Burn a paper.
Performing this assignment I think it is important to know who I hurt the most. To be honest, that is a hard question for me. Im always the pleaser, I care for a lot of people and I never want to disappoint anyone. I don’t know if i ever really hurt someone… But I did hurt myself a lot of times.
I hurt myself with having high expectations, believing in the wrong people, letting myself get used, not doing what I would actually like and hating myself. Which is super sad, but the truth. So for this briefing I decided to write down my heaviest thoughts, and to burn them for ever. It is time to say goodbye.
Very quickly after I wrote it, I noticed that I was writing it very small, and that I came up with it super fast (while normally I find it hard to write personal things). Maybe that was because I never speak about my thoughts, and these feelings. It felt like they were rushing to leave my body. A release. But nobody was allowed to see it, so as soon as I was done I fold it up to a small paper.
I went outside an asked for a lighter. I set it on fire on street. But the way that it folded, didn’t burn. For me it was like a metaphor. You have to open yourself completely up, before you can move on and get rid of the negative past.
Sixteen the girl in the yellow raincoat
And there are people who forget what it’s like to be sixteen when they turn seventeen. I know these will all be stories some day, and our pictures will become old photographs. We all become somebody’s mom or dad. But right now, these moments are not stories. This is happening. I am here, and I am looking at her. And she is so beautiful. I can see it. This one moment when you know you’re not a sad story. You are alive. And you stand up and see the lights on the buildings and everything that makes you wonder. And you’re listening to that song, and that drive with the people who you love most in this world. And in this moment, I swear, we are infinite.
— Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower
New hair colour 😳🌨️
See I was 15, drinking like I was fucking 32
All the things you and your friends do, I did that too
Broken glass, blunt ash, dashing away with the product
Peep it, flip it for some dollars, then we buy some more bottles
Our parents thinking that we missing, haven’t spoken some weeks
My shoes wet from the weather, hiding out from the heat
Do y'all know that feeling when it is less than a week to your birthday and people (mostly your relatives) start asking: “Oh have you thought about what you want for your birthday?” And suddenly your mind is empty. Maybe you have also thought about what you wanted but that idea just vanishes. *POOF*. It’s terrible, isn’t it?
“It’s the witching hour, when all the urges worsen
And right now, I’m tryna find a better purpose than a person
The binge and purge is hurting not a soul outside this thin skin
A devil on both shoulders, still thinking that I can win
Not prone to drinking, but I’m tipsy off his pheromones
Him and his throne, I drink in, the queen must take this pharaoh home
And though I’m never quite sure that I exist
I expect our story to be written in the hieroglyphs
If not the stars, a pretty thing turns punch-drunk
Too smart for my own good but habitually dumbstruck
Head over heels and then head over heels again
Never in the moment, how does this one end?
We become so committed to being misunderstood
That we don’t notice when a person could or does
Devoured books about love, never did make heads or tails
Bunkered down, even if nature never fails”
how to be a heartbreaker ⤻ sixteen
⤻ the arrangement is simple: don’t catch feelings. neither one of you is worried, after all: you have feelings for someone else, and he’s eric sohn, the campus player and least likely person to ever get attached… right?
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Twice - Sixteen Era❤️
when you are about to finish sixteen ep 5 but you just can’t finish it because you know momo gets eliminated the next episode and your heart will not be able to hold the pain
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