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  • nerdyjellybean
    17.09.2021 - 21 minutes ago

    This small bit makes my heart drop. Spencer takes so long to to calm down and freaks out when he sees Rossi, you can see he almost reaches up to push Rossi away from him. I think this is because he thought Rossi was his dad like in Spencer’s dream he had just woken up from. When he looks up to the woman he has no reaction, but when he sees Rossi you can see his eyes widen and he starts shaking, almost pushing him like i said before. He relaxes a little when he realises that it’s Rossi next to him and not his father. Idk i just thought it was interesting. I love little details like this.

    #criminal minds#spencer reid #dr. spencer reid #dr. reid #sad #criminal minds scene #scene#season 4 #criminal minds season 4 #ssa spencer reid #cm#bau#david rossi
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  • gay-space-weeb
    17.09.2021 - 22 minutes ago

    Happy birthday Kenma!!!

    #anime #haikyuu!! #haikyuu icons #haikyuu season 4 #kenma kuzome#nekoma
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  • eldiandiablo
    17.09.2021 - 23 minutes ago

    𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐀𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐥 𝐨𝐟 𝐏𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐬

    𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟐.- 𝑆ℎ𝑒 𝑖𝑠 𝑛𝑜 𝑏𝑖𝑟𝑑, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑛𝑜 𝑛𝑒𝑡 𝑒𝑛𝑠𝑛𝑎𝑟𝑒𝑠 ℎ𝑒𝑟

    WARNING: Content for +18 Canon-Typical Violence, Canon/Fanon related, Explicit Language, Slow Build, Underage Drinking, Angst, Fluff, Slow Burn, Bittersweet, lots lots of angst and Tragedy, Hurt/Comfort, Abuse, Domestic Abuse, Neglect. Reader discretion is advised

    A/N.- Second Chapter! Cried a bit while writing this, Levi’s and readers relationship is on another level! Tell me what you think! Also, from this chapter on, it will be FIRST PERSON, no more 3rd person!

    Remember: The reader’s name is “Naciye Y/N” (Y/N being her middle name) due to plot reasons! y’all will see later!

    I will be also uploading it on Wattpad @eldiandiablo​

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    Get there they did, however, in due season Mrs. Hill lived in a gray house at the Tage, and she came to the door with a surprise and welcome mingled on her benevolent face.

    “Dear, dear.” she exclaimed, “you’re the last folks I was looking for today, but I’m really glad to see you. How are you, Naciye?”

    “I’m as well as can be expected, thank you,” said Naciye smiling, a blight seemed to have descended on her.

    “We sent word for you to bring us a boy from the orphanage. We told you-”

    “I’m dreadfully sorry Levi”, said Mrs. Hill. “It’s too bad; but it certainly wasn’t my fault, you see, I did the best I could, and I thought I was following your instructions-”

    “It was our own fault,” said Levi resignedly, “We should have come to you ourselves and not left an important message to be passed along by word of mouth in that fashion. Anyhow, the mistake has been made and I would like to set it right. Can we send the child back to the orphanage? They’ll take her back, won't they?”

    “I suppose so”, said Mrs. Hill thoughtfully, “but I don't think it will be necessary to send her back. Mrs. Blewett actually wants a little girl; she has a large family and Naciye would be the very girl for her.”

    Here was an unexpectedly good chance to get this unwelcome orphan off his hands, and he didn’t even feel grateful for it.

    As for Naciye, she remembers this feeling all too well. One time she climbed some rocks, trying to reach the big gaps onto the ceiling, trying to get a hold of that big blue sky she desires, but she fell ten feet to the dark ground, landing on her back, as if the impact had knocked every wisp of air from her lungs, and she laid there, struggling to inhale, to exhale, to do anything.

    That’s how she feels now, she’s trying hard to remember how to breathe, unable to speak, totally stunned as the conversation between Levi and Mrs. Hill bounces around the inside of her skull.

    It’s not fair…

    “And if there isn't’ Mrs. Blewett coming up the lane this blessed minute!” exclaimed Mrs. Hill, bustling her guests through the hall into the dark parlor, where a deadly chill struck on them, as if the air had been strained so long through dark green, closely drawn blinds that it had lost every particle of warmth it had ever possessed. “That is really lucky, for we can settle the matter right away.”

    Naciye took a seat on the chair, mutely, with her hands clasped tightly in her lap, staring at Mrs. Blewett as one fascinated. Was she to be given into the keeping of this sharp-faced, sharp-eyed woman? She felt a lump coming up in her throat and her eyes smarted painfully. She was beginning to be afraid she couldn’t keep the tears back.

    “It seems there’s been a mistake about this little girl, Mrs. Blewett,” Mrs. Hill said. “I was under the impression that Levi and Furlan Church wanted a little girl to adopt, for her to help them into their line of work. But it seems it was a boy they wanted, so I think she’ll be just the thing for you.”

    Mrs. Blewett darted her eyes over Naciye from head to foot.

    “How old are you and what’s your name?” she demanded.

    “Naciye Y/N,” she faltered, not daring to make any stipulations, “and I'm ten years old.”

    “You don’t look as if there was much to you, girl. But you’re wiry, I don’t know but the wiry ones are the best after all… I can take her right now.”

    Levi looked at Naciye and softened at the sight of the child’s pale face with its look of mute misery- the same misery he had felt once, the misery of a helpless person who finds itself once more caught in the trap from which it had escaped. He remembered the day Kenny abandoned him, the day he left him, he could see the same pain in Naciye’s eyes.

    He clenched his fists and his jaw, expressing an irritated groan, not caring if the women before him heard him. To hand a sensitive, fragile child to such a woman, he could never take the responsibility of doing that.

