Word count: 9k
Warnings: mentions of a car accident, mentions of medicines, mentions of hospital and being hospitalized, slight angst in the beginning, brief hints of sex but nothing explicit
Pairing: nonidol!boyfriend!Chani x amnesiac!fem!reader
Genre: slight angst, extra fluff, kind of strangers to lovers
Plot: You always had a perfect life. Good family, amazing scores in all your exams, a perfect group of friends and a perfect boyfriend with who you shared a perfect life and now a perfect little apartment. But everything was too good to be real and the perfection that always described your life was about to tumble down when you and Chani suffer a terrible car accident while going back home after a perfect date for your 3rd anniversary. Now, a month later from that accident and after waking up from a coma, product of the said accident, you'll have to learn how to live with and love again the boy sitting in your hospital room. Will Chani be able to revive all the memories you had together?
Special thanks to -> @msmadness99 for beta reading this and crying with me over the plot and Chani being all sad 🤧❤ thanxx bro 🙏❤
A/N: I'm so excited for posting this fic and I really hope you guys enjoy it as much as I did while writing it ❤
A/N 2: The parts written in pink are memories from the past and the ones written in black/white are part of the present day 😉 Enjoy!
4 weeks. That's the amount of time you have been in a coma and the amount of time Chani has sat next to the hospital bed praying to any God that could hear him for you to wake up savely. But before we can start this story, I should make you a reminder of what has happened until now. After all, you've lost your memories and have no idea of what I'm talking about, right?
It was a beautiful sunny day, one of those you have always loved. The summer breeze Chani always complained about whenever you went to the beach, was smoothly moving the colorful curtains from your bedroom. Chani always hated the excessive colorful pattern the curtain had but he had to admit he couldn't say no to your excitement about buying that specific one. "We're a happy couple with a happy life, we need to express it through our new curtains." You told him to convince him. And he completely fell for your nonsense excuses. But, what was new? He always fell for every single detail about you and your personality, even if it was the most insignificant or the most stupid detail. He just loved you with all his heart and so you did. That was exactly the reason why you two were considered the best couple.
"Good morning snoring beauty." Chani said, making you open one of your eyes, still sleepy. "I don't snore." You complained, turning around to face back your boyfriend who was already sitting on the edge of your shared bed right beside you. "You want me to play the recording I took a few minutes ago?" He said, mocking your cute little snores. You two always had that kind of relationship where you would mock each other just for fun. He would mock your snores and you would mock his nonsense sleep talk and so on.
"Get ready, Youngbin is already waiting for us." He announced, slightly slapping your butt and running away giggling like a kid. You really loved when he acted so childish, like an innocent kid that the only thing he harbored in his heart and soul was love and pure feelings. You wanted to treasure those little moments when you forgot about adult life and you two just acted like kids playing around. With so much love for each other, like there was nothing else to worry about in this world.
Just like Chani said, once you were ready and went down the stairs of your freshly new little apartment, you could see Youngbin's car parking in front of it and already waiting for you two to get out. "Let’s hurry up before he changes his mind." Chani said, grabbing a jacket for later and opening the front door. "Finally, I thought you guys changed your mind about wanting to borrow my car." Youngbin said, getting out of the car and smiling at you. "Never." Chani said, already taking the car keys in his hands. You still couldn't understand the blind trust Youngbin had in your boyfriend about letting you two borrow his car to go on dates but, after all, you never complained and were more than thankful for it. "Have fun and be careful on the road." Youngbin said before you two got in the car and waved goodbye to him.
"Good night Chani." One of the nurses said, right before checking your vital signs and adding some more medicine and serum to the dropper placed above your head. "Good night…" Chani answered, almost asleep. It was hard for him to keep his eyes open, the skin under his brown eyes were now decorated with dark circles which you would have mocked saying he resembled a cute panda, and the beautiful gleam that you always loved from his eyes has slowly disappeared as days went by. "You can go home and rest a little bit. I promise we'll take good care of her and let you know as soon as she wakes up." The nurse said, looking at him with pitiful eyes. In all her years of nursing, she could tell he was the most loyal family member one of her patients had. He would spend 24h sitting on that chair next to your hospital bed, trying his best to not fall asleep in case you woke up but completely failing from time to time and feeling so guilty for falling asleep and not being all energetic and happy, just like you loved to see him. Just like you were supposed to remember him.
"Do you like it?" Chani asked, grabbing your hand tightly. "Are you kidding me? I love it!!" You said, jumping into his arms and hugging him tightly. For your 3rd anniversary, he has booked a table in an amazing restaurant you have always loved, right beside the sea with an amazing view to the ocean which he always claimed to be your hometown. You've never been the type of girl to like getting nicknames and really cheesy stuff but you had to admit getting the nickname 'mermaid' from Chani because of your unconditional love for the oceans was a detail that made your relationship even better.
