The damage is done, I’ll save you the time.
And, if there are feelings there, they are not mine:
‘cause I gave my heart to a goddamn fool,
I gave him everything…now there’s nothing left for you.
Sam Smith, Nothing left for you
27th March, 2020
I’ve been feeling things too deeply lately. I’d tried myself to detach from the people but everytime I did this, I became more mad.
I know, I don’t own people but I do owe myself some happiness.
What is attachment? Literally , it means affection, fondness, or sympathy for someone or something but to me, it is more than these words could ever define. You meet people, they become part of your life, you find happiness in their small talks, you find joy in their presence and suddenly that joy turns to grief because you two can’t withstand each others thoughts and even if you do, you can’t rationalise each others thoughts. So, attachment which once felt like cheery blossoms of spring turns into dead cold, frozen flowers of winter. And then you leave because it only brings despair to your life. So, ATTACHMENT SUCKS!
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Man literal TEARS through all the 3 episodes :(, I was scared too like Sapphire. I bet there is gonna be an AU where Steven stays like that, how dark it would be… i wanna read it.
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I loved the way that monster Steven was like, unaware of what what’s happening, he didn’t looked angry or very defensive, he was strong as hell, but still he didn’t do anything, he was just…. scared :(
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Idk, loved the entire show and loved the design
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I’ll never be loved
I’ll never be special
I’ll never be worth it
I’ll never be enough
when death severs the
connection between our mind
and body, mind leaves
our last state of mind
shapes the direction of what
wel will next become
Gosh, this is from right now today.
And ya know how I said now that the noise stopped, it’ll probably start again right after I stop recording the video?
Well, that actually immediately did happen!
Please, does anyone have any advice on what to do to stop the noise? People say to listen to music to distract myself, but the only music I have are the same anime opening/ending songs I downloaded like 15 years ago, and I’m kinda tired of listening to the same songs and I have absolutely no idea what to watch or listen to to distract myself (and I can still clearly hear it when I do watch something)
arrrrgh it’s sooo unbearably annoying right now!!
Gosh darn it I should’ve recorded a video now cuz it’s happening even more frequent and louder than in the video now and my chest and head is seriously hurting now..
Please give me some advice, someone?
I hope that you’re all doing alright, everyone!!
Ever get stuck in the loop of I can’t do this I need to back out but also backing out will make them worry but also your breaking apart and like how do you know which is the decision you should make
one of the best things I ever did and at the same time one of the biggest mistakes I ever made was asking myself if joining my two favorite characters would make a good couple …. now i’m stuck on a shipp that I know will never be canonical because it is extremely unlikely because there is practically no real interaction between them in canon and with extremely little content on the internet … I choose to suffer…
They said it’s okay to make mistake, but in the end they blame me for making mistake. That’s why I am always try to make everything perfect but still it’s not perfect, in fact what I try to do the best is total shit for them.
Or yeah, maybe I am just shit after all…then what’s the point of living? I don’t understand…I just wanna die.
So… Fragments.
That chapter hurts
(The end will be worst tho)
Your worst fear can become true.
The only enemy who can provoque it is you.