    “Well, I don’t know, ladies” He dropped his gaze as he felt three pairs of eyes boring into him, “I didn’t say that Furlan and I had absolutely decided that we wouldn’t keep her. In fact, I may say Furlan is disposed to keep her. I just came over to find out how the mistake had occurred.”

    He won't leave her to suffer the same fate he once had.

    “I think I’d better take her home again. If we make up our mind not to keep her, we’ll bring her or send her over to you tomorrow night, will that suit you Mrs. Blewett?”

    “I suppose it’ll have to,” said the woman ungraciously

    During Levi’s speech a sunrise had been dawning on Naciye’s face. First the look of despair faded out, her eyes growing deep and bright as morning started. A moment later, when Mrs. Hill and Mrs. Blewett went out in search of a recipe, Naciye sprang up and flew across the room to Levi.

    “Oh, Levi, did you really say that perhaps you would let me stay with you?” she said in a breathless whisper, as if speaking aloud might shatter the glorious possibility. “Did you really say it? Or did I only imagine that you did?”

    “I think you’d better learn to control that imagination of yours, Naciye, if you can’t distinguish between what is real and what isn’t,” said Levi crossly. “Yes, you did hear me say that and no more.”

    “Oh Levi, I'd rather go back to the asylum than go to live with her,” said Naciye passionately. “She looks exactly like a- like a brat.”

    Levi smothered a smile under the conviction that Naciye must be reproved for such a speech at her age. “You should be ashamed of talking so to a woman,” he said severely, “but I do have to agree- but I thought of her more as a tramp than a brat.”

    She smiled back at him, as he held her small hand as they walked back home, she blew a couple of airy kisses from her fingertips past the big gaps above them both, and then with her eyes set on Levi and on the bigs specks of blue, she drifted luxuriously out on a sea of daydreams.

    •─̇•─̇•─̇•─̇• (A FEW YEARS LATER)

    “Levi, can I please go with Furlan, just for a minute”

    “Quit whining and finish reading”

    She sighs, propping her elbows on the table, resting her head to stare down at the scribble of words. As much as she tries to pay attention to the book about the beautiful capricious mayflowers all over Wall Rose, she couldn't help but drift her eyes to the tall blonde man who entered the kitchen for a glass of water. Groaning again, she catches Levi’s attention.

    “Finish your reading, brat.”

    “I’m so sorry for the people who live here, where there are no Mayflowers. I’m so tired of reading this tragedy.”

    “Tragedy?”

    “It's TRAGIC, Levi. We’ve never seen mayflowers. Do you know what I think Mayflowers are, Levi?” I think they must be the souls of flowers who died-”

    “Naciye. Finish reading the book, I didn’t go to that disgusting library to get you one for you to keep complaining about.”

    She grounds and turns back to the yellow old pages, and she simply reads the new title of the next chapter, ‘Campanulas’.

    Naciye tries hard to concentrate on the drawings of the radiant purple flowers, but she can't ignore the conversation between Furlan and Levi.

    “Jobs have been a lot easier since we got our hands on the 3D Maneuver Gear” Furlan chuckles at Levi, “Everyone’s share has increased too.”

    “It seems that one has increased more than others,” Levi replies sternly, as he finishes wiping the blades.

    “C’mon Levi, Jan’s leg has gotten worse again, you noticed, right? Every time he takes a step- It’s just that medicine is really expensive down here. There damn Underground Merchants, Mr. Allan always asks for our aid, but every single fucking time he increases the price… The Stairway Toll even went up, I asked Officer Wagner if we could do something, anything to get our way up, but with that, it’s even less likely for the poor to ever see the sunlight…” The tall blonde mumbles the last few words, afraid that the small girl would hear him, afraid of him being the one crushing her dreams to hear the birds sing and to fly along with the skies of blue.  

    “Listen Furlan, we need the money so we can buy our way up… we cannot stay here. She cannot stay down here…”

    Levi made it a priority for her not to know about every problem he faced, yeah, he can explain to her from time to time why there were no more bread slices on the counter, or why he didn’t allow her to go to the Brunen all by herself, but some problems just went over Naciye’s head.

    Out of the many things, he understood she needed to go where the sun could warm her tan skin, where she could see the birds sing, where she could see the gorgeous purple of the Campanulas by Wall Maria. For she is no bird, and he won't allow any net to ensnare her.

    Naciye dreamt of blue skies, of vivid green trees, because all of her life had been darkness, pure and utter darkness. Of course, she heard them, she knew that it was so hard to buy their way up, no matter what job they do, no matter where they go.

    Officers increase the price as high as they want, and even if you manage to pay and get out, without citizenship you couldn't stay long in the world above surrounded by vast green grounds and tall walls.

    She doesn’t want to stay here with Levi and Furlan, she doesn't want to feel her legs hurt due to the lack of sunlight. She dreams of a bright future with Levi and Furlan, one where they can both accomplish their mothers wishes, a life where they can stop trying to survive day by day, minute by minute, second by second.

    “Naciye,” Levi calls out, pulling her from her daydreams.

    She sits up straight and groans, “How much more do we need… to be able to live up there-”

    Before she could finish, Levi covers her mouth with his hand as a thump hits the front door, sending the two men on high alert. Furlan looked at her, pointing to her room in the far end, “Don’t come out unless we say so, okay Naciye?”

    She nodded, without hesitation she ran into the room, closing the door gently, as she pressed her ear into it, trying to get an ounce of the conversation that was about to happen. Was she scared? Yes, she had fear that maybe someone behind that door might take her away from her little family, or that maybe it could be a bad merchant that is trying to get some revenge on Levi for stealing some metal for his new weapons.

    Levi always kept her safe, he always came back to her once the danger was gone. Sure, Naciye was raised in the Underground, where eerie depths lurked everywhere, but she was still afraid of the darkness, she had always been terrified of it because of how lonely it made her feel.