"The views are so beautiful." You admitted, admiring the perfect reflection the sun made on the sea and how the few trees that gave you some shadow moved peacefully with the same summer breeze from that morning. "I have more beautiful views." He said, sipping from his drink and staring at you with wide eyes, waiting for you to cringe at his comment like you always did. And as expected, you shrugged off his cheesy comments as you tried to hide your red cheeks.
"I have one more surprise but I'll give it to you once we arrive home." Chani said, as you two walked down the beach, admiring the beautiful sunset. You were full of curiosity and all you wanted to do was arrive home so you could see that extra surprise he had prepared for you. But destiny is mischievous and it had completely different plans for you two. A challenge to prove your true and perfect love.
"Good morning! How did you sleep?" The doctor cheerfully asked, entering the room and opening the blinders, waking Chani up from his short snooze. Do I look like I slept well? Chani thought to himself, rubbing his sleepy eyes. "Sure…" He said, not wanting to be disrespectful to the doctor responsible for your recovery. "Good! How about you (Y/N)? You okay?" He asked but nobody answered. "Good… Chani, can we talk outside for a moment?" The doctor asked, turning to face your boyfriend who was still sitting on the chair and grabbing your hand, just like he has done for the past 4 weeks. "Can't we talk here? Maybe she wakes up…" Chani said, moving his gaze from the doctor back to your sleeping figure. "She's in a coma but she can still hear us. I wouldn't like her to hear what I have to tell you." The doctor said. His tone turned from a friendly one into a serious one which made Chani's heart squeeze in fear.
Just like the doctor said, Chani stood up from the chair he hadn't left for 4 weeks, placed a soft kiss on your forehead followed by a soft 'I love you' and then headed out of the room followed by the doctor. "Look, I don't want to scare you and maybe we're wrong which I deeply hope but (Y/N)'s state is not as good as we would like it to be." The doctor started. "What do you mean by 'not as good as we would like it to be'?" Chani asked, clear fear reflected on his trembling voice. "She suffered a really difficult trauma on her temporal lobes…" The doctor added, getting ready to give the news to the boy standing in front of him. "What does that mean?" Chani said at the edge of tears. He couldn't stand when something bad happened to you. He wished a thousand times to be the one laying on that hospital bed instead of you. He wished a thousand times to be the one suffering all the damages of the accident instead of you. "She might have lost part of her memory…" The doctor finally said with pitiful eyes. Just like the nurse from last night, the doctor could feel the pain Chani was feeling because of your health condition right now. "Are you telling me she might not remember me once she wakes up…?" Chani asked, completely frozen by the sudden news. "We can't know how much of her memory she has lost until she wakes up." The doctor announced, making Chani feel a little bit more relaxed knowing that there was still hope that you would remember him. "And what will happen to the memories she won't be able to remember?" Chani asked. "The trauma is fortunately not that serious so she might recover 99% of her memory as days go by." The doctor explained. "But I can't tell you how long it will take for her to remember everything." He added, warning the boy about the possibility of you taking a few years to fully recover your memories. "She'll be okay soon, I promise." The doctor said, placing a reassuring hand on Chani's shoulder. That was all Chani hoped, that you would be okay soon.
Days kept going by as nothing changed. Chani kept sitting on the same chair, you kept resting on the same bed, the same doctors and nurses entered the room a few times in the day to check on you and on Chani. It felt like you and Chani were trapped on time, like days didn’t go by and like time stopped in that hurting moment when Chani had to wake up to see you laying on a hospital bed.
At the moment, Chani has lost the count of the times he has prayed for you to wake up and remember him. He has lost the count of times he has cried because he felt like his prayers weren’t listened to at all, making him lose the slight amount of hope that remained in his heart. He was desperate and he had no idea of what else he could do for you to wake up from that eternal dream and go back into his arms.
“Who should I pray to wake you up?” Chani asked your sleeping figure, eyes already teary and with a trembling thread of voice. “What do I have to do to change places?” He added, feeling how small tears started to run down his soft cheeks. “I’m sorry… You know I don’t like when you see me cry… But actually, I wished you could see me and hug me the way you always did… And stroke my hair and tell me everything will be okay… And then mock the smell of my hair because you never understood why I like using your conditioner…” He started to explain, tears streaming down his face at the memory of that day.
“It’s not the end of the world babe, it was just an exam.” You said, hugging Chani tightly and stroking his soft hair. Ever since you met him a year and a half ago when you started highschool, he has always let you know how much stroking his hair would relax him. Good thing you remembered that detail the moment you saw him getting out of class with red eyes and tears running down his chubby cheeks. He would have told you everything was fine and would have hid his tears because he never wanted you to see him crying but today he was completely devastated after finding out the score for that specific exam you’ve helped him study for the last 3 weeks. “You helped me for nothing.” He said with so much sadness and frustration reflected on his voice. “It wasn’t for nothing! You’ll get the best score in the next exam I promise.” You said, hugging him even more tight if that was even possible, trying to reassure him the way he deserved. “Did you use the same conditioner as me again?” You said smiling down at him, changing the topic so he would show you his bright smile once again. “You got me.” He said, a small smile appearing on his lips. “I will never understand why you like that conditioner so much.” You said laughing a little, waiting for him to join you. “It smells good.” He said, hiding his face back in the crook of your neck like it was his favorite refuge.
