15 • 06 • 2021
Hey y'all, i know i kind of went missing for like 2 months and i'm sorry but i was having some problems and they suddenly turned into a binge eating-restricting circle and that's basically what i've been doing for the past 2/3 weeks...
But now i'm gaining back the control and i'm trying to lose all of the weight that i gained, which tbh i don't know how much it is... but i can tell i gained just by watching myself in the mirror and cause my clothes feel tight :(
But luckily, i started restricting again yesterday and i feel good, not too tired nor too hungry, just... fine
But the bad news is that i lost the tiny paper bag i kept my blades in... i just don't know where it went, cause i had it in one of the pockets of my jacket but when i came out of the shower, cause i took a bath at 12 am... hehe, i couldn't find it anywhere!!
And now i'm going crazy cause if my mum finds them before i do, i'll be in big trouble and by big i mean, psychward kind of big...
I'm a dumbassssss :')
But anyways, let's hope she doesn't find them and i'll keep on restricting, cause tomorrow i have school... yep we are going back after like 3 months of having just online classes, but thanksfully, since they divided the class in half my "bubble" (that's what they call the groups) just has to go one week, then stay at home for another.
Basically i'll go to school for 2 week in a month. So it'll be easier for me to restrict, at least for the week of face to face classes :)))
I love you babies and i hope you all have a nice morning/afternoon/night ♡