    She avoided looking at the dark depths of the room as she heard some voices, was it a girl’s voice? Why was Levi being rude?

    She hears the familiar footsteps come her way, opening the door gently as a recognizable hand reaches into her smaller one. He was looking down at her with an assuring look. Yeah, Levi might have had his doubts on her when he first laid eyes on her small and fragile frame, but for her there is no safer place than being close to Levi.

    “What’s the matter Levi?”

    “Everything is alright.” He helps her stand up, taking her hand as they, both walk back into the small kitchen, Naciye comes to a stop, hiding behind Levi as her attention gets hold of a young woman with bright green eyes and fiery red-brown hair.

    “It's just a kid, Levi. That sure surprised me” Furlan sighs, as she watches the red-haired girl on the floor, wincing from the fall that she just took when Levi opened the door.

    “Not… a kid…” she mumbles as she fixes her eyes on the tall slim man, “I’m not a kid!”

    “Is that so?”, said Levi, “I won’t feel bad for kicking you out then.”

    Naciye gasps, still grabbing his hand as she hides behind him. Levi may be frigid at times, but she knows that deep down he cares, he cares for others. And she knows that he will give the red-haired girl a chance to stay, a chance to feel safe, a chance to maybe expand your little family a bit more.

    “I’ll let the fact that you dirtied the floor slide” Naciye watches the way Levi and Furlan are looking down at the poor girl, “Get out now.”

    “What” Furlan finally said, “can’t you move? -”

    “Of course, I can! Don’t you dare look down on me.”, the redhead said as she stood up slowly, gently as she held something fragile in her right hand.

    “What a strong-willed kid”

    Naciye gasps as she watches the girl fall against the door, holding a little bird, she couldn’t contain herself but to ask “Hey, is that-”

    “Shit, where the hell is that brat! She really bit me!” she hears a man scream as he runs beneath the bridge that's close to her little home.

    “Tsk, you’re being chased brat?”

    “What should we do Levi?”

    Naciye knew how it was like to be chased by her fears, running away, not having any single time for tears, feeling how the cruel wind and rain laughed at the little leaves to hurry.

    “When she’s caught, I’ll be the first to have fun with her!” you hear the man laugh.

    “Please Mr. Roesch don’t do this to me, please!” she cried as she stumbled into the corner of the main room.
    “I’m going to have some fun with ya’, aren’t you fond of playing games?”

    Naciye looked stunned as she heard the words from the man, holding Levi tighter with trembling hands, and he could feel it, he knows that sometimes she cannot control the power of her fear.

    “Hey, you! There’s a dirty little kid over, here right?!”

    “Those are the only kids around”, said Furlan, replying to the dirty man who wants to get a hold of the red-haired girl.

    “Well, well, aren’t you guys the thugs in this area?”

    “Which of us are?” the tall man mumbles, chuckling as he stares down at the man. The man gasps as he spots the girl on the floor, leaning against the door, “Are you guys friends?”

    “Not at all”

    “Well, then hand her over to us.” he says, as three more men appear behind him, “After all. She tried to get past the eleventh Stairway without paying!”

    She was trying to reach the sky, Naciye gasps at the thought, she was trying to get free from this dark eerie depth of a world.

    “You should know, the eleventh Stairway is under the jurisdiction of one of the nobles, Lobov-san, and anyone who tries to pass there without paying is prosecuted. Of course, you guys will be charged too for being her accomplice.”

    Naciye finally hears the girl with bright green eyes gasp, as she looks at her with worried eyes.

    “I don’t care anymore. Move away from her!”, the man speaks up as he approaches Naciye and Levi, “Hey, we could even start with the little one-”

    Naciye feels how the man grabs her hand that was holding Levi’s, how he pulled with such force, trying to separate her from him, but then, instead of feeling such pain in her hand, she hears a loud scream coming from the man and blood coming out from his hand. Before she could even see that Levi pulled out a knife, slicing the man’s hand, she feels Fulran’s arms wrap around her, carrying her and covering her face.

    Then she starts to hear punches and gasps coming out from the man, until she finally perceives Levi’s voice, “Don’t touch me or her with your filthy hands, we might get dirty”

    “You can’t do it like that, we always prioritize hygiene. Wash your hands and come again”, Furlan said, as Naciye took a look to see the big man trying to get up from the floor with the help of his friends.

    “These guys are dangerous, let’s get the fuck out of here!”, they finally left. As Furlan sets Naciye down, she slowly approaches the redhead, curious to see the little bird on her hands, Naciye gives her a bright smile as the girl reveals the small bird from the palm of her hands.

    “It’s a real bird!” she chuckles, the redhead responding to hear, “Yes! It got lost on its way here, probably through some duct. So, I thought I’ll bring it to the surface. What’s your name?”

    “Naciye Y/N, you can call me Naciye though, or just Y/N, even if I prefer to be called with another name-”

    “But your name is so pretty, it fits you! Hey, maybe we can name the birdie just like you!”

    “Really!” Naciye beams, watching in disbelief how the girl is taking care of the little white animal. “It’s a jäger! I read it in my book Levi! The one I’ve always told you about! Can I please pet it!”

    Furlan smiles as he watches the with a wide smile “Yes, but just be gentle, okay?-”

    “It's filthy Naciye, you can get all dirty and sick if you touch it” Levi interjects.

    “But we can clean it and aid its wounds” The girl assures Naciye, “then we can pet it and set it free!”

    Naciye turns to look at the girl with a grin “That's right, so you're Naciye, and you guys are? Oh, I’m Isabel, by the way.”

    “I’m Furlan… and that’s Levi.” he turned to point at the man who was cleaning his blade, removing the man’s filthy blood.

    “Furlan and Levi-bro!