“I just want you to wake up and remember me… Please…” Chani said, lowering his head to rest it next to your hand. “Please…” He begged once again as the tears stopped streaming down his face little by little and as his eyes started to close as he drifted off to sleep a bit more.
Your body hurts, it is hard for you to move easily but the feeling of someone grabbing your hand so tightly and protectively somehow makes you feel safe. Your eyes finally start to open after what felt like ages, and the dim sunlight that goes through the room curtains makes you feel a bit dizzy and doesn’t let you see well in the very beginning. You feel weird, like if some part of you doesn’t exist anymore, like if you had a huge emptiness in your being.
Slowly, you started to get used to the small font of light that illuminated the weird room you found yourself in. Once your eyes were able to see a bit more clearly, you noticed a boy sitting next to the bed you rested on, with his head resting on the edge of the bed and grabbing your hand. “Who are you?” You asked with a thread of voice, waking the boy up. “Babe!” He said in surprise, standing up immediately and embracing you in his arms. Do I know him? Why is he hugging me like we have known each other since forever? And why did he call me babe? You started to ask yourself. “Do I know you?” You asked the boy. His face changed completely from a happy one to a sad one the moment you asked him if you knew him. “I’m Chani… Your boyfriend…” The boy said with sad eyes, already at the edge of tears once again. You could tell he has been crying in the last few hours just by looking at his red and puffy eyes. “I have never had a boyfriend…” You answered, trying to move away from him slightly scared of his words. You didn’t know who he was and you didn’t understand why he would say he was your boyfriend when you have never had a boyfriend. Of course you had crushes while you were in school but you never had a serious boyfriend.
“I see you finally woke up.” A man with a white medical gown said, entering the small room. “Why am I in a hospital? How much have I been here?” You said, getting more and more nervous as seconds went by and you had no idea of what was going on and you were in a room with complete strangers. “Calm down. Everything is going to be okay. Do you know who you are?” The man with the white gown asked you. “Of course I know who I am. I’m (Y/N) Choi.” You answered, not really understanding why a doctor would ask you if you knew who you were. “And how old are you?” The doctor asked. “I’m 17.” You answered, convinced about your answer being right. You saw the boy that claimed to be your boyfriend sitting back in the chair next to your bed, bringing his hands to his face in complete disbelief. “What year is it today?” The doctor kept asking. “It’s 2017, isn’t it?” You said, already doubting your answers being right. “Okay… Chani, can we talk for a moment? You’ll be okay, don’t worry. Another doctor is going to come and check on you so we can determine when you can go back home.” The doctor said, leading the boy out of the room and giving you a soft smile.
“You met her 4 years ago, right?” The doctor asked. “Yeah… we met when we started highschool.” Chani answered with his eyes glued to the floor and trying so hard to hold back his tears. He couldn’t believe you didn’t remember him. He couldn’t believe you didn’t remember all the things you have done together. He couldn’t believe you forgot all the love you both shared. “Don’t worry too much. She will recover her memories soon and you’ll be able to go back to the life you had before the accident but you’ll have to work slowly with a psychologist to help her recover her memory.” The doctor said, reassuring Chani. “I’ll do whatever it takes to bring her back.” Chani said determined. He couldn’t admit you were gone that easily and he would do whatever it took to bring you back.
A young girl left your room which Chani assumed was the psychologist that would determine when you can go back home. “You should explain to her who you are and bring her home. Right now you are the only one her old self would recognise and it would be good if you were the one explaining everything to her. Also, if you can, try recreating the moments you lived during these four years, that might help her recover her memory a bit faster.” The girl said before leaving to prepare the documents you needed to go back home.
“Ready to go home?” The doctor asked you. You just shyly nodded, not wanting to be too honest and hurt Chani’s feelings. After he explained everything, the only thing you could do was accept going to your apparently shared apartment with him and act like nothing happened when he was a complete stranger to you. “Don’t worry, I won’t force any situation.” Chani whispered to you, making you feel slightly relieved.
You had to admit even though you didn’t remember the boy walking next to you as you exited the hospital, you felt kind of sad about him. After all, you also tried to wear his shoes and think you would be also sad if the roles were the opposite. “That always characterized you.” Chani suddenly said with a small smile appearing on his lips. You looked at him with a confused look, not really knowing what he meant and not really believing he could actually read your mind. “Being so empathic. Getting in others' shoes and understanding their point of view. You have always been like that.” Chani said with a proud and nostalgic smile. He really knew you well and he has just demonstrated it.
