Bearstars is the furry version of Tokyo ghoul

I want to finish 4 drawings but math exist :'}}

I’ve just had a theory: What if when we die, our journey to Heaven (If you believe in such things) takes so long because our spirits are travelling by ship?

We're doing a mini science fair in my school and, OMFG, seeing my physics teacher wearing a lab coat is the closest I have ever been to a hot scientist.

honestly, sometimes i sit and think that despite all the shit i went through, especially as a kid, i turned out pretty okay

Hey Liv you might be getting a new friend pretty soon buddy

FINISHED CAPPING SOLOIST IN A CAGE

Yet Another Another Random Headcannon of the day:

Kokonoi trained himself to type a calculator with one hand (they actually make a sport of it in Japan, Google it it's nerdy and cool!).

He actually entered a small competition once, and ended up winning. The calculator he used then is still with him, and it's the cheapest thing he owns. He treasures it more than he'd care to admit, probably because it's something he worked hard at and actually got recognized for. He counts that little success of his as one of his greatest.

Thoughts.

but seriously though if sam doesn’t get a good amount of screen time im crying

also you can be mad about tom as nathan all you want but he’s nolan north approved so

okay cool ur mad about the uncharted movie trailer but the easy solution is to just not go see it. ez 

367: dont know

Idk what to write. Im sad. And lonely. Still. And i cant write anything because i feel so down. Its just another lonely night. I just wanna sleep and get over this phase. I hope things will get better. I hope better things will come.

And i hope to write real soon.

Good night.

11:17 pm 102121

I've always been able to read the truth in your eyes,

And I always think about it,

When was it?

When did you decide that my love isn't enough for you, for us?

Was it the day you introduced 'her' as a friend of your friend,

I'd seen the way you held her waist,

The way your eyes twinkled,

My eyes could see it then

But my heart couldn't

Or was it the day you lied about being away at work for the week,

That was the first time we had ever gone days without talking or texting each other.

It was then I could feel the sand slipping from between my fingers, no matter how hard I tried to clutch it in my fist,

You were slipping away, and there was nothing I could do,

And then came the D-day,

You know when you decided that 'I' wasn't interested in this relationship, That you were tired of being the second priority always.

And I blamed myself for days,

For trying to build and save for a future that'll never be.

Today, 3 years later, as you try to make "small talk" to me,

I cannot help but look back,

To the times when I'd long for even a glance, or a simple good morning or Hi!

There were days when I'd plan our dates for months,

Spend my savings to buy you that watch,

I can still remember the scent of your favorite perfume,

The Black shirt you wore on our first day, your love for marvel movies

Every damn detail,

But it doesn't hurt that bad anymore,

For the place you resided in is void, has been the same since you left.

And now I have started to live for myself,

It's My Favorite dress, My Favorite place , My Favorite color, My Ambitions and Goals.

Everything is about Me now.

And it's not like I have given up on Love, no,

I've just raised my standards to meet someone who's my equal in every damn way that's possible.

Split bills

Its remind me about 2 or 3 years ago. Btw, tulisan ini saya buat dengan alasan egoisme. Saya ingin melepas apa yang mengganggu pikiran saya.

Saya sempat dekat dengan teman seangkatan saya. Saya sangat care dengan dia. Menurut saya, dia sangat struggle dengan jalan hidupnya yang tidak mudah. Jika saya menjadi dia pun mungkin saya sudah menyerah ditengah jalan. Tapi dia tidak, bahkan masih bisa menghadapi kehidupan dengan sangat baik dan senyuman. Akhir kata saya dekat dengan dia, tetapi saya sudah melihat ketidakcocokan. Di waktu itu memang saya memiliki ketakutan sendiri untuk menjalani hubungan dengan seseorang dikarenakan ada beberapa trauma melihat kegagalan di sekitar saya. Saya mulai menjaga jarak. Hanya saja ada janji untuk nonton bersama. Saya pikir, okedeh nonton abis ini saya akan mencoba stop hubungan kami sebelum dia makin berharap. Saya tidak ingin membuat dia menaruh harapan ke orang yang sebenarnya tidak bisa memberikan itu. Ini awal kesalahan yang saya perbuat.

Akhirnya kami nonton. Dia bilang "bayar sendiri-sendiri dulu ya. Soalnya uang ** belum cair". Dia salah satu penerima beasiswa tapi saat itu uangnya belum cair. Saya pikir gak masalah toh emang kami hanya teman. Tidak ada kewaiban bagi dia untuk membayar bill saya. Saya pun membeli cemilan dengan uang saya sendiri. Sebelum pulang kami sempat makan somay, ini saya lupa kami bayar masing-masing atau dia yang bayarin. Saat itu hujan dan saya kesana pun naik gojek. Akhirnya saya pulang dengan mas gojek dengan menggunakan jas hujan. Sesaat itu saya lega karena sudah menunaikan janji saya.