    “Bro?”, he questioned as Naciye giggled, no one has ever given a nickname to Levi, he definitely didn’t seem like the type of guy who would enjoy people giving him a bunch of them

    “You guys have been using 3D maneuver gear! I’ve seen you before, you guys fly like birds! Please, I want to try it, let me become one of you!”

    Levi stands up, setting his blade onto the table, looking at Naciye and then staring at Isabel, thinking on her request, “If you stay here, you need to learn how to clean and then we will teach you how to use the gear”

    Levi waits for Naciye to grab his hand as he shuts the door gently, walking towards Naciye’s room to get a warm towel for the bird. “Can we shower the birdie together? That way I can pet it and it can be set free!”

    “We’ll see Naciye, we’ll see.”

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    {Naciye (y/n) POV}

    Time passed and her family of four grew as stronger as ever, it was easy to get attached to Isabel, especially since we both shared the love for animals and the outside. Of course, I adored Levi and Furlan, but ever since I was a child, I’ve never remembered having a woman figure in my life. Never met my father, and from time to time I dream of my mother’s sweet hugs, but the numbness of her disappearance had passed, but of course, sometimes it would hit me out of nowhere, doubling me over, racking my body with sobs. Where are you? I would cry out in my mind. Where have you gone? Why did you leave me? Of course, there was never any answer.

    That bird was the only thing I’ve truly seen that was from above ground, and I can never shake the connection between this bird, because it gave me hope, it reminded me that I wasn't some doomed girl.

    “That bird is going to fly high in the beautiful sky, Naciye”, Furlan pats my shoulder as I watch the bird reach the light blue world above us. You can feel the tall blonde picking me up and placing me on his shoulders, as I stretch my arms out open to reach where the bird soars away.

    “You see that sis! It’s free!” Isabel beams as she jumps of happiness.

    My grin met her gaze, before I looked down to Levi, “When are we going to be free like the bird?”

    “Soon.”

    But little did I know that the outside world has its dark and eerie shadows too.

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    I didn’t know what happened, I couldn't place a name on the man’s face. But I am certain of it, the calm and collected expression on his face, with his icy blue eyes, bushy eyebrows and blond hair kept neatly parted on the left side. But even as the four of us kneel before him, even as I look down, I feel my insides contracting with anxiety and guilt at the sight of the Survey Corps.

    When I look back, the man is watching us like a hawk, “Where did you get this? You guys are skilled with 3D Maneuver Gear. Who taught you all that?”

    He hears no answer from us, but even if I even try to mutter some words I can’t, the expression of nervousness of Isabel only adds to my unease.

    “You’re their leader, right?'' he approaches Levi, “Were you trained in the military?”

    For a moment, everyone is silent, until I hear some footsteps from behind, a well-built and tall blond man grabs Levi from his dark hair and pounds his head onto the dirt. I bolt up as I see such commotion, my head aches as I see the man who has taken care of me in such struggle and vulnerability.

    “I’ll ask one more time. Where did you learn to 3D Maneuver Gear?”, snapped the man.

    “Not from anyone! We learnt it by ourselves!” Furlan finally speaks.

    “Self-taught you say? I don't buy it-”

    “It’s just so we’re able to rise even a bit in this dirty garbage place! People who’re used to sunlight like you guys wouldn’t understand!”

    “That’s enough! Let Bro go! Don’t be cocky just because you’re soldiers!” Isabel yells.

    The man finally lets Levi go, bringing him back to his knees as the tall man kneels before him. “My name is Erwin Smith, and yours is?”

    “Levi”

    “Levi- Why don’t we make a deal?”, he says sternly, “I will let your crimes go unpunished. In return, lend me your strength. Join the Survey Corps.”

    I can feel Furlan staring at me, trying to calm me with his expression, but all I do is tremble. The Survey Corps? I loom more critically on the design of the Wings of Freedom in their green capes. My mind wanders to soldiers fighting giant, man-eating humanoids, but my thoughts are interrupted by Levi snapping back at Erwin Smith.

    “And if I refuse?”

    “The Military Police will have you. Considering all of your crimes, you and your friends, and even her, won’t be treated nicely. Choose whichever you prefer.”

    “Fine, tsk. We’ll join the Survey Corps.”

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    I’ve always wanted to be the girl with the sun on her skin, who can make flowers grow from within, who can make birds sing. I feel the wind lift me as I gaze at the big blue sky and clouds, staring at the big castle with purple blossoms lining the path I take with Furlan, Isabel and Levi. I’ve never noticed that the grass is such a rich shade of green. There are so many words I wish I could say to describe the beauty of this world and yet I walk here never knowing the perfect way to place them, not knowing how to describe the way the sun paints over my scars.

    This is the first time I wasn’t focused on being close to Levi, the brown birds flew past and I suddenly felt a need to get as close to them as I could, but I felt a hand grace mine, Levi pulling me gently to a platform where plenty of soldiers filed up, taking up a stance.

    “You, pipsqueak” a tall man instructed me to stay close to Levi, and I of course obeyed him, finding myself standing next to him and next to a clump of soldiers wearing the same uniform. How would they feel if a small girl like me is staying with them? I mean some were definitely against it, but I remember Levi telling Erwin that the only way that him Isabel and Furlan would join the combat against the titans was if I stuck close to them, he wouldn’t risk it or dare to place me back with Mrs. Hill.

    “Attention, all! From today, these three will be fighting alongside you all! Introduce yourselves”

    “The names’ Levi.”

    “Levi, the first thing you’ll need is some goddamn discipline. Next!”

    “Isabel Magnolia! Nice to meetcha!”

    “My name is Furlan Church!”

    “Flagon, these three will be assigned to your squad.”

    “My squad sir? -”

    “Are you dissatisfied?”