“Can you tell me more about these four years?” You asked him, curious about the past four years of your life with him. “Sure! What do you want to know?” Chani asked, his eyes finally filling up with the gleam you used to love. “I don’t really know.” You said, slightly awkward, not really knowing what to ask him. It was weird asking a third person about your life but, after all, he was the only one who could tell you about your life. “Well, if you want I can tell you how we met.” He said, smiling down at you. “Sounds great.” You said, smiling back at him. Somehow, after walking back home with him for a little while made you feel comfortable with him.
“My friend says you look cute.” A curly brown haired boy said right after approaching you, pointing at a boy behind him who was red like a tomato probably in embarrassment about his friend’s behaviour. You could only laugh at the sudden confession and talk with the boy in front of you. “And why did he send you instead of telling me personally?” You said, loud enough for the boy behind the curly haired boy to hear your words. “He’s too shy, do you like shy boys?? Because if you do, he's perfect for you.” The curly haired boy said. “Dawon!! Stop it already!!” A blond haired boy said, removing the curly haired boy from in front of you. “Don’t listen to him, he’s just messing around. I’m Jaeyoon.” The blond haired boy said. You have to admit those 9 boys were actually really funny and the orange haired boy that was supposed to think you were cute was actually pretty handsome and cute as well. “Guys stop, Chani should be the one talking with her.” A black haired boy that seemed to be the oldest said, defending the orange haired boy who was trying so hard to hide his face from you. You could tell embarrassment was eating him alive and he regretted so much doing that comment about you in front of his friends. “Well, then let him talk with me.” You said laughing at the oldest’s statement.”I’m (Y/N).” You added with a huge smile plastered on your face and extended your hand waiting for Chani to stretch his hand with yours. “I’m Chani…” He shyly said taking your hand in his and smiling as well.
His eyes gleamed with a beautiful light the moment he finally met your gaze and his cute cheeks lifted up in a really cute way when he smiled at you. You could tell you definitely fell for him the first time he smiled at you, like a shot from cupid.
“And who are those boys?” You were confused when Chani mentioned your friends. “They are my friends and after that day they became your friends as well. You used to love hanging around with them even though they were sometimes a pain in the ass.” Chani said laughing and making you laugh as well. “We have changed a lot in these years though so you will meet completely different boys.” Chani said, slightly sad that you couldn’t remember for now those amazing days the 10 of you shared before you two started dating. “Which I think is better. I mean, Dawon is not as loud as he was back then and Rowoon has gotten less annoying.” He added, joking and making you laugh a bit more.
You really enjoyed the walk you had with him going back home and as soon as you arrived home, your mood went back down. As you entered the small apartment you felt like you were in a stranger’s house, you didn’t feel like you were home and that hurt you and Chani. You scanned the rooms, trying your best to remember even if it was an insignificant detail about the pics hanging on the walls but it was impossible. It felt like watching strangers' photos even though your face was in there. “I will go to sleep at Youngbin's house for now, I don’t want you to feel uncomfortable in your own house.” Chani said, packing a few things he needed to get ready and leave. “You can stay if you want, I would feel so bad if you had to go out of our house just because of me.” You said with pitiful eyes. It was true you would feel uncomfortable sleeping beside someone you considered a stranger but you would also feel bad if Chani had to go to another house just because of you. “It’s okay, I promised I would do whatever it took to make you feel good and comfortable until you recovered your memories. When you feel ready, I’ll come back when you feel you’re not living with a stranger.” Chani said with a sad smile appearing in his lips. It was hard for him to leave you all alone in your apartment but if that made you feel better and if that helped you to recover your memory, he would do that and anything else.
“Do you want to hang out tomorrow? We can go to some places we used to go.” Chani asked you before leaving. “Sure, that sounds great.” You said smiling at him. “Great, I’ll text you in the morning then.” Chani said, opening the front door. “Can you also text me when you arrive at Youngbin's house?” You shyly asked. “Sure.” Chani said with a huge smile plastered on his face. Even though he was now a stranger, you also knew you shared a life with him and still worried about him a little bit. Maybe it was that you felt attracted to him because some things never change or that your subconscious still remembered him.
About 30 minutes passed when you received a message from who you guessed was Chani. “I arrived safely, don’t worry. Sleep well and remember tomorrow we have a meeting 😉 If you need anything you can text me even if it’s late at night.” You read the message and a small smile appeared on your face.
“So she doesn’t remember anything?” Youngbin asked with sad eyes. You always had a really beautiful friendship with all of them but Youngbin was a bit more special. He was your confident, the person you would always go to whenever you had a problem. He was even the first one to know you were in love with Chani and the one that convinced Chani to ask you out. “Yeah… She has forgotten everything about us… But doctors say she might recover her memory at some point.” Chani explained, admiring his lockscreen. It was a pic you both took the day of the accident. You always loved taking aesthetic couple pics and since it was so sunny you wanted to take a pic of your shadows reflected on the floor. “Hey, don’t be sad. At least she is okay.” Youngbin said, trying to cheer up his friend. “Yeah but what if she doesn’t fall in love with me again?” Chani said worried. “Come on, you both loved each other with all your hearts, she will fall for you again.” Youngbin said. “How can you be so sure?” Chani asked in disbelief. “Because you are going to recreate all your dates. You are going to win back her heart like you did 3 years ago.” Youngbin said. Chani didn’t think about it but somehow Youngbin’s idea wasn't that bad.
