Why ppl suddenly love all my old posts 🙏 anyways thank u
Why ppl suddenly love all my old posts 🙏 anyways thank u
Studyiing with friiiiends. Oh I have missed that.
In one week Ill finally go on vacation yey. I think I wasnt since im 6 or 8 I dont know.
Bugün covid-19 aşı sıram geldiği için aşı olmaya gittim. Biraz hafif bir gün geçirmeyi düşünüyorum. Konu okuması yapacağım 💉
good evening and happy friday! i hope your day was just as amazing as you are:)♡
Are you a coffee person or tea person? I am definitely a tea person. and Taylor's are my fav
- сходили на 'то самое место' недалеко от жд вокзала. через два дня моя подруга уедет в петербург, через месяц решиться вопрос с моим поступлением - никогда бы не подумали, что все решится так быстро и скоро.
сидели, как и год назад, разве что докупили пива. а так - то же время, та же локация, тот же плейлист, те же разговоры, те же мы, только постарше. говорили о поступлении, о жизни в больших городах, о сложностях, о новой татуировке кати, о будущих моих татуировках. о либхен...
год назад я снимала поезда с тем же треком (rowland s. howard - lonesome town) на фоне, и это все так символично. мой город пустеет, я скоро тоже уеду - не могу и не хочу оставаться здесь, мои школьные годы (первые семь и последние два) обернулись настоящим адом, сблизилась с кем-то я лишь в последние полгода-год (и все эти люди НЕ местные). просто как-то тоскливо. семнадцать лет провести на окраине, а потом просто в один момент (при лучшем раскладе) уехать в город с населением более, чем в десять раз больше моего... безумие.
я проснулась в 5.40 просто потому что. вчера ни на что не было сил. а, ещё ко мне неожиданно приехала сестра (никому кроме отца не сказала о своём приезде) на выпускной uwu.
y’all i managed to pass economics, now to take my psychology final tmrw 🥳 then it’s onto pharmacy school in July!
currently watching: hunter x hunter, my roommate is a gumiho and doom at your service ☺️
✨ it’s official ❣️My grad school acceptance letter finally came! ✨
🎈I start grad school in the fall ￼🎈
💚 Been hula hooping and walking each day￼
💜 Kiddo started her math tutoring, which she was happy about after, so that’s a win
💜 also set up her math rpg gaming account￼
💜 Got Kiddo outside for fresh air and some peopling
💙 I doodled in the shade while the kids played￼
📚 submitted my commencement application
⭐️ wrote up a positive feedback letter for a professor towards their promotion
⭐️ bought air filters to make my box fans into ￼makeshift air purifiers￼ in the event we have another wild fire kind of summer￼
📚 got in touch with one of my professors for a letter of rec toward my masters scholarship
💛 wrote up the second draft to my scholarship letter
⭐️ rearranged my bedroom￼ and made it more cozy
🧡 had a couple helpline sessions￼
🌟 set up my air conditioner￼ before the heat wave hits this weekend,
which was… cumbersome, but Kiddo was a good sport about letting me borrow her eyes and with our powers combined we managed to get it done!
⭐️￼ finally hung that Josephine wall ￼tapestry￼ that’s been bunched up on the shelf for ages￼
💙 nearly finished with Pride￼ and Prejudice￼￼
💕￼ did another movie night￼￼
🐾 GSD training somewhere in all that, though not enough
As I attempt to update this, I’m reminded why I write daily. Today is Thursday. I scarcely remember Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday.￼￼. The chronology is mostly lost to me.￼
with the best of intentions, we took my dog for a walk. He was difficult the whole way￼￼. As I shuffle my miscreant pup, ￼mom’ing, rummaging through my bag for my credit card as the espresso machine roars, my phone rings. I have to ask my (hopefully) grad school if they will call me back in 5 minutes. FML 😆￼￼￼￼ all‘s well that ends well though. I received my acceptance letter later that afternoon. 🥳
Later kiddo sits beneath a shaded tree with a couple other little girls.￼ they whisper amongst themselves giggling. I find a beach to doodle nonsensically, passing the time, briefly recalling that I am still an artist,￼ considering maybe I have been over complicating this with worry Life has carried me away from art￼. It seems like￼ The only thing missing is that I need to get out of the house more, to simply sit alone in quiet contemplation taking in the environment￼ for inspiration then.. drawing happens.￼
We walked 20 minutes to sushi then had to turn right around because Kiddo forgot her mask. I was silent on the walk back not wanting my cumulative frustration with adolescence and possibly ADHD ￼things become an overreaction.￼￼ ￼ At home I decide a fair, natural consequence is that she make us tuna sandwiches for lunch. ￼
I breathe through ‘blind girl’ anxiety ￼ as I battle to install my air conditioner. The air conditioner is winning. ￼The instructions are tiny, blurry, and irksome, but I’m too stubborn to quit. Halfway through I realize it will be necessary to rearrange my entire bedroom to make space for￼ this contraption￼. ￼Kiddo humors my confused irritability￼￼. It’s one of those occasions I am yet again￼ exceptionally grateful for her literacy￼. When I point to a column she reads the next setup instructions aloud.￼ With the project at long last complete, we both plop￼ on my bed basking ￼in the coolness of our 68 degree triumph.
