I sometimes forget that I’m sixteen.
I sometimes forget that I’m only sixteen.
I feel so much older, I feel like I’ve experienced too much for a sixteen year old.
But sometimes I feel like I haven’t explored enough.
Blueish white lighting makes me uneasy, I nearly cry every time an engine roars, I can’t bring myself to eat spaghetti-os.
But it isn’t enough. My fears aren’t enough. I haven’t been hurt enough.
My problems are barely problems.
My boyfriend’s mother, getting into Show Choir, passing my 5th period class.
I weep, I weep, I weep.
I’m only sixteen.
Is it enough?
yes i miss cute twice songs and i don’t care what you say!! i miss them smiling on stage
I, barely sixteen, work two jobs. I don’t need to, my parents can give me money. But when I tell others my age that I pay my own stuff it is the best bitch slap I’ve ever known.
Day fifteen: it wasn’t too good. I felt like a bad friend but I didn’t know why. But on the bright side, I’m almost satisfied with something I’m writing which literally never happens haha.
Day sixteen: this video is just… interesting.
Time flies when you’re having fun. The realization that my kid is almost as old as I was when he came into my life is mindblowing.
I don’t know what I ever did to deserve Jeremy in my life. I feel like every day he gives me the gift of life. From the good morning kisses, to the compliments on my outfits, to the random acts of kindness I honestly feel that through it all I am given a gift of unconditional love day in and day out.
It’s hard to not be emotional this time of year, but his presence uplifts me and is a reminder of why the little things are so important. Every year around his birthday we have a round of appointments - nephrology, cardiology, and now sleep clinic. Every time I walk into Children’s Hospital I feel like I want to regress to 17 year old me and crawl into a corner because I don’t know what the doctors will think. As the years have gone by, Jeremy has taken on the caretaker role. He literally goes in there unafraid and unbothered. His courage and positive attitude give me the strength to stay optimistic (even when that’s not always possible).
Birthdays mean he’s a year older every year. They mean that we’ll have to learn to navigate a whole new system. We’ll have to face the world and I’ll have to continue to worry about whether or not they’ll show him the kindness that I know for sure he’ll put out.
But…I’ll take a cue from Jeremy’s playbook and try not worry. We’ll spend the day telling stories from when he was a little boy, of all his favorite things, and how much people love him. If there’s one thing he knows is the importance of people showing love. May Sixteen be as sweet as you, son. You deserve the world!
baby tzuyu 💕
Thank you for gifting me another year in life. The past year has taught me a lot of lessons to carry as I start another chapter of my adventure. I wish to be a blessing and give more happiness to everyone. As I continue, may you shower me with love and give me guidance. I hope that you will help me hold peace in my heart and kindness through my actions.
Another year, another beginning. I’m going to start again. This time, with faith.
El me golpeo
Sentí una caricia
La caricia de un Ángel
Ame el duro tacto de su puño en mi mejilla
Seguía gritando algo que no puedo recordar
Lo único que puedo recordar es el tacto
Me tomo del cuello y me dejo sin aire
Y yo me reí
Encontraba la situación divertida
Me gustaba que mi vida estuviera literalmente, en sus manos.
Me beso, era un beso duro, podías jurar que estaba lleno de odio
Lo sentía con pasion
Con todo lo que siempre deseé sentir
Sentía el duro tacto de su mano en mi cuello
Luego me soltó
Empecé a llorar
Ni yo lo entendía
Entonces me abrazo
Me dijo que me amaba
Me dio un beso, pero esta vez fue diferente
Era un beso dulce
Como si todas las emociones pasadas no hubiesen ocurrido
Como si hace 2 minutos mi vida no hubiese estado en sus manos
Me beso suave, pero lo sentía duro, sentia en ese beso todo el odio que quería
Y llorando sonreí
I might be the only one who ever saw it like this, But Jonesy and Jen from ‘Sixteen’ and Derek and Casey from 'Life With Derek’ were basically the same 'step siblings who drive each other nuts but have a little secret thing from other’ ship. Like I know in 'Sixteen’ Jonesy dated Nikki but she was definitely a lesbian and while they had their cute moments I never shipped them. Maybe it’s my Dasey vision but I just keep thinking Jonesy And Jen would have been That Ship.
̶b̶i̶g̶ , erm, same sixteen
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