The dim sunlight entering through the colorful curtains from your room, the soft sound you missed from some birds chirping next to your window waking you up like in those old days of summer. You had to admit you missed listening to the birds early in the morning, like when you were younger and lived with your parents.
The night was weird. You felt like a 17 years old teenager trapped inside the body of a 20 year old girl, spending the night all alone in that apartment. For some reason, your mind kept thinking about Chani. How did he spend the night, if he had slept well, where did he planned to take you. Tons of questions involving him clouded your mind as you prepared yourself for the meeting you promised you would have today with him. You didn't even understand why you worried so much about him when you didn't remember about his existence a few hours ago.
You were now ready waiting for the boy to pick you up and take you wherever he had planned. As you waited sitting on the couch, a photo placed next to the TV caught your attention. The photo captured a moment you guessed was one of those dates you and Chani had before the accident. You both looked so happy, so in love.
"Why don't you want to take a pic???" You complained as Chani complained as well. Chani was never the kind of boy to take too many pics, for him it was useless to capture moments with a camera. It was more useful to capture moments with your own mind. "Just one, please." You begged, giving him the best puppy eyes you could make. "Fine." He finally gave in, rolling his eyes and pulling you close, already ready for the photo. "It never fails." You said laughing and taking the picture. You were right, giving him puppy eyes would fail if it was anyone else but when it was you he just couldn't resist your cuteness.
You stared at the photo, trying to remember something but it was impossible. It felt like the field that had those memories had been locked and didn't work.
You moved your eyes to another photo in which you found yourself surrounded by people. The only one you could recognize was Chani and the rest of the boys were completely strangers. You noticed you were wearing a school uniform so you guessed the rest of the boys were part of your class. Little did you know how important the rest of the boys were once to you.
"If you stand in the middle it will look funnier!" Dawon said, grabbing your hand and placing you in the middle. "But why do I have to be in the middle??" You complained, looking up at the boys. "Because you're the shortest and it'll look cute." Rowoon said, patting your head. You had to admit it would definitely look cute and ridiculous if you stood in the middle of them. You all always joked a lot with your heights because being best friends with literal trees when you were a tiny flower was always funny. "Chani, get next to your girl." Rowoon demanded, leaving some space for the boy next to you. "I don't want to be in the middle either." He complained, standing next to you. "Guys stop complaining and just take the pic. It's not like our favorite couple graduates everyday." Inseong said, gathering everyone around his arms like the dad he always claimed to be even though you all said he was more like a mom. "Ready?" Taeyang asked, grabbing the selfie stick ready to shoot the photo. "Cheese!!" You all screamed with one voice.
A soft knock on your door knocked you out of your hard task of remembering something about the moment reflected on the photo. As soon as you opened the door, a smiley and radiant Chani appeared, widening a bit more his smile the moment his gaze landed on you. "Good morning! Did you sleep well?" He said cheerfully. His smile radiated happiness and it was as bright as the sun. You could tell, even though you couldn't remember, that was one of the details that made you fall in love with him 4 years ago when you met in high school and you weren't that wrong. "Yeah I slept well, how about you?" You asked, mirroring his wide smile, curiosity eating you up for knowing how he spent the night and answering all the questions that have been clouding your mind ever since you woke up. "I slept well too. Ready to go?" He answered, shyly looking away from your gaze and slowly reaching his hand out waiting for you to take it. "Sure." You answered, mirroring his shyness and taking his hand in yours. You thought you would remember something by holding his hand, like those scenes in romantic movies, but unfortunately nothing happened.
"Where are we going?" You asked curious. "Our high school." He said, keeping his eyes forward, too scared of looking at you and receiving a reject look. But instead of rejecting his offer of going back to the place you boht met, you felt just as excited as he felt to revive those memories. "You said we met there, right?" You asked, trying to figure out the reason why he would take you to the same place you met. "Exactly." He said finally looking down at you as a small smile slowly appeared in his lips. He felt relieved that you accepted his offer and he perfectly knew it was a big step to continue with his plan of reviving all your important dates in order to help you recover your memory. "I would have wanted to bring the rest of the boys and do it the same way we did the day we met but I knew you would have felt too overwhelmed." He explained, already letting you know it wouldn't be the same way you both met. "Are they the boys in the photos we have at home?" You asked, finding some coherent in what you were saying. The way you referred to the apartment you were living in as 'our home' made Chani's heart skip a beat, knowing there was still hope that you would fall for him once again the same way you did 4 years ago. "Yeah, we took that photo when we graduated. They kept being all annoying about us getting in the middle because we were their favorite couple and they thought you would look cute being in the middle of us." He said with a nostalgic gleam in his eyes. You could tell he missed those times just by the way he looked at you while telling you that little story. "They were so tall." You said laughing, remembering how tall they all looked in the pic. "And they still are, trust me." Chani said, laughing as well.
