James: *hugs Regulus*
Regulus: I hate this
James: I know that
Regulus: I won't do it back
James: I know that too
Regulus: don't stop
James: I won't
James: *hugs Regulus*
Regulus: I hate this
James: I know that
Regulus: I won't do it back
James: I know that too
Regulus: don't stop
James: I won't
sirius calls reader his little versailles
Sirius: this concludes our amazing family meeting
Sirius: any questions?
Severus *raising his hand*: why the fuck am I here?!
Sirius: oh yeah
Sirius: so you can see what it’s like to have a family
Sirius: BE JEALOUS!
Sirius: hey Remus, do you mind just holding this for me?
Remus: but that’s your hand…
Sirius: I know ;)
Remus: *throws his controller* Dang it I lost again!!
Little Harry: . . .
Little Harry: Do you want me to leave so you can say bad words?
Remus: yes please
Sirius: we were running low on red paint so I got us an expense-free alternative for the gryffindor banner :)
Remus: . . .
Remus: is this bloo-
Sirius: Don’t worry about it
Sirius: I love you
Remus: how many people do you tell that too?
Sirius: yes, I tell everyone that I love you.
Severus: *talking about James* What does he have that I dont!
Lily: My heart
All I am Is a man
He was just a man- not even that. He was a damn boy. And a mess of it in the eyes of his mother, never worthy, never good enough, never perfect. how could he be? his entire life was a mess, and out of it all - he was the worst.
I want the world in my hands
There was a time where he wanted it. He wanted - no - needed it all. He wanted to be selfish, to change the world for himself - but he grew out of that, it lingers, always lingers. And it’s pushed down to the deepest part of his soul, one place no one was ever allowed to explore ever again.
I hate the beach, but I stand - in California with my toes in the sand
Run away. That was his plan, wasn’t it? No - He couldn’t. There was always something - someone - holding him back, making him stay. His brother; no matter how much he hated that damn house, he would never abandon his brother. Never. No matter the pain, the suffering, he cared for only one: Regulus Arcturus Black. Pain be damned - because Regulus wasn’t going to go through the same things Sirius did. And Sirius would make sure of it.
Use the sleeves of my sweater
He needed someone, anyone, to just lend a hand - and he got it. Three people were more than what he could ever ask for - and he was grateful, so damn grateful for the people that he had.
Let’s have an adventure
He was always up for a dare, a challenge - to prove himself to someone, anyone. He wanted to do it, just so that he could show them that they were wrong. About him, his relations, past, beliefs - all of them untrue. He could build his own, and he did. He had a family, it just wasn’t them. He wanted to be free, to venture out into places where no-one could ever find him. Run away with his brother - keep the both of them safe from the perils of the cruel world. It should’ve been just them. The two of them against the world.
Head in the clouds, but my gravity’s centred
But at the same time, Sirius wanted people. Just people. Who cared, truly cared and loved him. Who held him, and took him in, and liked him for him. Not some facade he put up for everyone to see. He wanted people to recognise the layers underneath all that. In their eyes - they should see nobody except for the true him. The true Sirius.
A/N - mother of satan, the first part's done! (Well, I think first part - I don't know if you Guys like this, or if you'd want another part.) this was actually inspired? by @queerdeadwizards - If you may be seeing this, I loved your the one post of yours with dog days are over by Florence + the machines. And well, I got an Idea?
Tell me how it is, any of you - I don't mind, I'd love to know what you think.
- 𝕸𝖎𝖘𝖈𝖍𝖎𝖋 𝕸𝖆𝖓𝖆𝖌𝖊𝖉.
no but can we actually talk about sirius' smile for a second? can you just imagine how bloody gorgeous it is? like all rosey cheeked and wide mouthed and crinkled around his eyes?
