Roman Belov / Роман Белов
sometimes being an adult is bills, responsibilities and uncertainty.
and sometimes it’s having elaborate fantasies about being involved in a d/s relationship with your boss and his wife while driving to work.
don’t tell me you are poor
[A man standing in a kitchen. Caption: To a sensitive being, pity is not seldom pain.]
Jeez i’m sensitive
People are so sensitive nowadays, it’s embarrassing.
A vent post of my dissassociation, ptsd, and what it looks like for me personally. It feels like I’m looking at myself from outside my body. Everything is hypersensitive to the point where the crinkling of a paper bag or light hurts. My mind goes 1000x fast with so many thoughts i cant understand them all. This time it was bad… I had a flashback of my parents fighting. I decided to draw since I needed to add more to my gallery, and this was what came of it. My boyfriend said, and I agree, “This is the most personal and emotional picture you’ve ever drawn.” So, to all you mental health survivors, keep fighting. And I hope you’re doing well. (Click pic for better quality)
I don’t usually put a lot of attention into astrology and horoscopes because I am not very trusting into this stuff, but due to misunderstandings and curiosity about myself I have given in into researching about my own personality birth chart.
I have pisces sun ♓️
Moon in Aquarius ♒️
Rising ascendant is pisces ♓️
And I have researched that the reason I tend to have psychic feelings is because of my cancer personality in the 5th house. I am a highly sensitive person and Empath. I tend to withdraw from people who tend to reject me and hurt me a lot. According to the description of my birth chart, The fifth house draws me to religion and spirituality.. Cancer is a cardinal and emotional personality, and can be traditional together with the Capricorns. The 5th house helps me be generous and giving towards people, but as a pisces sun I want to be an extrovert, but because a pisces is extremely misunderstood, I tend to be drawn to introversion and get shy to get attention. Pisces are similar to the Leos but because Leos are young souls they are prone to be extroverts and ask for everyone attention. But I mean, everyone in this world needs attention but those Leos demand it. As a Pisces sun, I am very shy to get attention but I am sensitive when I am alone for so long. Pisces can be noble so sometimes they don’t say much. Capricorns and Aquarius are old souls, but Pisces sun are the oldest. Most likely due to my birth chart personality, I will want to be next to someone who is caring, generous, patient, compassionate, and loving. I realized that the thoughts I get in my mind is because I am absorbing the energy from people. They are mostly wondering about me; talking about me; thinking about me. The cancer in the 5th house gives me those high emotions that drives me nuts. 😅
Based in my blood type, I am A- which is a cancer. B+ is Scorpio/Taurus personality and because AB is humanitarian, it also contains blood type O which I am negative factor and contains pisces/libra. But over all, I am Capricorn/ Gemini.
I do feel I am a true AB blood type but I am sort of lonely. I am not that social. I have never been. Maybe because I am just quiet and sometimes talkative. I am weirdo. I am an INFJ according to the Myers Briggs. I tried to research this because it makes realize why I feel people thinking about me. Most likely they are gossiping about me. I have a lot of emotions but also a lot of empathy and compassion.
T e n t a n g d i r i i n i
Aku tak tahan untuk terus berpura-pura dan berbohong, jika disini aku baik-baik saja
Mungkin di dunia nyata aku pandai memasang senyum, pura-pura bahagia, seolah tak terjadi apa-apa diluar sana.
Tapi disini, disini aku tak pernah berbohong akan tulisanku, perasaanku, isi hatiku.
Aku menumpahkan luapan emosi dan segalanya disini, mencurahkannya dalam bentuk untaian demi untaian kata, tulisan demi tulisan tiap harinya
Jujur, saat ini
Aku bersedih, aku menangis, insecure, nge-down, overthinking, dsb.
aku tak baik-baik saja, dan aku.. aku
If we don’t talk again, remember I loved you
Muhammad Alif Dandy
Mataram, 15 Oktober 2020
Spyk in GraffitiART #52
A photosensitive artist
@s.p.y.k #spyk #urbancontemporaryart #contemporaryart #urbanart #urban #sensitive #art #belgium (à Belgium)
I always get addicted too fast .
I’m so easy to manipulate :(
whilst I try and pretend I don’t care, I still hope for that second chance.
As much as I can hope and work and delude myself it will get better, me here living at my parents is as good as it’s ever going to get for me. It’s all downhill from here. I can never be equipped for the real world. I don’t want it and don’t like it and it doesn’t agree with me and it will destroy me as soon as I try to fully step into it when I have no choice.
Perché sento tutto e troppo?