Tuesday. January 5, 2021. 8:39 am.
Heavy cloud cover on the east horizon made for a dull sunrise without any color. But as the sun continued to rise, it lit the clouds up gold.
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My hobbies include bird watching now, and can I also say sky watching? There’s a feeling inside me, as if I am a prisoner of my own body. Sometimes I want to die not because of my imagined suffering, but because I want to know what happens in death. Will I be free? Untethered from the pettiness of this world, soul flying across desserts, mountains and seas? Will I know how the universe was created? Will I know the whole story that we always asked since the time we were borne? Do we matter? At all? In bird watching, I can see how happy the birds doing what they were made to do - to fly. I can see the way they dive, fall into the abyss and trust their wings to keep them on not falling. In sky watching, I can feel how vast this planet, this cosmos, and how small I am, and also my suffering.
4I saw my first meteor last night!
Saw it in the western sky, which was weird since the Lyrid meteors were supposed to be to the northeast, but maybe he was a rebel?
Either way, it was amazing and beautiful made me so happy
6Do any of you know a good free streaming service my friend can watch the Blues game on tonight? It’s her first time watching a hockey game and she doesn’t have fox sports, nbcsn, nhl, etc.
8actually per last post. “in your home i belong” for a ship tag for nate/rose is really… fitting. not to pat myself on the back but i really like leaning into the idea that nate & rose find each themselves in one another, and home is a really big motif when i think about them. above all else they are hearth and home. warm, and belonging not just to each other but to the home they’ve found. a huge sense of belonging in their love . anyways i will stop rambling
1if i were anywhere close to resembling a dancer the first dance i would learn for my own personal enjoyment is the thriller dance
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