Happiness and joy are feelings that I’m not used to. But with you, they come so easily. I wonder if I was living my life wrong before you.
"He is an open book but written in a language that one seldom understands"
- Pragyawrites
Staring at the stars you come to realise that from a distance all look grouped no matter how distant they are in reality
I may be a part of a group but I feel myself caught up in a whirlwind of thoughts, much far away from the rest of them
Im close and distant at the same time, attached and detached,
Don’t know if it’s a way to save myself from the inevitable pain or just a way to hold onto the others
Involved in everything but making sure not to get too attached
Tired of trying to keep it all up, just wanna lie down and let things take over and leave it at that
wanna see who stays and who leaves after the change
but not sure I am strong enough to know the truth
so gonna keep up the casualness until life takes its turn.
Day #56 - Aug 1st 2021
I feel vulnerable happy
Like the way my mom told me to guard against
Like I've handed you a telephone line to my chest
My throat tender from laughing and words too enthusiastic to be excused
I feel scared too
In that instinctive way people feel when they're lost
Or when they have something to lose
I worry I've given you so much of me that when you leave
I won't have enough left
I wonder if I'll finally make you uncomfortable
If I'll finally demand too much too fast
Gesture too abruptly
Repeat my stories once too many
Shout too loudly
Push too far or maybe too quickly
I wonder if you'll tell me
Or if we'll just drift apart
I also wonder if the concentrated affection I feel for you is reflected back in fractions
You know a lot more people than me
You like a lot more people than me
And I'll admit, that's part of why I was hesitant at first
To crack open my ribcage
And make room for you
I can only hold my breath and hope for us
I still sometimes feel like I'm not enough of a person for me
And there are still fragments of eggshells scattered about our footfalls
And whispers of words tucked away
But for now I trust you to be exactly what you appear
Delicate bright and delicate brilliant
For now, I'm vulnerable happy
Don't hurt soft hearted person , they can't sleep at night because of overthinking !
You shattered me into a billion pieces, but I wasn't broken. I am writhing in pain and pleasure. Nothing else matters. We're both riding the tide of desire, not minding the harsh waves that await us. Our hips meet in the middle. Our eyes locked at each other. Our lips are in collision. I don't care if we're on different ships now. We have kept our sails on bay. The storms of emotions are no more on our areas of responsibility. We'd face the casualties later on. For now, let us enjoy the rain. -D.M.
*words by me, photos/gifs ctto
the thoughts in my head
in my mind
my greatest enemy.
i hate feelings.
i don’t understand them. i never will
i don’t know what to do, how to stop them…
i have no reason to feel
- 23 july 2021 -
if i could curl up in a ball and hibernate i would
- 19 july 2021 -
My head is currently in a disgusting place. I’m either drowning or thirsty.
Dude i got accepted into an org so they sent an email but man they had a post where they listed the accepted applicants and my name wasn’t there. I feel soo forgotten but it’s okay :”)
What you feel matters. Do not let anyone dictate what or how you should feel. You’re also a human. Go to a place where you can freely express your true emotions. Don’t stay in a place where you have to filter all your actions and feelings to make them like you. You deserved someone where you can show your true colors without any judgment and all.
Time and feelings
Um dos maiores arrependimento de minha vida é ter ajudado ou sido bondosa com determinadas pessoas ao longo de minha vida,mas infelizmente nunca realmente sabemos quem é quem,por fora muitos são anjos mas em seu interior possui a essência de um demônio.
One of the biggest regrets of my life is having helped or been kind to certain people throughout my life,but unfortunately we never really know who is who,outwardly many are angels but inside it has the essence of a devil.
O que eu acho "incrível" em tantas pessoas que ajudei ao longo de minha vida e dediquei tempo e trabalho, é que hoje em dia eu sou invisível para elas e não tenho valor nenhum,e ouço diversos comentários caluniosos a meu respeito. O que me impressiona na essência humana é o quanto o ser humano é um "animal" ingrato e como a grande maioria da nossa espécie vêem as pessoas como meros objetos.
What I find "amazing" about so many people that I've helped throughout my life and devoted time and work is that nowadays I'm invisible to them and I'm worthless,and I hear many slanderous comments about me.What impresses me about the human essence is how human beings are an ungrateful "animal" and how the vast majority of our species sees people as mere objects.
Não estou generalizando há raras excessões em nossa espécie, entretanto,algumas pessoas realmente não merecem absolutamente nada, principalmente pelo fato de não possuir o mínimo de princípios,virtudes e caráter. É claro,algumas delas que atravessaram meu caminho nunca terão a minha misericórdia ou perdão, ao longo da vida aprendi que dependendo da gravidade dos fatos e consequências algumas pessoas realmente não merecem o mínimo de empatia ou perdão.
I'm not generalizing there are rare exceptions in our species,however,some people really don't deserve anything at all, mainly because they don't have the minimum of principles,virtues and character.Of course,some of them who crossed my path will never have my mercy or forgiveness,throughout my life I've learned that depending on the gravity of the facts and consequences some people really don't deserve the slightest empathy or forgiveness.
O que me impressiona neste tipo de criatura é a habilidade que eles possuem em simular boas atitudes,são verdadeiros atores/atrizes. claro,pelo que estudei em psiquiatria alguns possuem traços de um psicopata.
What impresses me about this type of creature is the ability they have to simulate good attitudes, they are true actors/actresses.Of course,from what I studied in psychiatry some have the traits of a psychopath.
Eu sinto tanto nojo de algumas pessoas que passaram pela minha vida devido a falta de caráter delas,que eu faria qualquer coisa para voltar no tempo e nunca tê-las conhecido,venderia minha alma a Satã se fosse possível.
I feel so disgusted by some people who have passed through my life due to their lack of character,that I would do anything to go back in time and never having met them,would sell my soul to Satan if it were possible.
Mas isso não acontece só com pessoas que conhecemos ao redor do mundo,isso também inclui até o ambiente familiar.Eu sinto repugnância em relação a alguns parentes devido às suas deficiências de caráter. A pior coisa deste tipo de pessoa é que eles pensam que seu comportamento podre é normal.
But this doesn't just happen with people we know around the world,it also includes even the family environment.I feel disgust towards some relatives because of their character deficiencies.The worst thing about this type of person is that they think their rotten behavior is normal.
A maioria dessas pessoas são extremamente cínicas e dissimuladas,além de serem egoístas e frias, geralmente o combustível delas é a desgraça alheia,são doentes.
Most of these people are extremely cynical and underhanded,besides being selfish and cold, their fuel is usually the misfortune of others,are sick.
O pior é ver esse tipo imundo fingindo santidade dentro de templos religiosos,na visão deles o fato deles frequentarem um templo os tornam santos e apagam todos seus erros e pecados,um baile de máscaras.
The worst thing is to see this filthy type pretending holiness inside religious temples,in their view the fact that they attend a temple makes them holy and erases all their mistakes and sins,a masked ball.
Eu realmente não quero deixar de ajudar quem realmente merece por causa desses demônios que circulam pelo mundo,mas entre tantos demônios é difícil encontrar uma alma que realmente possua nobreza de virtudes.
I really don't want to stop helping those who really deserve it because of these demons that roam the world,but among so many demons it's hard to find a soul that really possesses nobility of virtues.
Sleepless nights like an upcoming thunder of my thoughts, but mornings… full of flawless dreams, feeling the dripping rain on my pale cheeks.
— Angie Roze
did you know if you get ridiculously baked before your shift you’re 100% more likely to have a good day? proven fact.