Setelah itu, saya mulai menghindari dia tanpa penjelasan. Disini saya merasa tidak perlu memberi penjelasan karena hubungan kami memang tidak memiliki kejelasan. Pola pikir inilah yang sangat salah dan tidak bertanggung jawab. Saya sangat pengecut tidak bisa menghadapi apa yang sudah saya perbuat dengan dewasa. Yah walaupun hubungan kami tidak ada kejelasan ini tidak membenarkan perilaku saya ini. Hingga beberapa waktu kemudian kami bertemu, saya say hi ke dia yang langsung berubah canggung dan melihat saya dengan sangat tidak nyaman. Saya merasa ada yang aneh. Sepertinya ada kesalah pahaman.

Saya mulai mengingat-ingat dan sepertinya saya menemui satu titik kesalah pahaman, ini mengenai bills. Hal yang lazim di Indonesia ketika kamu jalan dengan laki-laki sedangkan mereka yang membayar bills ini atau ini hanya tuntutan perempuan, idk. Sepertinya dia merasa saya menjauh dikarenakan hal ini.

Split bills bukan hal yang aneh menurut saya. Saya dan teman-teman saya sering seperti ini walaupun hanya uang 500 rupiah akan kami kembalikan kecuali orang itu bilang ini dia yang sengaja bayar. Sejak SMA saya sering seperti ini. Untuk membiasakan diri tidak bergantung dengan orang lain. Selain itu, masalah uang siapa yang tau kondisi keuangan seseorang sebenarnya. Kita tidak akan tahu kesulitan seseorang tanpa dia cerita sendiri kan.. Sedangkan keuangan adalah masalah yang sensitif dan bisa menimbulkan masalah berkepanjangan.

Sebenarnya saya terbiasa diberi apa yang saya mau oleh ibu ayah saya. Jadi saat saya SMP, mereka sering memberi nasihat masalah ini atau menolak permintaan saya. Ini agar saya mandiri dan berusaha mendapatkan apa yang saya mau sendiri. Yah, walaupun sering saya keceplosan minta ini itu ke orang terdekat selain ibu dan ayah saya walaupun itu hanya keinginan spontan yang 5 menit kemudian terlupakan.

Memang ada teman laki-laki yang merasa harus membayar bill jika mengajak hangout tetapi saya menyadari ada financial planning dan goals yang ingin mereka capai, so jangan sampai saya membebani mereka. Tetapi tidak jarang juga saya membayar bills saya sendiri saat makan bersama teman laki-laki saya. Jadi, saya memang tidak ada masalah mengenai split bills.

Tiba-tiba saya melihat sebuat cuitan di twitter mengai spill bills dan ada salah satu reply seperti ini :

Saya jadi mengingat dia lagi dan merasa bersalah. Harusnya saya menjelaskan dengan baik bahwa kami tidak cocok secara personality, bukan mengenai hal lain. Saya hanya bisa meminta maaf karena sudah mengecewakan dan juga tidak menjelaskan dengan dewasa..

Saya harap ini jadi pelajaran buat saya dan teman-teman, jika tidak bisa memberi kepastian jangan memulai itu hanya menyakiti orang lain.

Ohya apa yang kita makan atau beli itu sepenuhnya tanggung jawab kita secara personal bukan teman laki-laki atau yang lainnya. Jangan membebankan orang lain. Kecuali jika sudah menikah. Memang ada tanggung jawab laki-laki dalam menafkahi.

Guys what's the tone indicator for "this sentence is either sarcastic or not sarcastic, depending on whether it should be or not because idk whether what you just said was supposed to be positive or negative and I'm too awkward to ask"

"Why is your being-an-adult tag 'adulting' that's so immature" would you rather me make it "adultery" because I can and will make it adultery don't test me

// forget this cat and dog stuff, I'm a gold fish person dude //

Goy is the cis of the Jewish world

Friends have this unique ability to pick up a conversation from where they left off. You can start a conversation with a friend, and not finish it for 'n' number of years, when you eventually come back to it, you can pick up from where you left off. But I feel that such friendships are static, there is no progression to it. It's like you are frozen in time when you speak to a long lost school friend. You both reminisce about the past, bitch about your old teachers and share memories... that's it. They don't know what happened in your life post- school. They don't know your favorite ice cream flavor or your favorite music band. And you won't know anything about them too. But it's fine, that's still a sustainable friendship. It's ok to just sit and chat about the good old days, it's ok to not know about what's going on in the other person's life , it's ok to be stuck in the past while talking to that one friend whom you haven't met in years.

But you also need friends with whom you can grow with. Friends who have seen you turn into what you are now, friends who know how lazy you are, or how bad your life choices are. You need those friends who have been with you for a long time. You need them , almost like a testament to the time that has passed. Friends who don't expect you to reply within seconds, friends whom you can call at the middle of the night, just because you want to rant about the most inconvenient thing that has happened in your life. You need them , and they need you too.