I went out at 4 in the morning and just sat and watched. I watched the stars sparkle in the darkness and I watched the sky turn from dark blue to red as the sun started to rise in the distance. I could make out dark silhouettes of bats flying through the night sky, returning home from their unknown adventures. The sky lit up. A shooting star. Only just caught by the corner of my eye. So I sat there and wished. I wished for strength. Enough strength to see this through. Just enough to keep me going. Being alone with nature makes me feel grounded, for a split second, it even makes me feel alive. For a moment, everything seems okay. Just sitting there. In silence. We are meaningless, but weβre aloud to exist. Like every creature is. Life is pointless, but maybe thatβs the point of it. We have so little time, yet seconds can feel like an eternity. I just want to make the best of it.
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Iβm drowning, my mind is suffocating me
it feels like Iβve forgotten how to breathe
so many thoughts in my head
but when i wanna concentrate i feel dead
my mind is overwhelming me
so many thoughts in my head
0Itβs late, and far in the past, a long time before now. Youβre young, a handfull of colourful candies in your lap. You hold each one up to the dark car window before eating it, trying to get a glimpse of light from the streetlamps to determine its flavour. You donβt have to worry about taxes or exams, and the clouds still look fluffy enough to sleep on, the moon still close enough to reach.
7my roommate cleaned my mirror and I feel insulted like excuse me??? how dare you show me how I depressed actually look
0he left me on read so i cleared our convorsation so i donβt have to be reminded that he doesnβt give a shit abt me every time i open the damn app π₯°π¦Ά
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