    Through the crowd I spotted that man Flagon, and I couldn't help but contain a chuckle, his face was priceless. But I soon spotted someone with a ponytail and glasses smiling at me, and I gave them back a ghost of a smile.

    “Well now, introduce yourself little lady”

    I curl my fist and hit my chest, “My name is Naciye Y/N”

    The Commander stared back at me, satisfied with my salute, “Well then Naciye, Welcome to the Survey Corps. I am Keith Shadis… And to the rest of you, this girl may not be a soldier, but you shall treat her with the respect and dignity of one, for she is one of us now.”

    Somewhere far away I can hear some mumble unhappily as they watch me, someone so young standing on this platform, even though I won’t take part in the expeditions, but it didn’t matter at all. Finally, I’d never felt a welcoming so strong, a sense of belonging somewhere with my family of four.

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    The moment their training ends they all walk to the main hall to have dinner. I finished my dinner before them, training sometimes takes too long and Levi always said that I can't go to rest with a full stomach or I will get an ache, so once I am inside my room, it is the richest place I’ve ever seen, velvet couch and chairs, a small bed, and the best part, a window. The sun was setting when I sat on the bed, staring at the window through which a flood of cheery sunshine was pouring and outside of which something white and feathery waved across the glimpses of an orange sky.

    For a moment I couldn't remember where I was. It was dusk and yes, it was a cherry-tree in full bloom outside of my window. With a bound I was out of the bed and across the floor, pushing up the sash- it went up stiffly and creakily- as if it hadn’t been open for a long time, which was the case; and it stuck so tight that nothing was needed to hold it up.

    I dropped to my knees and gazed out into the afternoon, my eyes glistening with delight. Oh, wasn’t it beautiful? Wasn’t it a lovely place? A huge cherry-tree grew outside, so close that its boughs tapped against my window, and it was so thick-set with blossoms that hardly a leaf was to be seen. And in the garden below were lilac-trees purple with flowers, and their dizzily sweet fragrance drifted up to the window in the afternoon wind.

    “It’s time you were dressed to bed.” Levi’s voice echoes in my ears, his sudden appearance behind me making me jump and gasp.

    He enters the room, standing beside me, looking at how the orange sky darkens, “Look at those glimpses in the sky bro!” I hear Isabel and Furlan enter the room as well. And my eyes lingered on the moment, taking everything greedily in. I had looked at so many unlovely places in my life as a poor child, but this was as lovely as anything I had ever dreamed.

    As I gazed into the night sky with them, I saw the stars shine bright for the first time, dancing upon a black canvas to produce a beautiful light, one that cannot be even found in the Underground.

    “The sky is so beautiful, there’s no ceiling, even if it's black there’s no darkness, even when you close your eyes you can still feel the stars staring back at ya’, isn’t it right little sis?”

    I nod eagerly and feel Levi’s eyes on me, “We will never go back down there” he mutters.

    “Yeah” Furlan muses, “The four of us, always together, whether it be darkness, walls or titans. We will do this together; we will pull through together.”

    A comfortable silence sits over my small family, as we watch the stars gleam in the sky, gazing far, far away the big walls that surround my new world. As I stand and point at the huge barriers, I mumble to them “Tomorrow you will go there?”

    “Yes” Levi scoffs

    “Past the walls?”

    “Yes, little sis!”

    I turn to Furlan as I feel a gentle grip on my arm, he’s smiling “Don’t worry Naciye, we will come back, us four, together. It’s just an expedition, so you have nothing to worry about. And once we return tomorrow night, we can celebrate it by having dinner under the stars, just the four of us, our family.”

    He smiled his shy smile at me as he stared into the sky. I took the memory of his smile with me when they went back to their rooms, and I kept staring back at my open window, thinking of the past and dreaming of the future.

    Little did I know it was the last night before sorrow once again touched my life; and no life is ever quite the same again when once that cold, sanctifying touch had been laid upon it.

    •─̇•─̇•─̇•─̇•

    “Levi-what is the matter? Levi, are you sick?” It was I who spoke, alarmed as I felt the man wrap me in an embrace that he deeply needed.

    Once he muttered those words, I have never seen Levi’s eyes filled with tears as he crouches down to get on my level. Everything is still and quiet. Isabel and Furlan aren’t coming back. Isabel and Furlan are dead. For a moment we just sat there, Levi holding my small frame as I saw his tears drip down onto his shirt. And I can feel him slowly press his lips to my forehead.

    “I will always come back to you. I will never leave you”

    I can’t stop remembering the day that Furlan took me, he was the first person who wasn’t annoyed with the way I spoke, or how I would imagine stuff and create funny stories. Or how Isabel took me into the small forest near the castle to feed the squirrels.

    “Oh, you can talk as much as you like. I don’t mind”

    I don’t want to be alone, but at the same time I really want to be, I want to be quite silent and quiet and try to realize it. I can’t realize it. Half the time it seems to me that Furlan and Isabel can’t be dead; and the other half it seems as if they must have been dead for a long time and I’ve had this horrible dull ache ever since.

    No tears came at first, even when I turned by my window in the darkness and prayed, looking up to the stars beyond the walls- no tears, only the same horrible dull ache of misery that kept on aching until I fell asleep, worn out with the day’s pain.

    In the night I awakened with the stillness and darkness about me, and the recollection of the day came over me like a wave of sorrow. I could see Isabel’s and Furlan’s faces smiling at me as they had smiled last night- I could hear Furlan’s voice saying, “My girl- My little sister that I’m proud of.” Then the tears came, and I wept my heart out.

    Levi heard me and crept in to comfort me, not caring if Commander Shadis may punish us for staying up late.

    “There-there- don’t cry. It can’t bring them back; it isn’t right to cry so-”

    “Oh, just let me cry, Levi,” I sobbed. “The tears don’t hurt me like that ache did. Oh, what will we do without them?”

