I can get lost in fictional stories, books and films and shows stay with me a long time, sometimes they live new lives in my head sometimes I just go back to comforting moments, which mostly is having the experience from beginning to end again and again.
I started to listen to podcasts this year but, I need to do something while I listen even if it is the most interesting topic on earth.
Same with audiobooks.
I cannot stand still in front of the oven, I need to do something to stay focused, so I started listening to audiobooks to prevent my meals from burning.
I do the laundry and listen to my podcasts, I tidy my stuff and listen to podcasts. Of course I pause at very interesting points, start Wikipedia research for more info about the topic and remember what I actually wanted to do after half an hour and relisten from where I fell out of the task.
But I never can sit down on the sofa and say : an audiobook to listen in peace … No, either I fall asleep or start running around but being still while listening. Not an option.
Same with video calls for work.
Don’t expect me to just sit there and listen, after a while I start doodling. I used to start eating at school when there was an interesting topic but the lecture got long. Luckily for me my teachers kind of ignored it but I bet only because I was a good student.
This is me for over thirty years now and it works quite well when I am not forced to work on schedule and hit the right time, because I am never on time. Mostly late because I lost myself in thoughts or little tasks to squeeze in because I thought I had a few minutes spare.
I am absolutely not capable of doing routines.
Doing the same more than two times bores me so much I become the grumpiest person alive.
I need action, though I am an overweight couch potato. I am not a sporty person but my mind is on air 24/7.
If that is not hitting some boxes, why is it not considered normal then?
Reflections on “Americanism”:
My parents know so much about Russian culture and European History through the socialists eye because when and where they grew up Russia was the Idol ideal state.
In the middle of Europe we have the chance with short voyages between so many different countries to get to know our fellow Europeans and see their rich culture and get to know their fears, politics etc.
I grew up with parents that did not know a thing about America, but didn’t force me into their russian sided experience.
I choose to inform myself about Halloween and Thanksgiving because I want to know the background.
I wonder when people will start to celebrate our “Erntedank” ( which is also a Thanksgiving) with a turkey instead of a mass ceremony in church.
We need to celebrate our differences and show them to each other and can party and work together but not with one culture taking the lead.
What would you all cry out when China would become the lead culture, or how everyone is afraid and discriminating about the Muslim culture.
Extremism in any form is never a solution.
How we are all unquestioned overexposed to one sided American culture became unhealthy lately.
Europeans are still criticised for they long time of being colonists and invaders. That is necessary. We need to know how the world became the shape it is now to make it better.
We need to work global together and no more follow just one once bright head.
Be curious. Be critical. Be kind.
28 novembre - É raro che io sappia resistere ai riflessi sull'acqua e alla loro simmetria un po’ distorta, dove le linee si confondono e i colori si fanno più vibranti.
lockdown day 30…
amarys. prounced like “amorous”, to be moved by love. like amaryllis, the flower, or Virgil’s lovestruck heroine.
—reflections on my name
that post on generational trauma is interesting because while it seems perfectly plausible that effects of consistent trauma affecting a group of people could propagate within it (via the typical channels of ways of thinking/experiencing the world being shared or otherwise),
the actual story op gives is…interesting. because that happened to me. in a way. but afaict I’m not a member of the group it was about. Indians in South Africa have not had the specific experiences of slavery etc that are articulated in the apartheid museum. the specific thing that triggered it was even more black-people-specific.
idk what, if anything, to make of that.
Island Hill, floating serenely on a mirror-smooth Strangford Lough.
Dreaming in the trees….no10…..
Photograph and Image ©David Beattie 2020…….
Dreaming in the trees…..no9….
Photograph and Image ©David Beattie 2020……
Dreaming in the trees………no8
Photograph and Image ©David Beattie 2020…..
Thank you so much.
The only thing I ask Allah is that He calms my heart and makes it easier for me to get through these days, and He has done so much more for me.
I am content, oh Allah.