The most random wonderful things come out of space and time to explore. My brother, Dain, is a producer and records music in his bedroom. One day he made a chord progression and a beat and showed it to me. I listened to it, started humming along, and a melody and story formed in my head. The song is about wanting something, but being afraid to ask for it. Being a bisexual woman, I grew up thinking I was only attracted to one gender, and casually ignoring my curiosity in the other. When I was 16 and started to realize I was attracted to women, I was confused because I always thought it had to be one or the other. “Bisexual” seemed like a made-up word, and people didn’t believe me because I had always outwardly been interested in men. Now, thankfully, there’s more bi awareness, and people are more open about expressing it. But when I first discovered my attraction to women, it felt like a whole new, excitingly terrifying world. I had no idea how to flirt with girls! Throughout history and culture, there seems to be a blueprint for how to act in heterosexual relationships, but no such thing is available for WLW (women loving women). That’s what I wanted to capture in this song, that sense of fluttery panic when you see a cute girl and your heart goes wild but you want to play it cool. That awkward “who makes the first move?” or “I really want to kiss her but I don’t know” mixed in with all the longing and touch starvation we feel in quarantine. I wanted to make a soft, sultry song for all the girls dreaming of tucking a stray hair behind their lover’s ear or moving into a cottage to focus on art and gardening. I think the beat also lends itself to soaking in the sun in a meadow, lighting a joint under some fairy lights, and stalking your crush’s Instagram feed.