is saying you’re dean/sam/cas/etc coded just a nondescript way of saying you’re a kinnie or am i just looking too deeply into this
is saying you’re dean/sam/cas/etc coded just a nondescript way of saying you’re a kinnie or am i just looking too deeply into this
It had been some time since he was last in Konoha. Since he decided to leave once and for all, he sometimes makes it a little tradition to visit every so often. He walked through the roads feeling almost nostalgic by what he saw.
Day 3 – Addicted to your touch Separation Anxiety
WARNING: MENTAL ILLNESS
Disclaimer: I am not a therapist, the advice I gave in this piece might be very faulty, please take it with a grain of salt.
Modern AU, OOC
It all started small, when one day Sasuke announced that he’d be gone for 2 weeks due to work, the news alone made Hinata’s heartache but she smiled and wished him good luck on the project and a safe trip. Each day the feeling of missing him would grow and grow and grow until it was too big for her body to contain, and the feeling turned to pain. Her longing made her physically sick by the end of the second week.
The next stage was composed of excessive calls and texts, Hinata constantly needed to know where he was, what he was doing, whenever he’d take too long to reply the longing would come back and she’d either sink into sadness or lose herself to anger, both feelings she had not experienced much since dating Sasuke. Whenever he’d reply after a longer break, she’d ask him to come over to her house and stay the night.
That was the case on August 3rd. Sasuke came straight to her house after a long day at the office and Hinata ran to hug him, all of the negative feelings almost forgotten the moment she laid her eyes on him. His touch alone made all of her worries disappear. That was the feeling of home, in his arms.
They spent the night normally, eating dinner while watching a movie, changing and going to bed because they both had work in the morning. The issue came with the sunrise, for Hinata refused to let him leave. She cried and begged and screamed the moment he brought up work, she tore his shirt apart reasoning that he couldn’t go to work without one. The moment the white fabric hit the ground; silence fell over the room. Both of them were shocked, unable to speak due to her outburst of emotions.
Her cried aggravated, she fell to her knees and crawled to where he was, hugging his waist, apologizing over and over again. Sasuke was in deep thought, remembering all the small signs over the past month and a half. It hurt him to think that he had hurt her in any way to drive her to this moment, he patted her hair lovingly, took a deep breath and said in a broken voice “I think there’s something wrong Hina”
She looked at him with big round eyes, they were glossy and red, she blinked and looked down at the floor. “There might be…” Sasuke picked her up by her armpits and placed her in his lap, continuing to run his hand through her hair. He continued doing so until she calmed down and fell asleep, her emotions must have exhausted her. He didn’t move her from his lap for fear of waking her up, however, he picked up his phone from the nightstand and send Itachi a message telling him that he will not be going to work, he proceeded to text Kurenai as well informing her of Hinata’s absence at work too.
He spent the following few hours reading about similar situations, which mostly led to the same piece of advice, that a specialist was needed. So, he went on to search for therapists in Konoha, texting them all, asking whether any of them were free that day, two of them didn’t reply, another one was full for the week and could only see them next Wednesday, thankfully the last one agreed to meet with them after closing hours at 8:30.
Having all of that plan, all he needed to do was find a way to approach the topic when talking to Hinata, she had to agree that paying a visit to therapy would do them both good. Hinata had been asleep for about two hours now, so Sasuke took the liberty to move her onto her side of the bed and go to the kitchen to make some food for when she’d get up.
He managed to make scrambled eggs and toast and was about to go and wake her up when a cry of distress came from their room. He hurried to her side, Hinata was holding onto his pillow on the verge of tears.
“You weren’t here when I woke up” Her voice was meek and trembling. “I could hear movement in the kitchen, I knew you were there. So why, why does your absence hurt this much, despite me knowing you are here?”
He wished he had the answer, but he didn’t. He moved closer and sat on the edge of the bed, cupping her face with one hand, slowly brushing the skin under her eye with his thumb. Sasuke leaned in slowly to hiss her nose, cheek, forehead and finally the corner of her mouth. “I think to find out why, we might need some help from the outside” he closed his eyes and sighed, his breath fanning over her lips. “I talked to a man named Iruka, he’s a therapist and agreed to meet with us later today, would you be open to this idea?”
