also, one last thing for today (I hope so),

I was just out there trying to talk with my mom about how much I loved my psychology class today and she was paying attention but she wasn’t at the same time. It makes me wonder whether they can see the excitement on my face and just choose to ignore it? I mean I honestly really love psychology and that subject is very close to my heart. It’s just that I wish I could tell people (at least the ones who mean a lot to me) what things excite me the most. It’s just that there are things that I excitedly wanna rant about and tell other people and they just wave it off. It really hurts. Kinda. I end up ranting to my own self as if everyone’s listening. How cruel is that.

im so good at not knowing how to explain my feelings😌

If I say I’m going to bed and then I’m still up hours later, it’s not that I lied it’s that I failed.

Its 2:30 am. I should go to bed but all I can think about rn is his my mom tried to get me into warrior cats series some years ago but I only read about half a paragraph of the first book I think.

So…. I have some news….

I’ve got carpal tunnel. Messed up my wrist at work.

I can’t help but make another one of these posts, they always help me realise something. Not sure what I’m looking for but I feel like I need it.

It’s late and I’m trying to get some sleep, but my heart is pounding in my head. I haven’t had a panic attack in a little while, but I’m constantly exhausted. I’ve been trying to get into a routine and realising that maybe I haven’t accepted the fact that I’m not ok. That I have to heal.

I’m not sure why, because I know I’m not alright, I know I need time, but deep down I’m still hoping for it to pass away, like everything usually does. If I stay quiet, it’ll eventually disappear.

But it’s not going anywhere. I feel torn, like there’s two sides of me who can’t agree on what’s really real. It’s bizarre, and so frustrating.

I’m not panicking. Thank god I’ve got a surprisingly clear mind about the next couple of days, but my body is anxious. Like it’s inevitable. Almost like an instinct. Has anyone else ever felt like that?

Gonna watch a play through of this game called doki literature club. Got a recommendation from a friend saying “it’s not what you think”

So the good news is I do not have covid

I do, however, have a pesky cold that’s trying to prevent me from singing

I have a hole in my sock.

Trying to fight ableism is a bit hard when people call you ridiculous when you call things that are blatantly ableist, ableist

I tell people in Tumblr discourse to not use delusions, reading comprehension, sight, or even “mentally ill” as an insult because its ableism to use disability as an insult and???? The same people who call themselves social rights activists sit there and deny that our language and how we use it is seeping in ableism.

If it seems like there are too many things that are called ableist, maybe realize that disabled people literally have to argue that they’re worth the same as an abled person. That a lot of us were taught that calling ourselves disabled was too far.

Remember that the DSM had to change the names of multiple mental disorders because people stigmatized them and turned them into insults and slurs.

Disability is seen as less. That’s why so many insults rely on it. And you can go without making insults at the expense of disabled people.

My lunch just consisted of 9 cookies from a christmas cookie platter my mother got on sale from Publix, and 3 mozzerella cheess sticks.

This is the lowest point in my life as of now.

Babe of course I’m gonna cry my eyes out when you leave. My heart will be broken.

But hey, atleast my skin will be clear.

Do it.

looking back to my childhood self i realized i’ve been having adhd since then but never knew because “we don’t talk about mental health shit around here” and now im just so good at not talking about it to aNYONE BUT THEN I HAVE A LOT OF THING I WANT TO SAY BUT I DONT WANT TO MAKE ANYONE ✨UNCOMFORTABLE✨ WITH MY CRAZY THOUGHTS SO IM JUST KINDA yes

Luna has made dolls of all her friends and her Professors.

Her favorite doll is the one of Professor Snape

Sky, who has a hand over his mouth:

Ty: You good?

Sky: I just fuckin ate sushi

Ty: And?

Sky: it was squid.

Ty, who put the squid in sky’s food: Suffer.

Vlog de un idiota con mucho tiempo.

Me aburro.

Kk, no es broma, pero ayer descubrí que la wea de la lavadora (donde se pone el jabón y el suavitel) se lava.

Eyy, I am indeed petting Egon Spengler