Later RB treats everyone to￼ a victory dinner. Mmmmmm Grande burritos￼ 🤤
￼RB has had his own adulting victories that day￼, but struggles with workplace ￼anxiety￼. I suggest we both meditate before bed. The fan hum draws us in.￼ He describes feeling the lead of his worry lifting off his chest a little more the deeper he returned to his meditation until he was fast asleep. I feel and anxiousness lifting from my body too, but for me it is the warm lull of safe￼ty I have not known nearly enough of in this life￼. We both awoke we’ll rested.￼
I’m glad RB appreciates meditation. There was a decent chunk of my life where meditation was a major priority and on my relationship wish list.. then I dated a few douche-y￼ New Age guys￼￼ and it became less of a boyfriend criteria. In fact, I was pretty determined to never date another self professed￼ ‘spiritual/philosophical￼ guy’ again.￼ ￼😅 RB doesn’t at all come off as the sort of man who’d practice meditation, so that’s been an endearing, healthy coping mechanism￼ we casually share and support each other in.
Kiddo has been using the chibi drawing tutorial book RB gave her￼￼. On his arrival, she￼ rushes into the kitchen ￼giddy to show him how it’s progressing.
RB and Kiddo watch the popcorn machine with wonder as fluffy kernels explode into the pot.￼￼￼ I dig my hands in to toss the Parmesan olive oil, butter and garlic salt. RB grins. He has a fascinated twinkle to his eye saying, “it looks like you’re hunting for your keys”, to which I reply cheekily, “what makes you think I’m not?”￼ I get Jurassic Park 3 rolling. I notice Kiddo uses scooting in for popcorn as an excuse to cuddle with RB￼￼ and me. My heart is happy. Later the puppy joins us and we are quite the cute little family, all under throw blankets on the sectional, watching dinosaurs eat people.￼
So let's not procrastinate anymore
Completion of pending notes (Phy)
I'll update about my progress in the comment section
june 24 | happy birthday to one of my very best friends! featuring my current read and relaxing vibes!
🎧 all the things she said - poppy
22 days left,
Hey! sorry that i haven't posted in days but a lot happened, was still studying, not as much as I should've ngl. Life's seeming like a roller coaster these days and I'm only hoping for the worst in upcoming time. Still haven't tasted adulting but it already seems difficult, feels like I'm not prepared and need some guidance; future me could work. Studied some physics. Missing the times when i would time lapse my hour long sessions. It is now that I'm realising this, "one can only improve their life when they own up the responsibility for spoiling everything." Idk who said it but doesn't matter. Gotta go now. Byeee
quote/line: How can i begin anything new with all of yesterday in me. ~Leonard Cohen
When all else fails, just sleep.
It may not change anything but at least you slept and ready to go battle again. It's okay to take a break, we don't need to exhaust ourselves.
Would you rather get burned out today or take a break and shine harder tomorrow?
Biology revision notes
Physics kinematics lecture+notes
Physics practice questions
First half of the day wasn't quite productive because I got stuck in some other stuff. I tried to get back at it in the second half of the day. Couldn't do as much but I'm still happy that I didn't completely waste the other half of the day because of the guilt.
Today's day is productive !
I've realised that staying away from my phone has increased my productivity and reduced procrastination .
Today I studied Rotational Motion , which is yet to be completed! My formula sheet is also in progress ! DM me for a copy :)
I studied Transport in plants and solved PYQs of the chapter with my friends :)
Right now I'm revising Cell : Unit of life .
Then I'll be doing a bit of S block and P block !
That is all on my to do list and I'm positive that I'll be able to complete it :)) just like yesterday :)
My inspiration for this post :
Today was a hectic one. I had plenty classes and then Mr. Migraine decided to visit bcz my doctor decided to stop my anxiety medication. Fun (:
I am on my third reading of Portrait of the Artist and oh my god the annotations do not end. Also, I decided to read Jhumpa Lahiri's Whereabouts.
Sidenote: I have always been an accident prone person. And now at the age of 22, I have severe PTSD and anxiety. I have several broken (and rejoined) bones but the trauma is yet to heal. So never ever ever ever listen to anyone who says "oh dont worry its all in your head"... to the people that are going to come across this post : take care of yourself - body and mind <3
Ben bir şey yaptım. Bugün tam sekiz video izledim ve coğrafyada yer şekilleri konusunu bitirdim. Bir kere okuyup testlere başlamayı düşünüyorum. Süper gidiyor tempoyu bozmadan ben kaçar 🗺️✍️🌍
Todays agenda~ ✨
Tomorrow is exam day and I feel somehow unprepared😅 So: Let’s cram as much as possible!😵💫
Wish me luck!🍀
The day before yesterday I got my first dose of BioNTech/Pfizer’s – I felt a bit dizzy yesterday, but as this is my usual condition, I am not sure if it was really vaccine related. Hahahah. Second thing is that my arm hurt like f***. It felt a bit like I got kicked by a horse.
But back to my study-stuff:
On Monday I did a russian listening proof exam and got 100%. I already had russian lesson at school and I guess this language is not totally lost yet although I didn’t visit the seminar that regularly. On yesterdays reading proof exam I hit 86% which means I did one mistake. One.
Furthermore I have to look up a lot of stuff for my seminar papers – still need topics to write about. In one seminar I am part of a project, so I need to work on that as well.
Third thing is: I have a lot to do for work. Three appointments this week and they all need editing.
Busy week, but I needed some time to relax yesterday. So 100dop paused for a day and my body got some time to create antibodies.