Daily affirmation:
I give myself room to be uncomfortable with other people’s truth.
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We’re all here for a reason, so we don’t generally like talking about how hard it can get because we blindly believe it’ll all work out in the end if we just stick with it.
There’s no shame in struggling, even if you’re in a job/course that makes you happy.
There’s no harm in admitting that you need help from someone.
You are human, sometimes that means relying on others when you can’t do it all alone.
2• Petty Heauxs • Season 1 • Episode 111
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#QueerAfricanExecutive Producer: @Hoxy_love
Camerawoman: @Koko_pop2.0 (at Pretoria, South Africa)
https://www.instagram.com/p/CCdE5I4j-V1/?igshid=6elc8khxmky50What the fuck?
I commented on a story of a person today. She’s a MooMoo, also a Filipino in a different country. She replied silly. She is flirting. I should know, I am one smh as to which I then went with. I got excited but just a couple of exchanges, I quickly realized, ths is how I got into trouble. I got into my Trouble.
Still, wht could hurt right? I went with her antics havn tht in mind. She replies fast, kinda like me and in flood-like response which is nice since I don’t need to wait for hours.. She kept insinuating tht I have fallen for her, I brush it of cos it’s not true but I did get invested. We kept goin, evn tho she told me she had a girl. We BOTH kept goin. She replies so fast, I had to refrain myself frm doin the same thing cos I know deep inside tht imma be puttin myself in a nasty situation, nevertheless I kept entertaining her.
She’s so full of herself, once more tryin to tease me tht I have fallen for her, I had it. I got quite offended cos it was somehow callin me out so I told her to “be careful now” which made her drop it but somehow later on I also told her tht I like how bold she is.
Also she let’s me know wht she was doin or eating, sent me pics, note: not herself. Which I did not ask for. It’s nice. I kinda like it.
Now, the thing tht I came here to fuckn rant abt:
I hate to admit it that I am easy.
Just with a litte attention I quickly jump in head first, not usin my head. What a fuckin irony. I still am left with the desire to talk to her cos we weren’t finish as she had to drive home. I really need to be careful with this one cos the first time I did this, I was aware from the beginning but chose to kept goin. Kept telling myself tht I didn’t know wht I was doin which is not entirely true and what? 8-9 months later I’m still left wanting my Trouble.
Also one of the factors why it’s thrilling for me is idk her name and wht she looks like. Just like all the people I’m interacting online but ths one stood out last night.
Ohgoodgod I don’t think I’ll stop yet, cos I’m not evn starting but yeah.
I simply get attached to people who I can’t have and it’s very easy for me to get caught up cos it’s online. No commitments. I want to have this behaviour out of me cos it’s fuckin revolting
Also, I kept interacting with her earlier cos it was a nice distraction as well gven tht my Trouble isn’t into me as much as I am to her. Also my fuckn mind is thinkin, tht maybe ths is a way to get over my Trouble. Maybe. I hope so and I hope not. Cos it’s gon be the same all over agn. Ohmyfuckingod what’s wrong with me? I rly do hate it. Why do I have to be so hungry for attention? I don’t want to hate myself but I hate the fact that I know these things but I end up doing it anyways. How can I stop? Fuck me.
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It is really important for us to appreciate ourselves for every small step we have taken or going to take towards our growth.
No matter how small the step is because the beginning is always hard and if we have taken that first step that many of us are afraid to take. You deserve appreciation.
Appreciate yourself today and see how does it feel.
0• Petty Heauxs • Season 1 • Episode 110
#HoxyLove
#HoxýLove
#Hoxý
#PettyHeauxs
#DoYou
#Queer
#LGBTQIA
#ContentCreator
#BlackModel
#QueerActivist
#MusicalTheatre
#Humanitarian
#SelfWorth
#Purpose
#SuperModel
#Actor
#QueerDancer
#Stylist
#Creative
#QueerPresenter
#QueerArt
#SelfLove
#SelfAffirmation
#QueerSouthAfrican
#SouthAfricanArtist
#WorldClass
#GenderNonconforming
#GenderNeutral
#GenderFluid
#QueerAfricanExecutive Producer: @Hoxy_love
Camerawoman: @Koko_pop2.0 (at Pretoria, South Africa)
https://www.instagram.com/p/CCal75Cn1jG/?igshid=jbyg4r4oaz660Dating is so much harder once you develope some self worth and demand standards for how you’re treated.
At least it helps you weed out the weak though.
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Be a good human being, but don’t prove it to anyone.
Our people don’t need, because they already know us who we are and people who don’t like us they won’t believe so why to waste our time?🤔🤔🤔
Spend time with those who love instead of proving ourselves to people who don’t want to know. It is no use no matter how vulnerable we are.
7• Petty Bitxhes • Season 1 • Episode 109
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#HoxýLove
#Hoxý
#PettyBitxhes
#DoYou
#Queer
#LGBTQIA
#ContentCreator
#BlackModel
#QueerActivist
#MusicalTheatre
#Humanitarian
#SelfWorth
#Purpose
#SuperModel
#Actor
#QueerDancer
#Stylist
#Creative
#QueerPresenter
#QueerArt
#SelfLove
#SelfAffirmation
#QueerSouthAfrican
#SouthAfricanArtist
#WorldClass
#GenderNonconforming
#GenderNeutral
#GenderFluid
#QueerAfricanExecutive Producer: @Hoxy_love
Camerawoman: @Koko_pop2.0 (at Pretoria, South Africa)
https://www.instagram.com/p/CCY8kUqDGWq/?igshid=ss28gz6hrv891No one is defining your self-worth but you
Never let simple-minded people define your self-worth
2✨Update Time ✨
I’ve slacked off on my exercises (I’m sorry) but lost some weight due to this fasting technique I’m trying out. It said that I shouldn’t eat for 16 hours straight and have the remaining 8 hours to eat whatever I wanted. Surprisingly, my weight went down to a whopping 52.8 kg ✨
As per my creative side, I opened commissions and got my first 3 costumers ❤️ I’ll share the commission sheet later on. My right arm no longer hurts so I’m guessing the pain was caused by my sleeping position.
As of now, I feel tired from the drawing I made but overall, I feel good. This is nice. I hope things go way better as I continue forward ✨
2• Petty Heauxs • Season 1 • Episode 109
#HoxyLove
#HoxýLove
#Hoxý
#PettyHeauxs
#DoYou
#Queer
#LGBTQIA
#ContentCreator
#BlackModel
#QueerActivist
#MusicalTheatre
#Humanitarian
#SelfWorth
#Purpose
#SuperModel
#Actor
#QueerDancer
#Stylist
#Creative
#QueerPresenter
#QueerArt
#SelfLove
#SelfAffirmation
#QueerSouthAfrican
#SouthAfricanArtist
#WorldClass
#GenderNonconforming
#GenderNeutral
#GenderFluid
#QueerAfricanExecutive Producer: @Hoxy_love
Camerawoman: @Koko_pop2.0
https://www.instagram.com/p/CCYDVknjpoN/?igshid=r9nq1vyf1tw10
