I feel like I should get back in the habit of writing out what happened in my therapy sessions on here. Today, I met with the new therapist for an EMDR screening. I’ll call her N. I had a lot of anxiety about this session and found myself scared of what to expect. Overall, N was nice and seemed like an easy person to talk to. She was careful about what she asked and about not pushing too hard. That was nice because I was scared to really get into things with her and worried about what things might look like with someone that’s not T. I froze up a few times trying to talk about things that got closer to the Thing that happened and it sucked but she seemed to somewhat pick up on it. I advocated for myself and asked to meet once a week until July was over because I felt like I needed a little extra support. That went over surprisingly well (surprising to me, anyway). I feel overall like she could be a good fit but it’s hard having a therapist want to focus on the bad things that happened to me. She also wants to do a full family history and that would be interesting. My past is long and messy. She also wants to do an assessment on my disassociationwhich is good but also kind of triggering. Hopefully I can get through EMDR and get my life back though I’m not super enthusiastic about working on my past.