keep being you
keep being you
One thing I noticed, as a fanfiction writer, is that when you write a story, no matter what kind (fanfiction or original) you fall in love with some of your character because they take a life of their own, they end up entirely different from what you’d imagined and become their own living beings in your mind and heart.
On the other hand, or at least it’s the case for me as an ARMY, you sometimes start developing that sort of feeling toward some idols where you want them to be happy at all cost, to see them succeed, to be there for them - maybe because they reflect the comfort that they bring you - so when you write about them, they become some sort of extension for the affection you have for your characters.
You know they are their own person though, not yours or anything like who you wrote them to be, but when you see them on a scren, smiling, there is that goofy feeling when you feel like a proud parent, or a proud partner, or even a proud melancholic ex, seeing that loved person happy so far away from you.
You’ve got nothing to do with their happiness, they don’t know you exist, but it makes you all giddy and warm inside because they’re happy, and they deserve it. They unknowingly gave you so much love through those characters, and through their music, and you’ve read and written about them so many times, you feel like you’ve gotten to know at least a little bit of them, to be close to them, and seeing them happy becomes the best thing in the world.
3 boyfriends have got minecraft and the world is good again
they are playing and in LOVE
Me when people send asks, talk to me, ramble, vent, etc:
Honestly I don’t care if it’s a vent or anything like that I’m willing to help and give motivation, I do care for my followers and people who don’t follow me a whole lot.
I’ll literally give you my full attention if you talk, vent or whatever.
A ramble-update as an attempt to feel productive tonight.
I've discovered over many painful weeks that trying to beta-read my own book feels far worse than any writer's block I've had.
If writer's block feels like bashing my head against a wall, then editor's block feels like that wall is 5ft thick, backed by a concrete bunker with automated laser-rifle defenses.
Such are the trials of being a level 20 writer and a level 5 editor. >.>
So, I'm taking a different route towards editing. Which is still a little more 'bashing-head-against-wall', but at least the wall is not bashing back. With laser rifles.
I'm re-working my outline to try to adhere to the 3 act structure a little more firmly, and then draft... 4ish will be underway. I'm also thinking of going about this draft backwards. Start at the end and go to the beginning. Maybe it will help rein in my urge to info-dump. Will this work? Who knows?
i think ranboo deserves a fuck. let him say fuck. ranboo its ok everyone needs to call tommy a fucker atleast once in your life. ranboo pl
every time my siblings eating chips something and gives me the last bit i feel like a young victorian lad begging on the streets and an affluent old missus gives me a pound which is just enough to buy a morsel from the sweet shop down the road which leaves me mighty chuffed for the rest of the week despite my all but empty stomach
i remember the first time i started drawing Esidisi i told myself “this is gonna suck, this is going to haunt me”, now how quickly i can draw Esi makes me highly uncomfortable but at the same time makes me feel like the ultimate lifeform
But uh yeah everyone, turns out the whole tomboy phase I had for the vast majority of my life wasn't, in fact, a phase, I just didn't have the right label for it because no one in my life taught me what trans was and I had to figure it out all by myself when I realized ummm...8 years ago that I didn't really feel like a girl, but umm, didn't know what I felt like. Yeah, wasn't a,,,wasn't s tomboy guys, uh, just a boy, no tom. Teach about trans people in schools, people shouldn't have to feel like that for years because they don't understand what they are. I always knew being called girl and girlie freaked me out, but I didn't really know why until 4 years ago.
Transphobes and bigots dni, I will eat you.
hc that c!techno used to be the pretty anime boy prince interpretation of his character, but then got princess and the frogged and cursed into the pig version, but instead of being upset about it he was just like 'hell yeah this is awesome' because he was like a foot taller and super beefy
I honestly don't think I could fall in love again, I feel so numb these days..
Btw when I talk about hcs I will be making a list
To really simple things to more big things lmao like childhoods ect ok
Time to make the list >:)
👀 wanna coin some stuff if anyone has Requests, specifically genders
also like? irrelevant to the above but we have thoughts lol :0 if you all ever wanna just send us asks thats chill! i know some are anxious with specific knowledge of it being okay n stuff! so yea :3! we love asks!!
I'm gonna ramble about X-Force predictions (specifically Kayla and Colossus) because I'm a massive dweeb, and also nervous.
Dream scenario: Kayla really does truly and deeply love Piotr, warts and all. They work through any struggles they face and come out better for them. They get to keep their little farm and live peacefully. They act as the conscious of the X-Force. We get to see Kayla be fleshed out, Piotr finally get some stable true love, and both of these characters be happy.
Bad scenario: Kayla is a mole, her love for Piotr is a lie, she snaps his heart in two, sending him into depression once again.
Horrible scenario: Kayla really does love Piotr, but that weird power distinction is brought back up as a big plot point, so Kayla is a mutate, not a mutant (explaining why we haven't seen her step foot on Krakoa) and she dies traumatically in front of Piotr and is unable to be resurrected.
(These last two would be made significantly worse if coupled with a sudden rebound or some sort of dialogue to the sound of "Maybe some people just aren't meant to love/be loved!")
Keep in mind that Percy, 1, seems to like Colossus and told fans we would like this book and, 2, he's a sucker for slow burn.
If I had to place bets, I'd say the Horrible scenario is most likely, and my heart is begging for Dream scenario.
good Night i am so so tired. also hg i hate these meds i’m on ??? it’s barely 11.30 at night why am i exhausted. gross
oka y gn babes. cya in the mornin :} <3 ily all, you mean the world to me. don’t forget that <3.
charlie n liz sleep on a bunk bed
a drawing isnt finished til it makes me laugh
Cis bi's after posting about how pansexuality is transphobic all day: we did it! We solved transphobia and biphobia!