Part 4: Reunions and Memories
Sirius x Fem! Potter! Reader
Summary: Sirius and y/n meet again after all this time
Warnings: swearing, mentions of alcohol and pregnancy, flashback scene in italics
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“Hi Siri” her voice was still as sweet as he remembered, the same one that pulled him back from the edge when he wanted to give up through those years locked away, a voice he thought he would never hear again.
Sirius stared at the women in front of him, she still looked as beautiful as the last day he saw her, in that moment he forgot about everything else, all he cared about was that she was alive. She took in his appearance, he was wearing his tatty prison clothes, hair greasy and wild, looking a little thin, but as she looked into his eyes she could tell he was still himself, her Siri. Her heart was torn between breaking at how much he must have gone through and swelling at the sight of him really standing in front of her.
Before he could say anything, y/n tackled him into a hug, wrapping her arms around his torso, burring her head deep into his chest, tears of joy beginning to wet his clothes. He looked down at her in shock, processing what just happened, before wrapping his arms around her tightly. He released a breath he didn’t know he had been holding, sighing in relief, the corners of his mouth turning up into a small smile as he rested his chin on her head. The two held each other for some time, afraid if they let go the other might disappear from their life again.
“You’re…you’re really here” he finally breathes out, closing his eyes, squeezing her gently, almost as if to double check she isn’t an hallucination
“I’m here” she pulls back looking up at him, placing a hand on his cheek.
Sirius opens his eyes, reaching up with his own to cup her smaller hand, trying to find the words to express how he was feeling “I thought…” he sniffs “All this time I thought you died that night” small tears began to roll down the apples of his cheeks, feeling overwhelmed with emotion
“Afraid not” she gives him a cheeky smile “Can’t get rid of me that easily” as she finishes she winks, causing Sirius to let out a breathy laugh. She hasn’t changed a bit, he thought.
His eyebrows knitted together as he watched her pull away, attending to the whistling kettle. He snapped back into reality, his mind beginning to run wild, where had she been all this time? If she was alive why didn’t he know? How long had she been caring for Harry? Why didn’t she…he was pulled out of his thoughts by y/n placing two cups of tea on the table in front of him, motioning for him to sit down.
He sits across from her, after taking a sip, he speaks “What happened? After…I blacked out I mean? I woke up, you…you were gone and all that was left of Peter was… well…” He tried his best to keep his voice steady, it took everything in him to not break down, that night had been engrained into his memory forever, there wasn’t a day the past near 12 years he didn’t think about her, didn’t think about how he could have done things differently
Y/n looked up from her cup, it was easy for her to forget that night in London happened less than two years ago for her, while he had lived thinking she was dead for almost 12 years, not only that but he had been subject to dementors and the crazy ramblings of other inmates those years as well
“Do you remember what you signalled for me to do before you were knocked out?”
Sirius sat back attempting to recall the events, his eyes widened looking back up at the girl, mouth forming a small ‘o’, suddenly it all made sense “The time turner” she nods in conformation
“You see, in my panic I turned the time turner the wrong way and when Peter used some kind of blasting spell, it must have hit the time turner just as it began working, and…well…” she bites her lip thinking of how to drop the news of travelling 10 years into the future on him “I went forward a little more than a few hours”
The girl removes the scarf from her neck, revealing the scar. Sirius’ face softens, frowning slightly as he traces the scar with his eyes, before standing and moving to the chair beside her. He reaches out slowly looking up at her to check she was okay with it, she nods in permission. He moves closer to her, lightly tracing the scar with his fingers, he looks up at her, theirs eyes meeting. When he first saw her he thought it was just his imagination, but now he was closer to her he realised she hadn’t really aged at all.
“How far forward?”
She winces slightly before answering “10 years”
Sirius’ mouth fell open looking at her, she smiled slightly at his cute expression. She moved her hand up to gently close it, causing Sirius to blush a little in embarrassment. He pulls back, letting his hands fall to his lap.
“Wow… y/n” y/n noticed he looked a little catatonic, obviously trying to process
He was in shock, 10 years, now he understood why everyone thought she was dead, although he wondered why she didn’t try to come back, as he looked at her scar he realised, maybe she couldn’t, the time-turner must have been blasted apart.