A long 30 minutes went by when you finally arrived at the entrance of what used to be your high school. "Welcome back to high school." Chani said, pointing at the huge building. You had to admit you were mesmerized by it but unfortunately no memories were unlocked. You saw through the corner of your eye Chani positioning himself next to you, looking straight forward into your mesmerized figure and holding his hand out. "I'm Chani, nice to meet you." He said with the same bright smile he wore when he picked you up from home an hour ago. You could finally understand what he was trying to do and you couldn’t help feeling extremely flattered by his actions. You couldn't help feeling grateful to him for doing such things to try and help you recover your memory. "I'm (Y/N)." You said with watery eyes and stretching his hand. "Don't tell me you're going to cry! We can't do that! If we cry you will remember our first meeting like something bad!" Chani complained, mocking you the way he used to do and, once again, it didn't fail to put a smile on your face.
You didn't know if you would recover your memories but you had to be really grateful to that boy called Youngbin for having such a great idea. Even if you couldn't recover it, you would make similar memories with the boy you were supposed to love and, fortunately, you will be able to live a normal life even though those four years were completely lost somewhere inside your brain.
Days went by and before you could notice, weeks were gone and soon they turned into your first month being the new you. Little by little, Chani grew more and more close to you, making him feel almost the same way he felt before the accident took place and, even though you still didn't remember anything, you were able to recreate those lost memories.
Tonight, you found yourself getting ready for a small surprise Chani has prepared for you. You had no idea of what it could be and you couldn't help feeling slightly nervous as you tried to tie the necklace he told you he gave you on your first official date. Maybe it was destiny, the one making you wear that necklace tonight for the surprise he prepared for you.
The night was extremely beautiful. If it weren't because of the bright lights of the busy streets of the city, you were convinced that you could see the stars perfectly, like if they formed a beautiful ocean of blinking little lights. You didn't even know why but it made you remember one specific scene from the Lion King when Simba, Timon and Pumba talked about what they thought the stars were. You couldn't help smiling at that little stupid memory of one of your favorite movies.
A knock on the door of your room knocked you out of that memory. "Honey, Chani is here." Your mom said with a small smile. Chani told you a few hours ago to go with him somewhere he had planned once his first day of college was over and you couldn’t resist his offer. Through the year you have known him, little by little you have fallen in love with him and all you wanted to do was be near him and spend time with him. It didn't matter if it was hours or just 5 minutes.
Not wanting to make him wait any longer, you grab your small bag and run down the little stairs of the house, full of excitement to see the boy that has been the main reason for your daily smiles. "Ready to go?" He asked, holding his hand out and waiting for you to take it, a slight pink tone appearing on his face as soon as your hand came in contact with his. "Don't come back too late." Your mom said from the kitchen. "I promise!" You answered before exiting the house and closing the door right behind you.
"I tried my best to convince the boys to let us alone but you know how annoying they can be." Chani said, pointing at the group of boys waiting in front of your house that you immediately recognized as your group of friends. "You look great baby!" Dawon said, a bit too loud for what you would have liked to admit but definitely drawing a huge smile on your face. They were annoying, yes. They never let you spend some alone time with the boy of your dreams, yes. But they were the best friends someone could ever ask for and you were so sure that if it wasn't because of them you would have never grown so close to the boy holding your hand. "Ready to go to an amazing place?" Chani whispered into your ear, not wanting the rest of the boys to know where he was taking you. "Yes? But where are we going?" You said, confused. "You'll find out when we arrive." He said in a playful tone, winking at you and making your heart skip a beat. This kid is going to be the death of me. You thought to yourself as a small laugh left your lips.
"I swear to God if you don't shut up I'm going to kill you." You heard Chani's voice from outside. The moment you heard those words you couldn't help laughing, knowing he came with the company of his and your friends. Even though you didn't remember them, after listening to all the stories Chani has told you through the entire month and after the very first meeting you had a few days ago, you could finally understand why you used to have so much fun back in those days.
After a few seconds of silence, you heard a soft knock on the door. More than a soft knock, a shy knock. A knock you wouldn't have listened to if it wasn't because you were sitting on the sofa. You hurriedly went to open the door, impatient to see what was the surprise he had prepared. "Hey!" You cheerfully said, greeting the boy and the rest of his friends. "Hey." Chani said, shyly looking away from your fierce gaze full of energy. "You look great baby!" Dawon said full of excitement, getting a nudge right after from Chani. "Not yet, idiot." Chani said under his breath. Everything seemed so weird and you couldn't really understand what was going on. "Ready to go?" Chani said, holding his hand out waiting for you to take it. Just like he did 3 years ago.