    “We got each other. I don't know what I’d do if you weren’t here-. I know I’ve been kind of strict and harsh with you maybe- but you mustn't think I didn’t love you as well as he and she did, for all that. I want to tell you now when I can. It’s never been easy for me to say things out of my heart, but at times like this is easier. I care you as dear as if you were my own flesh and blood and you’ve been my joy and comfort ever since you came to my doorstep.”

    A smile tugs on my lips, “I care you too, big bro.”

    •─̇•─̇•─̇•─̇•(YEARS LATER)

    I can feel my whole body on fire. My fingers stretch out, intertwining them behind my back, trying to seek out some comfortable warmth to tame my anxiousness, but I only find rough blisters on the canvas of my tanned skin. If I closed my eyes once more, I would picture myself beside him, but I just tilted my head upwards and glared in vain at the foray from the rays of the sun.

    It’s so hot, I swear the scorching heat is going to cause blisters on my shoulders. I can also feel that this buff jacket that was given to me was more of a hindrance than comfort.

    My eyes slide over to the right, as I hear another cadet being berated harshly.

    Oh dear, Commandant Shadis is going to despise my guts once he sees me again. The last thing I needed was another person to please, especially him.

    How much time has passed since this welcoming started?

    Was I nervous or was the scorching heat getting into me? I’m not sure.

    “What do they call you maggot?”

    Craning my neck to see the next cadet who is about to get chewed out mercilessly.

    “Armin Arlert! From Shiganshina sir!”

    I watch the boy with a youthful face, with large ocean eyes and a small pointed nose, passionately declare with a fierce salute to the Commandant.

    His frame is relatively small, but who am I to judge, I may be the same height as him.

    Why the hell are my palms so clammy, thinking as I rub them off the waistband of my white trousers. I can feel the space getting tighter, more claustrophobic as the Commander comes closer to where I stand. I find myself standing next to a tall young man with spiky, light brown hair and small intense tan eyes, possessing a vicious look in them.

    He would be much more handsome if he quit scowling.

    “Jean Kirstein, sir. From the Trost District”

    “And why are you here Cadet?”

    “To join the Military Police sir, the best of the best”

    Tilting my head aside to watch the Commander slam his head into the poor boy’s head so harshly, making him fall down onto the ground.

    How did he have the guts to state something so bold and rude, either way I don’t blame him for wanting security, after all it's something that we’ve been chasing since we were born into this world. We all want to feel secure, and at time’s is very difficult, for trouble, titans and walls is part of what this life brings.

    Through the crowd, I spotted a freckled boy looking back at me with a ghost of a smile after his so-called “warm” welcome as a cadet. But suddenly I am reflecting as I draw in a breath, staring longingly at the shade that’s being cast from the nearby cadets.

    Should I be upfront about my intentions on joining the Cadets?

    “What do we have here? You look soft Cadet!”

    Breaking out of my daydream, totally stunned as the tall man stands looking down at me. Somewhere far away I can hear the crowd murmuring. I stare back at his golden eyes and he recognizes me perfectly, just like those years ago when you stood on the platforms, but regardless, he just mumbles

    “It had to be you underground lowlife, look at your face filled with scars...” before he continues with his shouting.

    “Naciye Y/N.” I salute, diving my fist to my chest.

    Is this what Levi, Furlan, Isabel and even my mother would have wanted? For me to throw away my safety and risk it all to find some answers?

    No. It isn’t. My eyes readjust to the column of other cadets surrounding me in the middle of a base camp and I ground myself deeper into the dry soil. My fist tightens, as a deep scowl draws on my face, this is my decision; three years to make it within the walls and get to the Military Police. Where I will dedicate myself as one less corrupt officer in their arrogant self-serving regiment, to put a stop to the suffering of those who live in the Underground…

    And to find her.

    As I sit under my cloud of determination, I don't notice a boy my age a few columns down mirroring the same energy as I got.

    But he notices me.

    •─̇•─̇•─̇•─̇•─̇•─̇•─̇•─̇•─̇•─̇•─̇•─̇•─̇•─̇•

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    @sugarcanegirl94​

    @kpostedsum​

    @omlbarnes​

    @tacobellfreshavocado​

    #attack on titan #aot #aot x reader #aot x y/n #aot fanfiction #shingeki no kyojin #eren jaeger#levi ackerman#erwin smith#jean kirstein #attack on titan season 1 #attack on titan season 2 #attack on titan season 3 #attack on titan season 4 #eren jaeger x y/n #eren x reader #eren jaeger x reader #eren jaeger x you #eren yaeger x reader #eren yaeger x y/n #eren yaeger x you #jean kirstein x reader #attack on titan imagine #attack on titan fanfiction
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  • ackermann-clan
    17.09.2021 - 28 minutes ago

    — Erwin, what you wanted to see in the outside world, what you wanted to know, I will learn everything and take it home. 💖

    Despite being a video game, it hurts a lot to listen to it! 💔
    Twitter: @ACKERG0D (ale) <-
    #shingeki no kyojin #shingeki no kyoujin manga #shingeki no kyoujin imagine #snk#snk anime#snk levi#aot #aot season 4 #ackerman clan#captain levi#levi ackerman#livai ackerman#rivaille#rivai ackerman#rivaille ackerman#erwin smith #attack on titan erwin #attack on titan
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  • liminal-letters
    17.09.2021 - 37 minutes ago

    I know lady beetles aren’t technically ladybugs (tbf Vesperia’s design isn’t modeled after a bee), but I wonder if there was a point in time where the show crew considered making Scarabella’s costume orange?

