Writing smut is getting old I can't lie. I think trying to do three fics a week was such a ridiculous thing I decided to. It worked for a while but I definitely have got to go back to writing just two fics a week. I think I'm going to pre-write a fics for December and January and just take a break to focus on my other writing projects.
I definitely use writing to escape from the real world and it was sooooo easy to do that in undergrad. Plus it helps that I have a patreon with people who support me that I can help use to somewhat support myself. But since I'm taking this year off to figure out where I'm going to go grad school, I went from a very busy last semester of my senior year of undergrad to absolutely nothing. I mean I didn't have any friends in college but I had friends around the area. Now I'm back home with only one friend (who is my best friend so no shade to her) but there isn't much for us to do.
Winter is coming up and I KNOW how I get during winter time. If it's too icy or too much snow I won't be able to go for runs that have become my favorite thing to do because I just get to zone out and listen to music.
Maybe it's just life that's feel stale. We're almost two years into the pandemic and America is an absolute shit-show. The only thing that I'm holding onto is writing and preparing whatever I need for grad applications.