Me: just say hi!!! You don’t have to explain the exact events leading to to why you messaged one of your friends!!!
Me (anxiety edition): But the how will they know why I messaged them??? I will have nothing to talk about if I don’t!! The conversation will die before it begins!
Me: You’re sitting here overthinking saying hi purely because you think they won’t want to talk to you and if you have a discussion ready maybe that won’t be the case and they’ll want your company because they’ll have something to gain from it.
Me (anxiety edition): Yeah, it’s not like I’m the most exciting person to talk with especially over text and while I haven’t messaged them in months, at least, for various reasons and that’s on me, they haven’t messaged me either!
Me: You know it’s probably for similar reasons, anxiety, being busy, not having anything to talk about, etc, etc!! Do you really hold that against them?
Me (anxiety edition): No, but I do hold it against myself, its been so long and I could have just said hi but now its probably to late, and while I don’t think they’d hate me it probably means we really aren’t friends anymore. They probably figured I didn’t really want to stay their friend when I put no effort in.