    #forgive me if the color isn't very vibrant #I used an online color editor #miraculous ladybug#hack-san#scarabella#alyabug #miraculous ladybug season 4 #miraculous ladybug s4 #ml s4#miraculous#ml#mlb#mlb s4#alya cesaire #miraculous ladybug spoilers #hack-san spoilers#ml spoilers
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  • madhare0512
    17.09.2021 - 37 minutes ago

    An Introduction

    [TRANSMISSION BEGUN]

    content warning: mentions of death

    mandatory disclaimer: I do not own this show and this is all according to the on-screen character not the YouTubers playing them

    hello everyone! welcome to what will hopefully become the first in a series i’m doing for Escape the Night, a YouTube Web Series by Joey Graceffa. this is gonna be something new, i think, but presented in a Mad Rambles styles. 

    so in essence; welcome back to another episode of Mad Rambles. 

    i’ll start at the beginning. when first intorduced me to my series is the ideas presented to me by two seperate fanfictions linked at the end. these two became a source of inspiration for my own fics. i’ve yet to truly decide what i want to do with them, but i know the basics. below is a list of characters. 

    The Host:

    Joey Graceffa || The Savant: Sav

    Season One Contestants (The 1920s):

    Eva Gutowski || The Journalist: Nali [Survivor]

    Oli White || The Big Game Hunter: Hunter [Survivor]

    Lee Pons || The Hustler: Hus

    Timothy DeLaGhetto || The Mobster: Ster

    Matt Haag || The Professor: Prof or Sor

    Sierra Furtado || The Heiress: Ress

    GloZell Green || The Jazz Singer: Jazz

    Justine Ezarik || The Gambler: Gam or Bler

    Andrea Brooks || The Fixer: Xer

    Shane Dawson || The Renegade: Ren

    Season Two Contestants (Victorian Era): 

    Andrea Russett || The Mystic: Mys

    Tyler Oakley || The Thespian: Spian

    Alex Wassabi || The Novelist: Nove

    Gabbie Hanna || The Vaudevillian: Lian

    Tana Mongeau || The Saloon Girl: Sal

    Liza Koshy || The Explorer: Exp

    DeStorm Power || The Railroad Tycoon: Ty

    Jesse Wellens || The Outlaw: Law

    Lauren Riihimaki || The Engineer: Enji

    Season Three Contestants (The 1970s):

    Nikita Dragun || The Trouble Maker: Trouble

    Matthew Patrick || The Detective: Det or Tiv

    Manny MUA || The Record Producer: Cord

    Rosanna Pansino || The Jet Setter: Jet

    Safiya Nygaard || The Investigative Reporter: Ves

    Colleen Ballinger || The Disco Dancer: Disco

    Teala Dunn || The Super Spy: SS

    Roi Fabito || The Daredevil: Devil

    JC Caylen || The Hippie: Hip

    Season Four Contestants (The 1940s): 

    Bretman Rock || The Playboy: Bo

    Coleen Ballinger || The Duchess: Chess

    Rosenna Pansino || The Socialite: Cial

    Alex Wassabi || The Aviator: Avi

    Gabbie Hanna || The Hollywood Star: Holly

    Tana Mongeau || The Pin-Up Girl: Pin

    DeStorm Power || The Enforcer: En

    Timothy DeLaGhetto || The Con Man: Con

    Justin Ezarik || The Adventurer: Ven 

    the idea i had was essentially presenting me with what if the contestants had known from the beginning that they didn’t have to be the sacrifices, but the first time, they failed. they hadn’t anticipated the betrayal, they fell to their own human instincts. they still regret it to this day.

    the second time, the contestants where more prepared, but the Enchantress didn’t allow for “cheating” so they failed again.

    the third time, their monster was encased in amber. this time, they had two puzzle-solvers that didn’t let themselves fail. they still failed, someone betrayed them and the others where lost until only three remained.

    the fourth time, they used the gem and the new-found abilities of the Survivors to go to Purgatory and retrieve their fallen friends. in the end, a single sacrifice was made. The Collector would release the Contestants of the games, but in return she wanted something of equal value.

    so they had to find something of equal value. the thing they found was the artifacts of the Mansion, the Victorian Manor, and the Circus. the things that got their friends killed.

    the point is, they get their friends back.

    let me know if you want to keep going. I can also go on about the ships I've got.

    thank you!!

    [TRANSMISSION ENDED]

    links!:

    https://archiveofourown.org/works/15807438/chapters/36792303

    https://archiveofourown.org/works/32411737

    #youtube #escape the night #escape the night season 1 #escape the night season 2 #escape the night season 3 #escape the night season 4 #im not tagging all the people that's so many and i do not have the energy #mad rambles#content warning#joey graceffa#alternate universe #ask me questions
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  • letmepetchatnoir
    17.09.2021 - 41 minutes ago

    Just wanted to share these absolutely beautiful pins that I ordered from Chizu Works! She has a full Miraculous Set and I am in love

    #miraculous ladybug#ml ladybug #marinette dupain cheng #chat nior #mlb season 4
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  • optigami
    17.09.2021 - 45 minutes ago

    super quick hask-san redraw lol

    #i completely gave up on the background i know #i just really wanted to draw alya in her ladybug costume #miraculous #miraculous season 4 #hack san#alya cesaire#chat noir
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  • steelport
    17.09.2021 - 46 minutes ago

    sometimes my fashion choices make me like. apocalypse dad. yknow. jacket.

    #txt #yknow like. season 4 rick grimes #tlou2 joel. #sometimes i look like that
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  • buggingaroundwithghouls
    17.09.2021 - 47 minutes ago

    this is seriously not acceptable, i think this is honestly worse than cartoon network sabotaging steven universe. at least those episodes still aired in order and always in the same language. 1-2 episodes a month sporadically and out of order is just.... ghhhhh

    also where the fuck is episode 5 and 9????? theyre talking about airing 19 and 21 next but not them? jesus christ. also how is episode 15 not even announced?

