Do you actually want me still?
Do you actually want me still?
The sun, the moon and the stars don’t know how lucky they are to see you every day.
I’ve been off of social media for a while and took a deep breath especially on what had happened to my past relationship. I completely knew that I was a total freak who gave my attention to a boy who I knew would just end up ghosting me. What a crock.
You pulled the trigger and it pierced my skin, tore my flesh, burrowed itself into the depths of my being.
Then suddenly realised the irony, that your love - the very thing I lived for was none other than the bullet that killed me.
I want a man but I don’t need one
￼￼💔 all we do is hurt each other…
Love is tiring.
Because love are contains of hope, worry, addicted and stupidity.
Love manipulated me with a beautiful warm feeling in the beginning. And gave me a big hole in my heart in the end.
Love felt hurtful.
I feel enough. Am fed up. Because..
I don’t wanna meet a wrong person anymore.
I don’t wanna meet a person who left me with only hope.
I don’t wanna meet a person who left me without words.
I don’t wanna meet a person who left me just because i wasn’t beautiful like he wanted.
I don’t wanna meet a person who can live without me.
I don’t wanna meet a person who played my heart.
Why is love so hurtful?
If it this hurts, i don’t feel like to love anymore.
I am a raincloud, not a silver lining.
We like to think we have a choice as to who and how we love. Yet, love often pours out of us unapologetically, unwillingly;
drenching others and leaving us bare
It isn’t until later in life (
maybe too late) that we realize, there is probably such a thing as too much love.
You see, not everyone loves rainy days, especially when you carry the thunder of storms.
Sometimes, you might be an ache in the bones,
a cloud without silver lining.
One day i will forget what hurts me today.
There are so many words. But why did you leave me without words?
at least i don’t have to be arguing with you anymore over made up scenarios. funny how you give someone your trust finally but you can’t get a single pinch of theirs. forgot it was a sin to have friends. maybe i’m just better alone.
4 years gone with one phone call after spending a month hoping being separated would help me remember why I loved you.
I remembered why I loved you. But your insufferable traits are too much for me to deal with. And yes, I’m talking about my feelings and making this about me because I always felt bad or you made me feel bad if I did so when you thought it wasnt appropriate.
There isn’t anyone else Im interested in; not that you believe me.
It’s just time. I still love you. I have things to work out. And youre right, I deserve better than you. I’m glad your own company is better than me. Its what you deserve.
Oof. Welcome to my front porch mental breakdown where I’m drinking at 3pm and trying to decide if I wanna put the effort into a potential relationship. Listening to his PODCAST from 2019 because he hasn’t text me back in a few hours. What the actual fuck is wrong with me? Somebody message me plz. Talk me off this relationship ledge.