therapy fails when the people trying to help you aren’t equipped to handle the complex interpretations of how your insanity perceives unconventional thought a better option to pursue in place of the drab thinking they try to force on your reality
I haven’t figured out if knowing nothing you do will ever be good enough is a good or a bad thing. On one hand there’s no pressure to do amazing anymore because whether you do or not won’t matter but on the other hand it’s hard to figure out what’s the point if that’s the case.
Scheiße man. 9 Tage. Ich hab 9 beschissene Tage durchgehalten. Und dann? Eine Kleinigkeit und alles wieder auf Null.
Warum fällt es so schwer stark zu bleiben? Warum bringen Kleinigkeiten einen so krass aus der bahn?
Even if I’m successful, It’ll never be good enough.
Even if I give them my whole heart, it’ll never be good enough.
Even if I work hard hours every day, it’ll never be good enough.
Even if I get skinny, it’ll never be good enough.
Even if in kind, caring and understanding, it’ll never be good enough.
At the end of every day, I’ll never be good enough. And I’m so fucking tired.
i dont wanna do this shit anymore. i just cant
➰Oceans so deep and words so shallow➰
Pain can’t be seen by my voice
Pain can’t be seen by my act
Pain can’t be seen by my smile
Pain can’t be seen by my silence
Sometimes, the pain isn’t poetic. Sometimes, there is no lesson to be learned. Sometimes, all we can do is break down and let it hurt till we don’t hurt no more.
How can I see the truth when you fog my glasses with your lies?
The worst part is I don’t have anyone to talk to.
I dont have anyone who cares. Noone will ever ask me how I’m doing. And now I’m losing you, I’m doing awful…
- Digital Daggers
i know it’s not my job to fix people when i can barely hold my own life together, but i’d rather be a comfort zone for someone than to deal with my own problems. it’s easier and it helps me keep my mind distracted while trying to help others fix their broken pieces
Lately I’ve been wondering about dying.
Would it be painful? Would I regret it right away?
To be honest thinking about dying isn’t bothering me.
But to think my parents and my cat I will leave behind….
I don’t want to cause trouble to anyone, nor create great suffering to them with my selfish decision.
It’s getting harder to hold on tho.
Why I am living anyway?