    #miraculous #ml season 4 spoilers #the thing speaks #miraculous ladybug #im upset :( this sucks man
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  • miraculouslylee
    17.09.2021 - 52 minutes ago
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  • buggingaroundwithghouls
    17.09.2021 - 1 hour ago

    THEYRE TRYING TO KILL US

    #miraculous #ml season 4 spoilers #im gonna die waiting #also what do you mean hacksan was before rocketear im gonna sob what
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  • meloodles
    17.09.2021 - 1 hour ago

    I’m watching miraculous ladybug on Disney + right now with my siblings

    #season 4 came finally #on English dub
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  • lydiais-dead
    17.09.2021 - 1 hour ago

    Torhild the undying hates lovers 😭 /j

    #escape the night #etn #escape the night season 4 #escape the night season 1 #escape the night season 2 #escape the night season 3 #joey graceffa
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  • olexriia
    17.09.2021 - 1 hour ago

    ITS MIDWAY TO SEPTEMBER??!!! WHERES THE TRAILER HUH????!!!

    #the last kids on earth #tlkoe#netflix tlkoe #WHERE IS IT #SEASON 4 COMES OUT IN OCTOBER RIGHT #SO WHERE#IS IT #??!!!! #june del toro #jack sullivan#sullivatoro#smh#quint baker#dirk savage #tlkoe season 4 #season 4
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  • non-bee-knees
    17.09.2021 - 1 hour ago

    Okay

    So I just watched ‘Hack-San’ and I have some pretty mixed feelings

    SPOILERS AHEAD!

    But before we get into the angst, let’s cover the actual funny shit from this ep:

    First, LOOK AT MY BABES

    AWWW

    I swear, that whole “my favourite thing is our manga” better get changed to “my favourite thing is Nathaniel” in the English version 😖

    The dub video I watched had this and I couldn’t not screenshot, the little ‘ :) ’ had me dead

    MORE TOM AND MARINETTE I LOVE THEIR FATHER/DAUGHTER DYNAMIC SO MUCH

    This two scenes, my guys had no business being this mean (Also ‘Moths face is just the image of “The fuck?!”)

    Finally, this. Man, WHAT?!! CHILL LAD

    Anyways,

    Onto the real shit.

    For starters

    I don’t like Alya in this ep. But hear me out first.

    I’m not one of those people who is hating on Alya at the moment coz all the stuff with regards to her and Mari, I’m interested where that’ll go, sure, but I over all don’t really care for it too much. Not my kinda drama.

    But!

    I think she was, for lack of a better term, a bit of a bitch in this ep.

    She immediately feels very conceded and self centred, the moment she’s given the miraculous she thinks she’s the Bees fucking Knees, and maybe that’s the point, maybe it’s leading to her actually being that twist villain after all, her wanted to use the Ladybug again, but I don’t think that’s the case.

    We see her say herself that she isn’t ladybug, and implies that she isn’t cut out to be Ladybug, so that probably won’t be the reason for her to turn on Mari.

    I don’t know why, she just felt very off for no reason. I get the Ladybug miraculous is a big deal, but it kinda felt she was looking for trouble in a way. Idk, just didn’t like her today. Also she was kinda a bitch to Chat, something he didn’t deserve.

    Speaking of Chat,

    MY POOR DARLING

    This was such a heart breaking scene, I can’t take it.

    I think Ladybug should have told him, like the night before, or even just in a quick text before she handed Tikki over, because leaving him in the dark like that wasn’t fair.

    AND THIS ⬆️ moment!

    I scared for what’s going to happen. We’ve seen throughout this season, especially in the more recent eps, that chat/adrien is starting to feel worthless, that he’s being left behind, that ladybug doesn’t need him. If we ever get a SandBoy 2 then I can guarantee that his fear will be show as him being alone, that all the people around him will say they don’t need him. After all, his father has other models he can use, Ladybug has other users, he doesn’t even know what he wants to do with his life. Maybe seeing himself as Chat Blanc with solidify that he is no more than a burden, a worry.

    I’m worried about the future episodes, like ‘Dear Family’ or ‘The Last Battle of ShadowMoth’. Hell even ‘Gabriel Agreste’, despite it coming earlier in the time line, its all building to something worse.

    Maybe Chat will be the twist villain?

    Anyways

    That’s my take on the ep, please feel free to give your own opinions on it, and thanks if you read this far x

    #miraculoustalesofladybugandcatnoir#miraculous adrien #miraculous tales of ladybug and chat noir #miraculous season 4 #marinette and alya #chat noir#adrien agreste#miraculous marinette #marinette dupain cheng #nathalie sancoeur#hawkmoth#shadow moth#gabriel agreste#marcnath#hack san #adrien deserves better
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  • birdinatrashcan
    17.09.2021 - 1 hour ago

    thinkin about heirs game again

    #its good #on the one hand i dont want the final season to come and then end #but on the other hand i want to read season 4 like now #my post#heir's game
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  • thechenfordship
    17.09.2021 - 1 hour ago

    Alright guys, I'm calling it right now. That time jump in the season premiere is going to give us established chenford. Probably going to be catch up to present day (even if their timeline is whack as is) and it'll show us where each character is at, and make it seem like Tim and Lucy dont interact much anymore. And the end scene will literally be one of them going to the other's house and straight up makin out.

    #bc alexi hawley hates us #and he's going to give us what we want but in the worst possible way imaginable #watch it be a 'no strings attached' type of thing #hes going to skip all the delicious stuff in between #and then separate them for some dumb reason #and be all like 'but I gave yall what you wanted' #idk why but this is what im feeling rn #and I know ive said it before #the rookie#chenford #season 4 predictions
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  • persefones-child
    17.09.2021 - 1 hour ago

    castiel: what? i like past you

    ….

    i will keep saying they gay cause they is

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