Shaking his head slightly he looks up at her, she smiles sadly at him, “So…what happened to…to you, after you travelled forward in time?” he swallows, barley getting the sentence out
The girl takes a deep breath before explaining “I thought it was over…when he cast the spell I closed my eyes waiting for the end, but…then I felt the world move around me. It was different though, it wasn’t like the other times I used the time turner. After the world had finally stopped spinning I blacked out, when I woke, I assumed I had just travelled a couple hours to far back or forward or…something. It wasn’t until I got back to our old flat, I saw the newspapers had piled up, the flat looked like it had been trashed, I started to panic. When I looked at the date on the latest paper I realised what had actually happened. I went to Dumbledore after spending a couple of months trying to process…everything, he helped me get back on my feet…adjust. Moody helped me form a new identity, even getting the paperwork together so I could legally become Harrys guardian”
While she was speaking, she moved her hands to grasp his, absentmindedly drawing circles with her thumbs. Sirius nodded along, what each of them went through after that night couldn’t be more different but at the same time, they both lost everything. They lost James and Lily, they were betrayed by someone they thought was their friend, they both lost a decade of their life, in one sense or another, and they both lost each other that night too. As she finished he smiled when she said she got guardianship of Harry. He had only seen him for a second but he looked so much like James it killed him a little “He’s James’ double”
Y/n smiled, squeezing his hand “Yeah, he’s got Lil’s eyes though. Oh, and finds trouble everywhere he goes”
Sirius chuckles “Just like his aunt then” y/n scrunches up her nose, nudging him, “You know it true”
Y/n starts giggling, nodding as she agrees, she always did find trouble, despite not officially being a marauder herself, she was quite the troublemaker. She was sure the teachers both loved and hated her at the same time, as she would get straight O’s and hand in all her work on time, but then she would also prank them or stir up some kind of mischief. Sirius starts to chuckle too, he always loved her laugh, the sound was like music to his ears after all this time.
They returned to their tea, finishing it in a comfortable silence. Afterwards y/n said he could use the shower, leading him upstairs to her bedroom. She went into one of the drawers in the corner, grabbing some fresh clothes for him, before handing them over.
Sirius stared down at them, they looked familiar “Are these…” he hesitates for a moment “…mine?”
Y/n starts to blush a little, before leaving their old apartment for good she brought all of Sirius’s clothes that had survived, she even fixed up his favourite leather jacket. She didn’t know why she did it, she supposed keeping his clothes gave her a sense of comfort, that maybe one day he might come back.
“Oh ugh” she bites her lip, hands fiddling with the handle of the drawer behind her “I suppose I kept them in case one day you…” came back to me “… needed them again”
Sirius gives her a small nod, trying to contain his smile. As she reaches the door she speaks again “The showers just through the door, there should be a clean towel in there already. I’ll order us some food, we can talk some more as we eat” she smiles at him before leaving the room
Sirius lets his smile break free, looking down at the clothes, he couldn’t believe she went out of her way to kept them. Before heading into the shower, he had a look in the set of drawers she pulled the clothes from. His heart soared as he saw it was almost exclusively filled with his stuff, as he walked into the shower he recalled how adorable she looked when she blushed earlier. He would be a liar if he said he wasn’t still very much in love with the girl, seeing her again only confirmed it.
In truth he always knew he loved her, but the timing was never right, plus James was always a little overprotective when it came to y/n, making him scared to ever make a move. While he was in Azkaban he hated himself for being so stupid, thinking about how he never got the chance to tell her, but now, maybe he still had a chance.
As y/n opened the door to grab the take out from the delivery guy, she hears the shower stop. She didn’t blame him for taking a long shower, she would do the same if she hadn’t had one in little over a decade. After thanking and paying the delivery guy she heads back into the kitchen, grabbing a couple of plates and some cutlery, dishing out the food.