Hinata looked at him, searching his eyes and expression for any malice or negative feelings, but there was none, his openness and desire to help led her to agree to his plan, maybe they did need help.
“From what you’ve told me, this is a severe case of separation anxiety,” Iruka said, he looked kind and bore no ill feelings, Hinata had been afraid of the judgmental look he’d give her after hearing about her actions, but his eyes remained warm and understanding. “This usually manifests itself in small children, they are afraid to part from their caregivers even for a moment. In certain cases, it is believed it could appear in pregnant women as well, and usually the caregiver is their partner. Is there any possibility of this being true?”
Both Sasuke and Hinata’s eyes opened wider at the word pregnant, there was most certainly a possibility of that. They were always careful while having sex, however, Hinata was not on birth control, for they affected her badly whenever she took them as a teen so their method of contraception were condoms alone. There’s always the possibility of one breaking, a faulty one, or just them being part of the 0.01% of the population for which condoms did not work perfectly.
“I suggest you take a pregnancy test as well. As I mentioned, this is known to happen now and again so do not worry too much; however, this anxiety can affect you negatively” Iruka continued while looking at Hinata “the best way to deal with this is steady growth. In the early stages constant contact is preferred. Think of this as building up trust once again. Constant reassurance is important, always keeping promises, separation needs to happen slowly over time; from constant touch to simply being in the same room but at a safe distance, then being in separate rooms, then Hinata being alone but in a familiar and comfortable space for short periods of time. Of course, this process takes months. For some women the anxiety dies down with the birth, for others in continues after but through steady built of trust it can disappear”
They followed Iruka’s advice and went to Hinata’s gyno the next day and Iruka’s assumption proved to be true, Hinata was indeed pregnant in week 7. They were currently in the first stage of their trust-building, being in the same room, always touching. Hinata sat in his lap while they watched a movie, they held hands whenever they were outside, they’d keep bumping feet under the table as they ate. Sasuke had basically moved into her apartment, neither of them went to work. Sasuke was able to do most of his job remotely, however, Hinata applied for medical time off. Everything was going great, Hinata no longer experienced that painful longing, however, her pregnancy turned out to be a quite difficult one, as soon as they found out she was indeed pregnant, her morning sickness started, she had constant back pain and her appetite was very volatile. They’d often wake up in the middle of the night and drive around the city to find one of her cravings. During a particularly bad night 2 months after, her craving for watermelon in the winter proved difficult, to add to the issue her back pain was excruciating so she could not stay in the car for however long it would take them to find watermelon.
“Do you think…you would be all right if you stayed here and I went to find it for you…?” they had barely moved on from the ‘always touching’ stage, the process was slow but it was there.
“What do you want me to do Hina? You can’t even sit up properly, being in the car for maybe an hour would we awful, but being here alone would too…but it’s unwise to not follow your cravings either” He was spiralling, the situation was stressful and all he wanted was to be able to help her, he wanted to take her pain away, he wanted to give her everything she’d ever want and more.
“I think, I will be fine” Hinata finally said after thinking for a bit longer. Almost in slow motion, he nodded, ‘ok, ok, ok’ he murmured to himself as he put his winter coat over his pyjamas and stood on the bed to put his boots on. “I’ll go find you watermelon, ok? I will be back as soon as I can. I love you” he kissed her cheek and then the top of her head. She smiled and waved, but the moment his back turned to her, her smile wavered. Would she really be ok…?
Sasuke ran down the stairs to the car, he wanted to be away for as little as possible. He pulled out of the driveway and sped up as much as possible. Firstly, he’d look at the local non-stop supermarket, at the ‘exotic’ or ‘out of season’ shelf, if it wasn’t there he’d go to the local Korean market and buy some watermelon flavoured things, just in case there was nothing else anywhere; before he could think of where he’d go next his phone rang. Seeing Hinata’s name he answered immediately.
