I was so surprised when I met you, Canaan. You’ve been through such hard times, but you glowed. They say the moon glows because it reflects the light of the sun. That’s when I thought... If I stayed next to you, maybe one day I would glow too. I’m sorry. I’ve relied on you. Even as you’ve protected me, I’ve acted impatient. I’m so sorry.
All you have to do is be by my side. Just being there will be such an awesome, awesome help for me. I want to be able to glow on my own someday. So... Always be by my side. Always be with me.
Heyyyyy guess who's losing their goddamn mind on a Monday night!!!! In the worst possible way!!!! It's ya bitch!!!!!!!!
#i just found out accidentally that my ex doesnt have me blocked on insta anymore and im kidna losing it #i was already drunk but i saw that and now im tempted to send them a message about how they fucked me up before i block them #im so so tempted #because im so angry and hurt im literally just sitting here crying #i dont know if i can express just how badly they hurt me but just for context. #im not a violent person #i would cry if I ever actually hurt someone #i cry over watching people suffering and dying in ficitonal tv shows i'm. a massive softie #i would shatter my ex's skull with a wrench given the opportunity #i would punch them in the face with every ounce of strength I have #theyre a large portion of why im in therapy at all and one of two really influential abusive relationships/friendships ive had in my life #theyre the reason i literally cant believe people when they tell me they love me or care about me anymore #and they're just out there. living life and apparently still finding joy in doing so #and it makes me so fucking angry and i want to ruin it for them like they ruined half of my time at this college #like they ruined my ability to trust and to confide in people without feeling like I'm a toxic person for venting my feelings #like they ruined me and made me incapable of feeling like I'm worthy of love anymore. #I've tried and worked on it in therapy and to this day i can't fully convince myself that I'm worth anyone's time and energy #that i have any redeeming or lovable qualities at all #because they had me so convinced that i was a toxic person for feeling hurt by them dumping me and refusing to talk to me about anything #that i still believe it. i can't not believe it. it's constantly in the back of my mind now and it won't go away #and it's all their fault. i want them to hurt like i hurt because i've been in exactly two dating relationships ever #and the one i was in with them is the one that made me genuinely think i might die alone #because i have so many abandonment issues and self esteem issues and trust issues that i just. I'm terrified of being in a relationship now #fucking hell i would kill them if i could #I'm so sorry to anyone that reads this far #I'm inebriated and all the hurts of the past three years are just coming down on me all at once tonight #long tag rant #I'm sorry #like if you read #i suppose
#1- Stay Positive #Pain is a built-in quality of life that all human beings suffer through at one point or another in our lives. The universe spares no one—no #famous#fortunate #or well-off—from the tragedies and misfortunes of life. #So you can’t control the painful situations that life puts in your path. All that you can control is your mental response to the painful si #Your mental response to the tough situations that you find yourself in is huge. Whether you choose a negative mentality or a positive minds #baking#television#soccer#short film#recipe#ps4#sports#web series#movies#typography #click the link below for better understanding
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The Devil Judge has a lot of hidden small details which are actually pretty important for the plot. Sometimes they can be in facial expressions, sometimes it’s actions that show what is going on, and sometimes it’s words or simple mismatches.
While rewatching The Devil Judge one more time, I got a question about what Ga-On was eating in Kang’s mansion before he started to cook for Yo-Han, Elijah, and himself. So now, I want to speculate on all the variations that are shown or hinted at in the show.
— Option one: Instant food.
The most obvious one, and maybe the easiest to think since we have seen that Elijah eats instant food, Yo-Han eats instant food. Ga-On ate ramyeon when the Professor came in in episode eight.
But it’s not the thing because of two reasons. The first one, Ga-On doesn't approve of eating such food as complex meals, even though he doesn't mind having it with Soo-Hyun in episode two.
When Elijah asks him to make her ramyeon and to bring it to her, Ga-On looks at it with bewilderment and thought that can be heard even from here: “That won't do.” His next decision? To make a “simple” breakfast that looks more like a royal banquet.
The second reason is just a simple mismatch in time. He couldn't cook for himself the first meal while sleeping and being affected after the explosion. Yet, from the tray that Ms. Ji successfully broke, we see an easy-to-cook but still a plate or two of homemade food.
— Option two: Ms. Ji.