Sirius stepped out of the shower, grabbing the towel to dry himself off before throwing on the clothes y/n gave him. Walking out of the bathroom he glanced around her room, her bed was messily made, last night’s pyjamas scattered across it, a couple books lay on the nightstand furthest from him, the other nightstand however, caught his eye, leading him to walk over to it.
It had three pictures sitting on it, the first was one of y/n and Harry smiling in front of the cottage, the second was one of y/n, James, Lily, Remus and himself on their last day at Hogwarts, however it had been folded on one side, he assumed to remove Peter. The final photo sat at the front, unlike the others it had been turned towards the bed, it was a photo of Sirius and Y/n by a lake. Sirius picked up the photo to admire it, as he did it started moving, he smiled remembering the day it was taken
—————— flashback ——————
“James! I can’t walk that fast” Lily shouted, waddling as she walked, thinking how much easier this walk used to be before she was 7 and a half months pregnant.
The group was headed to a lake near y/n and James’ childhood home, somewhere they hadn’t been since the summer before graduation. The war was coming into full swing now, it was only a matter of time before people started dying, all of them were targets now, after turning down Voldemort’s offer to join him. James and Sirius came up with the idea to go to the lake and bring the old gang for a day of fun to forget what was happening in the world around them, even if it was just for a day.
Dorcas set up a bunch of blankets near a picket table, while Sirius, Frank and Remus helped bring the food and drinks over, and set up the barbecue. James was helping get Lily and Alice seated and comfy since they were both quite heavily pregnant, before going to help Marlene as she was about to throw one of the pop-up umbrellas Lily insisted on bringing into the lake.
“Marls you just need to press…Ow” James yelps as Marlene finally manages to pop it up hitting James square in the face in the process
“Did it! Impressed, my love” Ignoring James groaning in pain she flirts with her fiancé, to which the girl in question rolls her eyes, giggling a little
“Hey everyone! Oh, you okay Jams?” Y/n runs up, carrying a bunch of towels, tilting her head in concern as she sees her brother groaning like a drama queen
“He’s fine, just being a baby” Marlene laughs, walking up to grab a couple towels off of y/n.
“I am not a baby! You’re a baby!” Y/n laughs as Marlene and James begin to bicker about who’s a bigger baby, before moving over to stand next to Dorca who is now watching the two along with Alice and Lily
“Can you believe that mans about to become a father” Dorca giggles
“I know right, good luck red” Y/n smiles as she sits down next to Lily giving her a little nudge
“He is an idiot…” Lily states before breaking into a smile “…but he’s my idiot”
The girls smile before turning back to each other, knowing James and Marlene are both so suborn they’ll be at it for a while
“Y/n!” Sirius shouts as he jogs over “Where’s Pete, I thought he was coming with you?”
Y/n shakes her head “He’s not coming, something about a meeting…I don’t know I was too busy trying to build a crib at the time” she shrugs before turning to Lily “I still don’t get why you wouldn’t just let me use magic”
“Forgive me but the last time you used magic to build something you set it on fire” Lily rebutted
“That was one time!” Everyone tilts their head at her, all looking at her as if to say ‘really’
“Okay maybe more than once” she mumbles pouting
“Sorry love” Sirius says sitting down next to y/n “You can kick ass in a duel but when it comes to magical DIY you suck”
“You suck” she mocks back
“That’s what she said!” Marlene and James say in union before returning to their bickering
Remus and Frank chat over the grill, the latter casually waving his hand every now and again to flip the burgers. Marlene and Dorca lay sunbathing on the blankets as they discuss their wedding plans with Lily and Alice, while James, Sirius and y/n played with a frisbee, standing in the shallow end of the lake
“Siri! Stop throwing it so high” Sirius laughs at her complaining, as James walks over to the shore to grab his beer, taking a swig
“Not my fault you’re so short…hey!” Sirius’ teasing is cut off by y/n splashing water at him
“I wouldn’t do that if I were you” he warns smirking at her, before splashing her back
“ooooo what you gonna do, scared I’ll ruin your hair” she taunts as they continue to splash water at each other
Eventually Sirius has an idea, morphing into his dog form, y/n looks around wondering where he went. Sirius shifts back behind her as he lifts her up, pulling her over his shoulder spinning her around
Everyone laughs at the duo from the shore, Lily had made her way down to James at this point, camera hanging around her neck. Looking at the two then back up to her husband she asks;
“How long do you think it’ll be before they realise?”
