~09/16/2021~
Well my last 2 off days were bleh.
I forgot my vitamins, didn't drink protein shakes, and missed my goals. But the rest of my life is a lot longer than 2 days!
Calories: 2100/1800
I don’t think loving yourself is a choice.  I think that it has to be a decision made for survival; it was in my case. Loving myself was the result of answering two things: Do you want to live? ‘Cause this is who you’re going to be for the rest of your life. Or are you just going have a life of emptiness, self-hatred, and self-loathing? And i chose to live, so i had to accept myself.
“You can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks, or even months over-analyzing a situation; trying to put the pieces back together, justifying what could have, what would have happened….or you can just leave the pieces on the floor and move the fuck on.”
Tupac
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Self-portrait of my 14-15 year old self. 2021 (with 1.5 hours of work & in digital art medium) vs 2013 (with days of work & in traditional pastel medium).
In the past years I’ve been having a hard time with myself due anxiety and depression.
Things that might actually help you out are atomic and you have to be focused and consistent in doing it. At first I am having a hard time calming myself down during panic attacks I hyperventilate, I breakdown like a crazy brat like the one you see in asylums. I basically want to get better and I am superficially somehow getting better.
I started talking to people more frequently. I quit reading, watching and bingeing on it for awhile, but not completely. I still watch or read (non-fiction) sometimes, but I don’t binge anymore. Thank Universe! Hehe. I started to choose living in reality.
But it wasn’t easy, I still had breakdowns during the process. I then noticed my movement, I realized I am a fast pacer. I move so fast, talk fast, I force myself to think fast. I usually multitask. I realized my frequency doesn’t make me efficient and productive anymore, it pressures my brain so much to a achieve or do something in my own expectations. It’s self destructing. Someone reminded me of Newton’s theory of relativity. I read it again. And it make sense! That time is relative. There is no definite time. We create our time. Ever wonder why it feels like everything happens so fast when you do the same thing over and over again and time slows down in an opposite manner or when you’re paying attention at time itself. Anyway….
So I started practicing normalizing/balancing my pace. And I sometimes stop my time, not literally but I give myself a break. A complete break. So if you haven’t seen me online or reply, you don’t need my explanation. Lmao 🙌🏼 Because in reality, the world is going to function without me in it. My way may not work for everyone and their ways may not work for me. Either way, we have to allow people to support us and take all the help from ourselves, alone. After all the road to self-improvement is infinite. Just walk on it.
So, stop. Perhaps for a moment.
We need a break 🤍
if you are going through something right now but still trying your best to heal and move forward, i am so proud of you.
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20 DAYS 'POSITIVE DAILY REMINDER' CHALLENGE
Day 17 : Breathe
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hi, i just want to remind you that someone is thankful because you’re existing
❤️ Yes, like every human- you are prone to needing improvement on your weaknesses. But also like every human being you don't need to beat yourself up because that won't help you at all. Note where your mistakes are, take in the criticisms, improve where you can when you can... But don't beat yourself up. That's literally only hurting yourself. ❤️
A Beautiful Space ~ September 17th, 2021
Do you ever wonder why some people are so hard to be around? Over many years I’ve struggled with this. I’d always find reasons & excuses to avoid certain gatherings/meet ups, even if it’s family. Sometimes there’s a very good reason, and I leave it at that. Other times, I find that the reason could be better, but I didn’t really know why.
The toughest pill to swallow was learning that even I could be unfairly judgmental, and that I’m still learning to do better. I realized that I didn’t always like myself. I wasn’t raised to be reminded that I was worthy, or should think that I’m worthy. I had to learn it the long way through life, with the help of many teachers who took their time to enlighten me. Do I mean school teachers? No. I mean more like everyone I met along the journey, who taught me what I wanna be and what not to be, even the ones that already left. If you really think about it, everyone you meet is a teacher. Even animals. There’s always something to learn from everyone, for better or for worse. In the end though, you can always choose to shift it to “better”. So, coming back to ever wonder: why are some people so hard to be around? Sometimes, it all adds up to you. Sometimes, you notice a certain behavior or a trait in someone that just gets under your skin. It can be good to ask yourself, “Why don’t I like that about them?”.
Sometimes, all it takes is to take a good look at the mirror, and remember. Either you might possess something similar in yourself that you dislike, more than you’d like to admit. Or, you once acted that way in the past, and you hate the very reminder of it. Or someone who gave you a hard time in life resembles this current observation. You might even be jealous/envious of the other party without knowing, or vice versa(!). Whatever the reason could be, whether it is justified or not, it’s important to be aware of where it’s all coming from. It’s important to let yourself genuinely decide what to do with that newfound awareness and information.
Give yourself a chance, for once. Even twice. “Accept yourself, forgive yourself. Then you can love yourself. Accept others, forgive others. Then you can love others.” Breathe these calmly through your soul, and allow your being to act upon the first steps towards truth and compassion. If you allow yourself to be more free with compassion, or at least neutral acceptance, others will feel your energy and usually react similarly. The environment will suddenly feel more free and real. You might be surprised why it took you so long to finally grasp this concept, but just take the moment to be thankful it came, because it feels so right.
And no, it doesn’t mean you should let people walk all over you. Not at all. You’re only building a beautiful space for your soul, and room for others to be themselves. You’re allowing yourself to choose, and emitting the power of acceptance to those who have the right to be who they want to be. So instead of defending yourself out of outdated fear, you are actually creating a beautiful white wall of love and light, protecting you and everyone around you in a grand frame of everyday life. Happiness will eventually let out a secret grin upon you for trying, and never giving up. ♡
💖 11:11
– Happy Hermit
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Stop 🛑shrinking yourself to fit in places you have outgrown!
The world as we have created it, is a process of our thinking 💭💭💭 It cannot be changed without changing our thinking. It is only when you have complete realization of your present can you control your future 🧠
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