Fly…
Days pass without me realizing.
People move on and walk away
I can’t cry or be hurt.
Beeing weak is not an option.
I talk to you and you dissapear.
I feel like im flying above everyones heads and nobody notices that all im asking for is a bit of attention.
I get these pangs of emptiness in the late hours of night. The day passes normally, but what is with the darkness? Why the emptiness? Sadly, some emotions can’t be put into words.
Devoid of comfort in my own thoughts
Endlessly searching for some relief
Pain is an old friend forming the clots
Replacing the contents of my belief
I’m broken to numbness without a cure
Venting the emptiness lost in my face
Everything tried is a failure for sure
Destiny’s left me in my own bitter taste
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You can sound confident and have anxiety.
You can look healthy but feel like shit.
You can be look happy and be miserable inside.
You can be good looking and feel ugly.
So be kind, because every person is fighting a battle you know nothing about.
- unknown author
You’re telling me that when you read about Vincent van Gogh’s funeral, you don’t fucking cry?!?!?! You read about Dr. Gacher being the first one to bring a bouquet of sunflowers “because he loved them so much” AND YOU DON’T FUCKING CRY?!?!?!
Journal Entry 34
January 15th, 2021
Song of the Day: drivers license by Olivia Rodrigo
I feel these next couple of days will just be me coping. I think for the most part I’ve gotten past my anger towards him cause now I just feel sad.
I mean I’m doing fine. I haven’t wanted to end things for the past couple of days…. Which hasn’t happened in almost 5 years. Its crazy to me. It hurts, but for once I don’t want to die. I don’t know how to describe that emotion.
I think I’ve listened to drivers license more than any other song in a day.
I don’t have anything else to say.