After walking for a little while and laughing at your friends' jokes, you felt Chani getting closer to you. "Ready to go to an amazing place?" He whispered in your ear, trying his best to wake up the memories from that night. "Yes? But where are we going?" You innocently said, looking around and trying to find any hint that could reveal what was your special destination. "Cute… there really are things that never change." Chani said letting out a soft giggle as he passed his arm around your shoulder the same way he used to do when you went to high school.
"You guys are staying here." Chani announced once you arrived at a random building. "No way we're waiting here, it's cold." Youngbin complained. "Then you should have stayed home the way I told you to do. Bye." Chani said with a fake smile and dragging you inside the building and closing the door right after you entered. "Finally alone." He tiredly sighed, making you laugh.
He could finally reveal the surprise he prepared for you. "I know how much you wanted to have a stargazing so here we are." He said, opening a metal door that led to the rooftop of the big building. Just like you imagined an hour ago while you waited for him at home, thanks to the lack of light you had on the rooftop you could perfectly see the stars dancing in the beautiful dark blue from the night sky. "It's so beautiful… Thank you." You said, mesmerized, walking towards the little tent he prepared with some blankets so you two could watch the night sky comfortably.
His eyes were gleaming in a different way tonight. Like if his dark orbs were a beautiful mirror that held the power of the stars hanging on the sky. "Aren't you getting Lion King vibes?" He suddenly said, laughing at his own joke. "Can you read my mind?" You said, laughing as well. You were always so amazed by how many things you two had in common. Like you were born to fit each other and nobody else. "Then, what would you say the stars are? Ancestors? Gas balls burning billions of miles away?" Chani asked, looking down at you and making you remember the scene of the movie once again. "You know? I think they are more like memory holders. Like if you could save beautiful memories on them and whenever you look at the sky you can see those memories again. And memories are like the stars after all… They're always there even if you can't see them." You said, moving your gaze from his beautiful eyes back to the sky above your heads. "What about you?" You asked, curious about his answer. "You." He suddenly said. "Me?" You asked confused, letting out a small laugh. "My star is you." He finally confessed. Finally, everything made sense and you could finally join the puzzle pieces. All those questions he has been asking you about you dating someone. All those questions he asked about your perfect first date. All those times he asked you if you were in love with someone. All of that finally made sense.
"Ready to go up?" Chani asked you, holding your hand to reassure you that you would be okay. "Aren't they coming?" You asked, pointing at the rest of the boys. "If you want them to come they can come but they will ruin the moment." Chani said with a nervous laugh, praying for you to tell him you wanted to go up to the rooftop alone with him. "Okay then, let's go." You said, entering the building.
When you arrived, you saw a beautiful blanket of stars decorating the night sky and you could finally understand what was going on. Chani has told you about your first official date and how he asked you out and you could tell today was the day of recreating your first day as a couple. "Remember anything?" Chani asked, knocking you out of your own little world. His eyes were full of hope that turned into sadness as soon as you told him that you couldn't remember anything but that you were still grateful that he took you there and that he was working so hard to help you recover your memory.
"Ironic, you're wearing the necklace I gave you that day… Maybe you were right back then and stars really are memory holders." He joked, looking at the sky. You tried to remove your gaze from him but it was impossible. It was like you got trapped in his eyes. He held so much love, so much passion for you in them and you couldn’t help feeling a burning feeling in your chest tonight. A burning feeling you have never felt or, at least, you didn't remember you ever felt.
Time went by and you had to admit that the little time you spent alone with Chani on that rooftop felt so refreshing even though it didn't work out the way he thought it would. "I'll walk you home, it's late. Youngbin, I'll go as soon as she gets home." Chani said, not letting you go alone. "There's no need… If you want… You can stay home." You shyly said, looking away from his gaze knowing your face would turn into a tomato if you had to meet his eyes after saying that. "Are you sure? I don't want you to feel uncomfortable." He said. His voice reflected worry and happiness at the same time and it was hard for you to decipher if he was happy or if he didn't want to stay with you. "It's okay, after all, it's your home as well." You said with a small smile, finally meeting his eyes and feeling that burning feeling once again.
The walk back home was refreshing as well and even though Chani has told you he was happy that you let him come back home, you still saw his sad eyes. Once you arrived, you told him to get himself at home while you took a warm shower before you two could eat dinner.
He missed his bed, he missed his house, he missed his room and, most importantly, he missed you. Suddenly, the light of his phone lit up, signaling an incoming call from Youngbin. "Yo what the hell is wrong with you?? Why do you look all sad?? She told you to go back home with her!!" Youngbin shouted against the phone speaker, making Chani put his phone away in order to protect his eardrums. "Can you stop? This is hard for me, okay?" Chani said, defending himself. Suddenly, completely out of the blue, he started to feel a bit overwhelmed by the fact that you don't remember anything. He started to feel like all he had been doing was for nothing and all he wanted to do was to give up and just accept that you will never recover your memory. "Youngbin, I have tried everything the doctor's said. I have done everything exactly the same way things used to be back then and nothing has worked. It has been a month and she still treats me like I'm just a friend and all I can do is stand there acting like I was doing fine. It hurts me, okay? I love her so damn much and I can't stand seeing her not loving me back. Youngbin I'm so fucking afraid of not bringing her back. If she doesn't love me in the end… I don't know what the hell I will do." Chani finally blurted out all the feelings he has been keeping for himself for the last month. He could finally show his tears to others and not only to the reflection of his own self in the mirror after taking a shower. Finally he could stop lying to his friend about his red eyes being because of some champoo getting on them instead of telling him it was because he has been crying. He could finally let all of that pain out.
