I’ll forever be pissed at my schools (American Public) for convincing me that College was impossible. I struggled through High School so badly due to mental illness and the horribly toxic and controlling environment, and they convinced me that college would be so much worse. They convinced me that I would not be able to handle college.
So I didnt seek out scholarships. I didnt apply for help or seek out anything. I ignored it all because I genuinely believed that I would waste a ton of money just so I could drop out due to incompetence.
And now some of my friends are in college. Friends who struggled in school. And its easier. It’s so much easier for them than HS. I listened to my teachers, and now I’m out of bounds.
I wanted to die in High School, they convinced me that College would be a nightmare. I’m pissed. Maybe I’m a coward for not trying, but who the hell jumps into a lake without knowing how to swim?
So now I’m behind. And I don’t think I’m the only one.