This one would explain the tray, and what Ga-On ate that small amount of days. Also, it’s logical for her to cook for a guest in the house where she works.
Ga-On's glad when Ms. Ji is preparing to start to cook for him. He even invites Elijah to eat with him, even though she resists, saying “she (Ms. Ji) put in the effort to...” and stops only when Elijah raises her voice at him.
Ga-On wanted to try Ms. Ji’s food but it turned out she was banned from cooking and after ignoring the rule of not being in the mansion after the sun has set down, was reminded of its existence (someone was just trying to save his husband’s receptors, but about it a little bit later).
...but well, he will eat more then. And when the lunch is ready, Ga-On’s excited when he sees all the main and side dishes on the table. “You're a great cook,” says Ga-On trying the soup... and understands that there was a reason why she was prohibited from cooking.
An important note is that Ga-On doesn't say “so I've been eating your food all this time,” or something similar to it. He just asks since when Yo-Han banned her from making dishes (with a readable attempt on his face to save his poor tongue from everything he tried a second ago).
And the last thing that proves this theory’s non-existence is the conversation in Elijah’s room. Even though Ga-On laughs, he asks with the betrayal on his face: “why didn't you warn me?”. He never ate Ms. Ji’s food and has never thought that someone would add truffle oil to kimchi.
— Option three: Yo-Han.
Let me explain this one. Yo-Han does cook. Maybe not that often, not for everyone but the fact remains: he cooks.
We see a hint to it in episode five when he comes home and asks if there’s something to eat, and Butler already wants to count on the ingredients when Yo-Han stops him, asking if there’s something to heat up and eat.
Another hint is the bottle with pasta in the kitchen. It got almost empty with the difference in just two episodes (from episode four to the beginning of episode six). Ga-On didn't cook anything with pasta for Elijah as an apology, nor did he cook something with pasta for Yo-Han.
And the way how Ga-On sighs and says “let’s eat like normal people,” when he made that breakfast makes sense since Yo-Han thinks he doesn't know the taste of food, so Ga-On’s meals probably weren't that delicious... but they still were made with love.
Bonus: ...are we really talking about kimchi here?
#the devil judge #kang yo han #kim ga on #gahan#lawful husbands #im obsessed with this kdrama thank you for listening to my thoughts #no but like really #I just had this one random thought while rewatching it for the nth time and like #wait a minute— #sorry for the quality of the gifs #and for any mistakes in the text!! #and also the last gif........... #I can't stop thinking about Ga-On seeing Yo-Han’s... doings let’s call it like it #like he definitely turns to him and #oh god #what a good day to not think about them being husbands #...but when do we not think about them being husbands? #right never #so this gif is going to live in my mind for like ✨ forever ✨ #and honestly I would lie if I say that I'm against it
#I’m most excited to sit in a coffee shop in a fictional game and just live my best life honestly #animal crossing new horizons direct #BREWSTER IS BACK #Kapp’n #so many new items and quality of life improvements #I’m shook#ACNH #also dlc?? #happy home island designer #animal crossing
#a rant is to follow: #Listen. #I’m just tired and beyond Done with living in this apartment #I’m sick of the crying baby upstairs that is close to a year old and now has those musical-noise toys #my other neighbors will often leave their very cute cats to wander around outside which stresses me out since were so close to a road #and they also just leave a bag or two of their garbage right next to their door #neighbors at the complex next to mine constantly let the 3 and 5 yr old boys play outside by themselves where they kinda do whatever #and they also got two little puppies this week that they also leave outside unsurpervised basically all day #and this afternoon wanted to eat the neighbor’s garbage #so there’s a bunch of stress there #the box elder bug problem is beyond bad (look them up; I’ve got hundreds of not thousands over this year) #which landlords refuse to do anything about #my heaters I’m remembering don’t work so I’m gonna be cold Again this winter #I’m constantly worried about my apartment flooding or getting a burst pipe #which would only add to what I’m sure is an already existing mold/air quality problem #it’s just such a crappy apartment and I’ve lived here for several years now with increasing rent and I just do not want to deal with it #not any more #but I don’t have anywhere else to go #no jobs will permanently hire me to give me a reason to leave this crap hole apartment/city/state/country #but this apartment especially is getting on my nerves today #I don’t have anyone to vent to so I’m venting to tumblr ✌️