“Ten cuidado con quien haces recuerdos. Esas cosas pueden durar toda la vida, estén juntos o no.”
1This is why I hate catching feelings.
One second ur so happy u could jump on cloud 9 and the next second you feel like total shit, not deserving anything or anyone.
2I am so afraid of sleeping I don’t know why but i just cannot sleep. I don’t want to close my eyes cause the second I do that my thoughts get so loud. I am so tired but I force myself to stay awake because I’m just so scared. So I lay here crying as I think about having to lay in the silent dark hoping that my brain will somehow shut down so I can escape my own thoughts
4Am I the only person who feels pressure from nothing?? What tf is going on rn? What I do, what I want, WHY. My heart is broken I’ve learned to live with that. But pressure from I don’t know NOTHING?? And nobody can help me?? That shit is fucking crazy. And of course I can’t do anything?? What I do. WHAT I FUCKING DO?? I can’t wait anymore… I am loosing my power…
~random night thoughs~
14why do I care so much about other people’s wellbeing? why do I care so much what people think of me? why do I still care about people that left me when I was at my lowest? why do I still think about that one person, that fucking broke me and almost made me kill myself? why do I still think about someone, even though they have been out of my life for about 3 years? why do I want whats best for them, even though they treated me like shit? why do I fall for the guys, that’ll only end up not falling for me? why am I always the only one that cares? why can’t I be the pretty one once? whh can’t a guy fall for ME? text ME? or idk date ME? I know I’m not a pretty girl, but everyone has to stop shoving that in mh face every 2 seconds. I’m tired of never being good enough for anyone.
~@shityfeelings
9Spiegel
Jeden Tag wenn ich in den Spiegel schaue, würde ich ihm am liebsten zerstören. Ach nein nicht den Spiegel nein… Meinen Körper eher… Mich von dieser Last befreien perfekt sein zu wollen. Je länger ich in den Spiegel schaue, desto mehr will ich mir wehtun und ich tu mir weh. Es ist mir nicht mal bewusst was ich tue in diesem Moment der Schwäche. Aber jedes mal wenn ich in den Spiegel schaue sehe ich einen Menschen der es nicht Wert ist…Nicht Wert weiter zu leben. Egal wie viele Tage ich Faste und egal wie viele Diäten ich mache oder wie viele Runden ich ums Haus gelaufen bin ich werde nie perfekt sein. Das schlimmste ist nur es zu akzeptieren..
2Unsent
I wrote you letters
I can never send
But somehow
I wish you could read them
Coz they’re written
At my darkest
And at my lowest
Through my insecurities
Dreams and self-doubt
Sealed in ink, whispered to the wind
But I wish you could read them
Coz I’m myself the most
In those letters
I can never send
- jour
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