I think I'm going to get rid of the majority of my social media presenses. Lesson learned. There is No one out there that could possibly desire me. Hell, once again, my own spouse ain't even attracted to me. I can't hold a Job because of my disabilities can't even get proper medical care to confirm I am indeed suffering symptoms. Everyone thinks I'm a l liar. That I'm faking. I'm autistic af and EVERYONE demands neurotypicalness from me. Everyone's such an ableist that medical issues are wholly dismissed as excuses. Do you think I WANT to be crazy?? Do you think I did this all to myself??? This world refuses to create a society that doesn't traumatize those that aren't rich white and able bodied. I know I'm fucked up you can see that I'm fucked up. So why would you go out of your way to hurt people?
The most dangerous moment for my suicidal problems is when I just... Stop crying and you can see me physically relax my face and body. At this point I'm past the acceptance stage and thinking about the logistics.