James looks down at his wife confused to which she gives him a pointed look as if to say ‘look at them’. The man pulls his attention back to his sister and best friend, at this point Sirius had finally put y/n down. He watches the way y/n playfully hits his arm, scrunching up her face in fake anger before they burst out laughing.
It’s in that moment he observes the way Sirius stops laughing and looks down lovingly at her, the way his face morphed into a smirk, but it wasn’t the standard smirk he used when flirting with random women, this was different, it was new, something James had never seen from his friend before. He noticed it was the same way Frank looked at Alice, or the way Marlene would look at Dorcas when she wasn’t looking, Sirius was in love.
Looking back at his wife, he smiled, Lily returned it knowing he’d finally figured it out, glad he wasn’t too upset with the realisation before taking the camera into her hands
“Sirius, Y/n smile!” Lily gets their attention holding up the camera
Sirius and y/n turn to look, both smiling brightly, y/n giggles as Sirius pulls her in by her waist, causing her to look up at him as the camera flashes
—————— end of flashback ——————
Sirius realised this was the first time he’d properly looked at this photo, watching his younger self pull her closer to him, his heart flutters seeing her looking up at him smiling. To him her smile was the most beautiful thing in the whole world.
Y/n head pops through the doorway, checking he was okay, she smiled as she saw his fingers glaze over the picture. She gently knocked on the door to get his attention.
Sirius’ looks around to see her leaning on the doorframe “Sorry” he chuckles shyly as he places the frame back down on her nightstand
“Hungry?” she asks smiling
“Positively famished love”
Love, she should have cursed herself for almost blushing like a schoolgirl, but instead she held out her hand “Come on then” he smiles gently taking it in his, allowing her lead him down for dinner
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does anyone else love the idea as drew starkey as remus lupin, i love andrew i really do but drew is literally perfect - i’ll probably switch between imagine drew and andrew now lmao
I have no idea how to delete my stupid Tumblr account so I may aswell post 😔😍
Let's all collectively agree that a marauders movie would be HORRIBLE, JKR would butcher all the characters and it would ruin all of our headcanons and fancasts!!! 🙄🙄
Thankyou for coming to my ted talk 😃
Sirius: today was a great day
Sirius: I ran into snivy!
Lily: how is that great?
Sirius: I was in my car
Remus: we left Sirius and James alone for three hours and they dumped 4 pounds of sugar into the dryer to try and make cotton candy
Lily:...did it work?
Remus: I’m sorry I’m late I broke down.
Person: is your car okay?!
Remus: I don’t have a car-
Lily: WHAT THE FUCK IS BURNING?!
James: Ice cream…
I can swear to satan that both Sirius and Regulus would be polar opposites when it comes to children.
Sirius would be like: oH my gOODNESS a cHILD I LOVE KIDS- C'MERE AND LET ME BE YOUR COOL UNCLE OR DAD OR RANDOM STRANGER OR WHATEVER! At times they may be a bit much, but he loves them deep down.
And over here we have Regulus being like: eW! gEt 🤺aWAy 🤺🤺FROM🤺 ME 🤺 YOU FILTHY LITTLE SHIT 🤺🤺 YOU. ARE. DISGUSTING. 🤺
James: your the love of my life
Regulus: you’re* idiot.
James: are you fucking serious?
Remus: not yet
Remus: i gotta gay