hello everyone! it's jennie coming through to you on this lovely friday afternoon. I've sat down and thought about it for a while and I think I'll be stepping back from tumblr for a short bit. I'm gonna continue writing and setting things up to post from the queue but I don't think I'll be as active with answering asks, interacting, etc.
lately I haven't been feeling as well as I always do, both mentally and physically. the stress of my final college semester in my degree before I switch majors is weighing heavy on my shoulders, as well as the pressure to post regularly. I've always been dealing with some family issues that, unfortunately, don't seem to be resolving themselves soon (we love a mentally unstable mother that breaks you down at any given opportunity).
as for my writing I feel like lately I haven't been writing for myself, for my enjoyment or relaxation but rather chasing numbers and trying to write for others. I don't know how to explain it but I've been forcing myself to start things in my drafts that aren't true to what I enjoy writing or what I'd like to make. I forced myself away from the content I enjoy making for the sake of getting recognition, which is probably why I haven't been feeling so confident in what I've been producing lately.
as well as the issue of hate anons that seemed to have popped up. I know this day would come and it would be inevitable but I truly ask if you to be kind with me. I really try to be nice to everyone, to be inclusive and welcoming. I'm trying my best, I truly am. please be gentle with me.
this is turning out far longer than what I hoped it to be and I'm sorry if it dampens the mood of your feed. I just wanted to get these things off my chest. if you would prefer to not see my rants in the future, which I don't post often, you can block the #jennie rants tag as well as #tw discourse. I want my blog to be a safe and welcoming space for everyone, regardless of skin color, body type, sexuality and so forth.
to sum it all up for you — I'm still gonna be posting regularly but it's going to be from the queue. I won't be as active as before, I want to take a shot at taking care of myself for once. I can't give a date as to when I'm going to be back full time but I promise to bring many suprises and fun things with me when I return.
thank you for all your endless love and support