I feel like the dad from coraline, completely drained of life and not wanting to be here anymore!
0“ If anyone cares, chocolate chip pancakes is my favourite breakfast food.
Four summers ago, I wouldn’t have pictured myself laughing with my mother in the kitchen while mixing the batter.
Four summers ago, I would have assumed that I wouldn’t make it this far.
Four summers ago, I didn’t want a future.
There are still hard times, times when that gut wrenching, heart-in-your-stomach pain comes back and pulls you down.
But if anyone cares, chocolate chip pancakes is my favourite breakfast food.”
- 6.44
// four summers ago //
2food log day 1:
breakfast = 262 calories
- 30 g of cereal
- 125 ml of semi skimmed milk
- 1 chopped banana
lunch = 325 calories
- 1 slice of bread
- 1 slice of cheese
- 1 g of butter
- 1 tsp of sweet chilli
dinner = 495 calories
- 100 g of tortellini
- 175 g of tomato & mascarpone sauce
total calories for the day = 1082:(
0Person: You can always come to me if you have a problem or need to talk. I will always be there for you!
……
Me: *calls* Hey I need your help
Person: Ohh I’m so sorry, I’ve got no time right now.
5Im so tired of being here, i just want to close my eyes and feel okay. I want to be hugged and be reassured that when i open my eyes I’ll see light again. I want to know I’ll be okay and everything that is going on is just temporary. I want to be okay. I want to be happy.
2You made it seem like it was me who fucked it up, when it was you who made me think i wasn’t enough for you or myself.
0Sometimes I wish I killed myself when I was 15 like I had planned. At least then everyone would be over me by now, and the people who didnt know me yet wouldnt get hurt…
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