17 September 2021
Hmm ...She reached there , she's excited and happy , I'm happy for her .
Yeah I'm feeling alone , left out like someone really special leaves you suddenly , it hurts for real and I'm missing her , missing her and just missing her all the day. I'm sad and I'm listening to sad music to make myself even more sad 'cuz I can't do anything , I can't call her , it's been a long time since I have seen her pic too, I can't text her she will be tired and busy too settling down there , so I talked to her pic told her everything and she never replies like all time and she would never reply.
I missing her so much , feelings distance was growing and now the actual distance also came up.
I'm thinking if her moving to another city just breaking me this bad then what will happen when the day come when I'll say goodbye to her and I no longer see her again
Then I'll live a meaningless life that would just about passing ages and waiting for the call of death .
But yeah I got some plans after 4 or 5 years when I got a job I'll just move to somewhere else , like near a beach or somewhere near to woods place like that .
May be I'll go there on weekends I guess I'll eat nd sleep whole day listen some sad songs or watching TV I guess in evening I just make myself a coffee and go outside where I can see the sunset and I'll take out my phone and see her pictures remembering all those moments we shared , regretting about my broken promise which I made to her to Stay forever with her and I'll say " Hey pie you know I still love you and I miss you every single day , I wish you could be here "
I don't know if she would miss me when I left I don't know may be she will but yeah I wanna give her some good moments for now
So I'm living a life of pretence I'm happy I text her every morning , I text back immediately , I sleep when she say good even though I know she's not sleeping and she's active even after saying good night , I never gonna ask her about that may be it's about me 'cuz she won't say I don't wanna talk to you she's keeping happy with this by ending a conversation "okay goodnight"
It's fine I sleep 'cuz I don't have anyone to talk after that so I'll be sleeping but I'm not cuz I'm waking up till midnight thinking maybe she will text just a "Hi" to me and it really never happens and I sleep staring at my phone every single night..
The last time I felt like she really thinks of me was this moment.
But she latter added she don't take it other way I replied seeing your one story and you're sad , I guess I would be more happy if she had not said those things.
So that's how life goes on.. I guess this is the fate of my one side love
But soon my unrequited love , my happiness and my happy world will come to an end
But here's one thing I'm getting used to this pain, loneliness and one day I'll learn to live with that....
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“I think I was meant to suffer alone. Everyone leaves at some point and God doesn’t make so many coincidences.”
I wish I were better.
“i’m tired of feeling used.
is my body all i’m good for?”
- i’m drowning-imnotokay
Jeden Morgen wachte ich an deiner Seite auf, schaute dich an legte mich ganz fest an dich Ran und umarmte dich, einmal tief ein und aus atmen und schon hatte ich ein Lächeln im Gesicht. Du hast mich zum glücklichsten Mädchen der Welt gemacht nur ich wusste nicht wie man damit umgehen soll mit der Liebe, jetzt bist du weg und mir fällt jeder Tag schwerer, ich fange an mich zu erinnern wie schön deine Stimme war als sie leise flüsterte das alles gut wird....
17.09.2021 / 11:05
Life is like Sisyphus's punishment. When you feel like you're reaching the top, the boulder rolls down crushing you.
"I'd like to think my mother loved me," said Magnus. "All I remember is that she was so sad. I always felt as if I had to learn some trick to figure out how to do better. I thought I could prove myself, and she would be happy, and I'd be good enough. I never learned the trick."
— Cassandra Clare and Wesley Chu, The Red Scrolls of Magic
Regression to the mean - no matter what happens, good or bad, it will always return back to the middle.
Gamble your life for a dream that no one sees but you! ❤️
she screamed in pain with silence, she wore heartache with a smile
-quote by unknown
born from the grave with my name as a stain
blow my brains for some change, nobody knows my pain
let the weed burn, it don’t hurt
leave your body in a hearse, i keep my word
it’s the curse of the ghost
your name on a post
and a white tee
nobody likes me
i may be broke, but i fucked your hoe and slit her throat
i can’t feel my face no more
i got that stainless it leaves you painless
you know i aim bitch
now i bleed nice
i’ve lived twice
ridin’ with L.A in the ‘64 with the .44, ready to pour more
the devils horsemen ready to start shit
talk shit get hit
matter of a fact, meet me outside
you gon get lit
make a sucker bite the curb,
hear the murder sermons in my words
smoke a cigarette for my nerves
flickin ashes on my shirt
laying bodies in the dirt
I’m an extrovert. But when life begins to weigh on me I need silence. That’s when texting seems more appealing to me than talking on the phone. That’s when my journal is my greatest friend, because in my journal I can express the things that hurt too much to say out loud.
Let's talk about how hard it is to open up to someone about being sad for no reason. Let's talk about how hard it is to explain to your friends and family that you have this heavy feeling in your chest for no reason. Let's talk about how hard it is to understand why you're having a panic attack while just taking a walk back home. Let's talk about how hard it is to understand your own self and how scary it is to feel like the whole world is falling on your shoulders and you have no idea why.
- Nazareth Mendez -
I wonder what it would’ve felt like to be loved properly by you.
By all means, you put me through hell, but I do wish you the best. I hope you find what you’re looking for. You were the one, and I’ll forever search for pieces of you in everyone I meet.
Take care, my love.