"Why didn't you say anything…?" You said from the door frame. Hearing his words really hurt you and seeing him crying broke your heart. "I gotta go, Youngbin… I'll text you tomorrow, good night." Chani said, letting a small sob out as he hung the phone up. You slowly walked towards the edge of the bed where he was sitting and sat next to him. As soon as you sat, your hands went straight to his so you could hold them tightly. "Why did you keep acting like everything was right?" You asked drawing soft patrons on the back of his hand, looking at his crying figure while his eyes kept glued to your fingers that were intertwined with his, too scared of looking at you. He hated letting you see him in such a bad condition but he couldn't help it anymore. "I love you too much to let you go (Y/N)..." He whispered with a trembling voice. "If you leave… I really don't know what I will do…" He said, still looking away from you. "Look at me." You said, placing one of your hands on one of his cheeks and turning his face so he could finally look at you, while your other hand still held his. "I don't like it when you see me crying, I look all ugly." He said, slightly laughing and covering his eyes. "Don't say that, you're as handsome as always, idiot." You said, removing his hand from his face so you could admire the features you have always loved. Even now. "I love you too Chani, you don't have nothing to worry about. Just like you said, there are things that never change." You said, small tears of happiness forming in the corner of your eyes as you caressed the boy's cheek and looked into his eyes ever so fondly. "Are you sure?" He asked, now unable to remove his eyes from yours, getting trapped in them the same way you did when you were on the rooftop. "I have never been so sure. I guess there are souls that are meant to be together forever, doesn't matter what." You said, pressing your forehead with his and right after, finally closing the gap that separated your lips for the last month.
It was a soft and gentle kiss but full of the love you had for each other. You swear it was the best kiss you have ever had and Chani completely agreed with you. He couldn't tell if it was because of how much he loved you or because of the amount of time it has been since the last time he tasted your soft lips, or maybe it was a mix of both reasons, but he couldn't help melting into your lips. And soon, things got heated up, just like the day of your first official first date.
It was a beautiful sunny day, one of those you have always loved. The summer breeze Chani always complained about whenever you went to the beach, was smoothly moving the colorful curtains from your bedroom. Wait… doesn't this sound kind of familiar?
You woke up and as soon as you opened your eyes you met Chani's figure still sleeping. So peaceful, the same way he always slept… The same way he always slept. "Chani! Chani, wake up!!" You said, shaking him full of happiness. "What, what's wrong?" Chani said, getting up scared, believing something bad happened to you. "I remember!!" You said jumping from the bed and running down the stairs. "Wait, you what?" Chani said, sleepy and confused, following you around the small apartment. "I remember you and everything about us and Youngbin and Dawon and Rowoon and everyone!!" You said excited, holding the photo from your graduation day, the one he had to explain a month ago. "I even remember the accident." You said, looking at him with fearful eyes for remembering that terrible moment. "And do you remember what I said before the accident?" Chani asked, hoping you remembered his words.
"The views are so beautiful." You admitted, admiring the perfect reflection the sun made on the sea and how the few trees that gave you some shadow moved peacefully with the same summer breeze from that morning. "I have more beautiful views." He said, sipping from his drink and staring at you with wide eyes, waiting for you to cringe at his comment like you always did. And as expected, you shrugged off his cheesy comments as you tried to hide your red cheeks.
"I have one more surprise but I'll give it to you once we arrive home." Chani said, as you two walked down the beach, admiring the beautiful sunset. You were full of curiosity and all you wanted to do was arrive home so you could see that extra surprise he had prepared for you.
END OF FLASHBACK
"The surprise!!" You excitedly said, jumping into his arms full of joy. And finally, the true bright smile you missed from him finally appeared plastered on his face as he searched for the surprise he had prepared for your 3rd anniversary but that he could never give you. "Happy anniversary, my love." He said handing you a small box. You had to admit you missed hearing him calling you cute couple nicknames and he also had to admit that he missed so much calling you them. As soon as you opened the box, you found a ring matching a pair of earrings with a small star on them. Engraved on the ring, there was the date you started dating and inside the box there was a little note that said: "You will always be my star. Love you, Chani."
Tears started to stream down your face and your chest felt heavy due to the happiness you were feeling. After all, stars did hold your memories and once again, both of you proved to the world and destiny that the love you both shared was always true love and that nothing on earth could separate you. Not even losing all your memories.