“come back…please” she was trying not to cry, he could hear it. He did an illegal U-turn and sped even more towards their apartment “I’m coming, I’ll be there in 5 minutes” Hinata replied with an ‘ok’ however she didn’t hang up, she needed to at least be on the line with him. Sasuke didn’t hang up either, not when we pulled into the driveway, not when he stopped the car, nor when he ran up the stairs. He only hung up when Hinata was in his arms.
“I’m so sorry, I thought I could, but you left and I…” she was sobbing so hard it was even difficult to understand her. “It’s ok, it’s not your fault, we moved too fast. Iruka said it’s slow. It’s no problem Hina, we can just start over” If her constantly touching him was what made her feel safe, he’d hold her close until she was ready. No more rushing of things. Once Hinata calmed down, Sasuke called Itachi.
“I’m sorry to wake you up but I need some help…could you look for some watermelon?”
Au idea where both Hinata and Sakura divorce Naruto and Sasuke and marry Shino The only thing that changes is every episode Shino throws shade on them on how much they sucked as husbands and Sakura and Hinata are happier
we were talking abt this and my twt moot @/LizYouh mentioned aoda coaching him lol i made a quick doodle HAHAHAAHAHA
PLEASE DO NOT REPOST MY ARTWORKS
des ü // @iamdslr // @saradesuchiha
Thinking about all the orphans and child soldiers in Konoha tonight.
Like, who gave them sex ed??? Why is this so funny to me???
Young!Kakashi trying desperately to listen to Minato sensei because a good shinobi always listens to superiors, but ever visible inch of his face is on fire, and the faint sound of Kushina laughing in the distance is making it so much worse.
Sasuke just hnns everytime someone says something he doesn’t understand and manages to get into adulthood with nothing more than basic biology knowledge.
Naruto somehow knows too much and also nothing at all.
And who gave Neji sex ed? His uncle? Gai sensei? I don’t know which would be worse...
(Feel free to share your thoughts on this haha, I could do this a laugh)
Sasuke and Naruto are in their senior year of university and have been dating for four months. It wasn't a secret that Sasuke had somewhat of a contentious relationship with his parents, so Naruto was surprised when he was invited to stay over at his home for five days during their winter break.
All Naruto had to do was impress his boyfriend's somewhat traditional parents without making a fool out of himself. Which was super easy, because when had Naruto ever made a fool out of himself?
are naruto and sasuke dead yet
cant help but think about how difficult it is for anyone to accept any information which strays away from one’s truth, from whatever they believed to be correct. cant help but think ab how sasuke had to re-evaluate, dismantle & reconstruct his entire reality, his truth, over and over again throughout his short life of seventeen years. every single shift was so deeply traumatising / life altering. he constantly had to deal with instability, danger, mistrust, he didn’t know what he could even believe in at some point / nor did he have a proper grasp on his own identity.
cant help but think about how he had to protect himself from naruto, not only to fulfil goal for revolution and revenge, but also because accepting the fact that naruto truly meant what he said, when he expressed his feelings to sasuke, would be another tectonic shift in his current reality, an obstruction towards his goal. he had to believe that bonds cannot be that strong, they cannot last through all that, especially not a bond naurto shared with him. he had to hold this mistrusting lens, which severed everything important to him.
in the last chapter (the last chapter that mattered) sasuke does express to naruto a sense of surprise that he stuck by him, even after sasuke tried so hard to break their bond, and even after every single person other than him left sasuke, and cut off their ties with him. naruto stayed, and loved him unconditionally. when sasuke finally allows himself to believe naruto’s words, he cries and seems at peace because for once in his life this shift in reality was not coated with hate/anger but was so full of love and acceptance.
Coloured this the other day please ebjoy
Day three of narutaugust: Sasuke needs therapy
I been looking for the fic ‘An Uchiha in uniform’ and I think the author deleted it, I’m suffering, I need to read it again
i thought the screencap of sasuke's ridiculously long bangs had to be fake/edited but no this is from episode 65 and it is 100% real
I’m… a Sasuke apologist. I’ve thought a lot about this. He’s vengeful and lashes out in unhelpful ways sometimes but I can’t be mad at him. I get why he’s coming to these conclusions and I hope one day he gets to be happy.