seo ‘please get me out of here’ soojin 😳
seo ‘please get me out of here’ soojin 😳
(200814) soojin – dumdi dumdi 🌴
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soojin, with the help of wooyoung, finally talks about her inner feelings.
[a/n- warnings of struggling mental health]
“Soojin-ah? Is that you?” Wooyoung called from the front door.
Soojin sighed, pulling her hoodie tighter over her body, attempting to hide in the oversized black material. It was well past two a.m., the group had come back from a particularly difficult hip hop master class earlier that day, ever since, Soojin had been in the worst mood. The boys didn’t know what to do, nothing got through to her.
“I know that you,” Wooyoung said softly, shoving his hands in his sweater pocket and taking a seat next to her on the front steps. “Are you okay?”
Soojin was most definitely not okay, but her problems shouldn’t be anyone else’s burden.
“I’m fine.” Her voice came out smaller than she intended.
“You know,” Wooyoung shifted closer until their knees were touching. “It’s okay to talk about your problems, it doesn’t bother me.”
Tears burned at the back of her eyes, the lump in her throat sat heavy. “I…can’t.”
Wooyoung rubbed at her back, “why not? We’re all here for you, Soojin.”
They sat in several minutes of silence, the only sound was the crickets in the warm Los Angeles air.
“Why is everything so hard?” Soojin finally whispered, no longer holding back her tears.
“What? The class or being an idol?”
“Do you want to talk about it? I won’t pressure you, we can just sit here if you’d like.”
Soojin took in a shaky breath. “Do you know what it’s like to never feel good enough? I feel like I’m always running toward this finish line and it keeps moving farther and farther away. If it’s not my singing, it my dancing, if it’s not my dancing, it’s my body. Everything is going at one-hundred-and-ten percent and I just can’t catch up. I feel like I’m failing. I feel like I’m falling.”
Wooyoung looked at Soojin’s tear-soaked face, she was clutching at her chest like her heart was broken.
“I should’ve stayed away from this idol life. I’m not cut out for it.”
“Soojin, Soojin, look at me.” Soojin looked at Wooyoung from the corner of her eye. “I get it, okay? We all get it. I don’t know why you feel like you’re failing, you’re doing amazing. Better than any of us ever could. You came in here, and adapted like you have been with us for years. We’re proud of you. I’m proud of you. I can’t promise there isn’t going to be moments when you feel like you’re falling short, or moments when you feel like you have fallen, but I can promise you one thing. Every time you fall, we will always be there to pick you back up again. Always.”
Soojin let out a shaky breath she didn’t know she was holding. The boy’s words hit her in ways she couldn’t explain. She never had anyone to lean on like this, not at home, and definitely not at YG. So, used to the feeling of constant competition, Soojin was used to bottling up her emotions and hiding them in a place where they couldn’t hurt her anymore. But this was new. This was what family felt like.
“Thank you,” she said, her voice hoarse with strain.
Wooyoung gave her a small smile, wrapping an arm around her small frame, he pulled her in. Soojin grasped at his shirt, afraid that if she let go, he would leave. Wooyoung did nothing but plant a small kiss on her hair and rested his chin on her head.
They stayed like this for another hour before silently going inside, she curled up on her bed, not completely healed, but ready for another day.
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(G)I-DLE has released the Soojin version MV teaser for the Japanese version of “Oh My God,” the title track their upcoming 2nd Japanese mini-album which is scheduled to be released on August 26th.
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