullen més. Dit això, soc oficialment boletaire, ara m’haurien de donar la ciutadania catalana :P

    Seguidors catalans, si sou aficionats dels bolets i reconeixeu alguns d’aquests, m’encantaria saber com es diuen en català!

    And for everyone else, a word of the day in 3 languages:

    гриб - bolet - mushroom

    #also my friend was like 'i'm going to send an email to him to ask him what time we're going and i'll cc you' #'but idk how to write to russian parents in english so i'm just gonna do it russian'.....surprise russian practice! #actually i understood some words so i was pleasantly surprised #anyways ara vaig a mirar cacadors de bolets perque soc un expert i ho entendre tot #no pero de debo vull aprendre tots els noms en catala #catalan:general#catalan:practice#catalan:culture#russian:vocabulary#russian:culture #parlem de tonteries
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  • logixlight
    01.08.2021 - 1 hour ago

    ok I have 4 more moodboard requests in my inbox, I’m going to have a bit of a break + then I’ll come back to them !

    #if you haven’t sent one in + want one I’d love it if you did ! #gives me more chance to practice :) #delight.txt
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  • rainafoxfire
    01.08.2021 - 1 hour ago
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  • lee-reads-fanfic
    01.08.2021 - 1 hour ago

    First we had huge plot development in TOH, now there’s huge plot development in TSS??? I think I might explode

    Edit: I also just remembered that Lore Olympus updated earlier, gotta go read that!

    #seriously I’ve not stopped happy-stimming practically all day #the owl house #sanders sides#please help#lore olympus
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  • ericdezorah
    01.08.2021 - 1 hour ago

    Just practicing the same techniques and trying to keep it creative 😊

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  • nireleet
    01.08.2021 - 1 hour ago

    some little animation practices

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