Psykhere instagram post 4/7/2021

Moody

best part about being punk is being able to crop clothes without fucking hemming them... yes it's frayed yes it's uneven it's PUNK

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they’re under a train track. i might finish this at some point but who knows.

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hello this took like 5 hours

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Putting myself on the back burner of the punk scene, or, explaining why I don't matter right now (a vent)

so recently ive been seeing a lot of "punks not white" stuff online, and oh boy do i love it, and i am all for bipoc reclaiming anything they want to bc they invented like 95% of everything and then white people stole it all and took the credit

but as a white person

the guilt is strong in this one

bc i feel bad for identifying with labels like "punk" during movements like these

bc i dont want to take the attention away from the bipoc who founded these movements as a way to show their pride and strength

and i kinda feel bad for feeling bad? not as a white person bc i have no right to feel bad, and i accept the fact that i have privilege due to the colour of my skin, but bc im a queer person, and i partially identify with femininity, theres a high chance that im neurodivergent (currently undiagnosed), and this movement is mine too? because punk is a movement for all marginalized and attacked groups, thats bipoc, women, lgbtq2s, etc...

its this huge internal debate that i have with myself, whether or not i deserve to fight for my rights

because i know others have it worse than i do

and in typing this out, im realizing how crappy it sounds to say "i am unsure of whether or not i deserve to fight for myself", but i mean it, because i am better off than others. i have a house. i have access to food, water, and a bed at night. my parents are both present in my life and i have a decent relationship with both of them. i am able to have an education in my first language.

so i feel like im not allowed to complain.

i have to remind myself that my struggle is valid, though.

i remind myself that i am of irish descent, and that we were as outlawed as black people for generations.

i remind myself that i am afab, and that we werent legally considered people until only a century ago.

i remind myself that i am queer, and we only gained the right to marry sixteen years ago.

i remind myself that, even if others struggle more than i do, that doesnt mean i dont.

so i guess my stance on punk is that yes, i am allowed to be punk. i am allowed to fight, because the struggles of those like me are worth fighting for.

but that, right now, i need to be content with where i am. with how lucky i am. i need to put my own struggles on pause and focus on lifting up the voices of others.

until bipoc, muslims, and first nations people start getting the rights they deserve, we need to focus on their movements. we need to support blm, and mmiw, and we need to listen to what they have to say, because its their struggle that matters most.

hence the title. i dont matter right now, because there is nothing i need. so im going to stay punk, and fight to make the struggle of those who do matter more visible. and hopefully, make their struggle less.

because fuck, they deserve a break

What is it?