Today, I though that we could talk about a certain topic. Life’s been pretty much the same to me since I started to stay at home, practice “social distancing” or “self-quarantine”, no matter how you’d like to put it.
Today marks my 29th day I’ve spent at home. Since 12.03.2020 i didn’t go outside of my house. I’ve been outside, cause I have a garden with my house, but I didn’t leave the property itself.
That also means that for the last 29 people the only people I saw were my parents.
That can really mess up your brain, when you think about it. I’m lucky, cause I live with my parents, which means two other people in the same house. I feel like if I were to live on my own I would have been way more likely to break the quarantine or just go crazy.
People aren’t really meant to be by themselves. No man is an island, as some say.
When it all started, I was relatively happy, cause I just heavily didn’t want to go to school. I was crying all the time, I was failing maths, there were so many upcoming tests and all, and I just knew that I wassn’t able to complete it all.
Obviously, now I know that all of those tests simply ended up not happening. I managed to get the grade I wanted from Maths and I generally think that the teachers were very understanding when it comes to the decisions they made concerning our grades and education this year.
The first two weeks we were home, me and my class were actually on a compulsory quarantine, due to knowing somebody diagnosed with the virus. That person is fine now and has been diagnosed as cured, which is great. Still, those first two weeks we were forced to stay at home. So, the first natural thing we did was sleeping everything off. Then, we started studying like crazy. I honestly can’t remember when was the last time I was as productive as during that time.
Obviously, you can’t study forever and you will, eventually, get bored. It happened to me and boom, I stopped being as productive. Especially cause I do have online classes, so it’s not like I’m doing nothing.
To tell the truth, it’s much easier to me to do any homework when I have a fully free day, because then I decide when to start and stop. After online classes I tend to be very tired and I don’t feel the motivation anymore.
I wouldn’t make a good studyblr, that’s for sure.
So, the last weeks were a mixture of so many things.
I explore more music, listen to albums I’ve never heard before or simply didn’t give them the chance.
I exercise with my mon, although we stopped now due to period. Still, I’d like to come back to it, cause it was actually making me a lot healthier and if we don’t exercise today I’ll find something for myself. My PE teacher has been sending us some videos with exercises that we could do. I would especially focus on the back ones, cause my back has been severely strained by the lifestyle I am leading right now.
Me and my mom did four puzzles, one with 1500 pieces, two with 500 pieces and one with 3000 pieces. Currently I am doing another 1500 one, but this time by myself.
My mom cooks something almost every day. She bakes bread for dad and herself and because I wanted yeast for pretzels I actually did, she used them later for another yeast cake. Apart from that, we made pizza together, she baked brownies and apple pie.
On Saturday we’ll also be baking a cake for Easter. This year, we’ll spend Easter on our own, just me, my dad and my mom. I am not exactly crazy on this holiday, so it doesn’t bother me much, I would have been way more hurt if that happened during Christmas.
Still, the weather is beautiful and it doesn’t feel good that I’m missing out. I’ve been going to my garden every day for at least 15 minutes, but it feels different. I can’t theoretically even go on a walk, so that’s not good.
My exams that were supposed to happen in the first week of may are also postoponed till June and we weren’t given any fixed date.
That actually sucks.
So, I don’t know how I’ll mentally do with sitting home for the next two months, but maybe in the upcoming weeks they will ease off some restrictions and I will be able to leave the house.
Up until then, I’m busying myself with youtube, Netflix shows, fanfiction, puzzles, studying, some music, baking with my mom and sleeping.
What I wanted to say though is that you don’t have to force yourself to be productive. I know that it might seems as if I am, but to be honest when I compare myslelf to my friends I feel as if I hadn’t achieved anything. Sometimes, the only thing you want is to lie down and have some sleep, rest your soul and body.
I haven’t really rested that well yet, which means that there is a lot to do.
My opinion is that we live in such hectic times, that when we are literally being forced to slow down we have no clue what to do. We feel uncomfortable, lost, anxious, because we became addicted to that pace.
And, in all honesty, we all need to slow down. The Earth needs it too and it will be thankful.
We needed changes in the society and since the government didn’t want to encourage them, the Earth forced it on us.
So, if you’re not affected by the virus itself, I can tell you, things are not as bad as one might think, we just need to calm down and change the world a little.
Take care of each other, sleep well and be safe.