I've been trying so hard to put into words what I'm feeling lately. It's just a mix of so many different feelings that there's no word to describe it. Loneliness, misunderstanding, disconnection from people around me and the world in general, feeling lost.

It seems like everyone is living their life and I'm just watching mine passing by.

I've tried to talk about this, but I can't explain it properly and people don't understand. they don't understand the impact it's having on me.

Writing doesn't even help anymore.

trc url or natalie portman url? or cling onto my boy eliott as a fond memory of a better time? guys help. pls.

just love the fact that pat of all people makes the comment like “yeah this isn’t the army...sir” well okay pat, this isn’t the scouts either SIR but aren’t you still making clubs and activities to keep everyone occupied? don’t you try and urge the others to have the mature approach, to talk about things in a friendly way, to handle tricky situations with calmness and clarity - the same things you’d try to instil in young kids under your care?

pat, you’re no more of a scout leader now than the captain is a captain but BOTH OF YOU died in uniform and are afraid and reluctant to relinquish your roles and THAT’S why you butt heads so much. you’re both trying to lead in your own ways and you have different ways of doing it that leads to arguments. like jfc when mary says “ooh he sounds like the captain” she’s not wrong!! we’re directly pointed to how similar they really are.

the good thing is that being so similar works in their favour too, being team players and often wanting the same outcome (peace and respect) even if their approaches and tactics don’t align a lot.

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i do wonder if some people think visibility is the height of achievement for a social movement

gah im so BAD at color pallets 

manlet wen kexing

‘You left us, Susan. I had to do what was best for Narnia.’

‘This hellscape you’ve made isn’t Narnia anymore, and you are no longer its king. Get off my throne, Telmarine.’

does anyone know the fic where ben n callum meet during the pandemic (like callums out for a run and ben for a walk) and they eventually form a relationship through ft and they watch movies together etc

hey uh kinda on a time limit here how should I come out as trans to someone that I used to know as a kid and am in contact with again for the first time since my transition?

REVillage spoilers

The sketches in Ethan's diary pages.... Ethan draws omg........ 🥺🥺🥺

Do you know what i miss? CONCERTS! That feeling of pure joy and glee seeing your fave artists on stage and singing to your hearts desire every song and having pure uninterrupted FUN

Been doing a lot of digging into my wounds and breaking open old scars to really try and heal things that are holding me back. Like today it ended up being about my body image issues. Some days I think I am hot shit, but most days I struggle with hating my body. I don't think I ever really sat down to examine why that is. Honestly it could be a number of reasons stemming back to my childhood. I constantly got made fun of for my weight and the way I looked. It's definitely when I started to pay attention more to my looks. Sad you have to do that as a child and end up starving yourself as you get older because you were conditioned to think you were and are fat. I guess that's a huge reason I can't take compliments well or even view myself as attractive or good enough. It's been a long running theme in my life. I just want to end that vicious cycle of hating myself for so many reasons. This just being one of them sadly.

So I was thinking and I thought a lot. After a lot of introspection, I've come to realise that being the best or going after a perfect CV, perfect GPA or a perfect career legit makes no sense at all because you don't become attractive or unattractive in people's eyes on the basis of that. People find you attractive because of the kind of person you are, the interests you hold, the life you've lived, the way you see and assume things and the way you work overall. So chasing perfection is utter bullshit which was feeded into my fucking brain by my idiotic parents but it's about time to realise that I have a bigger purpose than comparing myself to people who have it better than me because life literally has so much to offer and I will experience so many things and emotions and meet so many new people who will refine my experiences and love me for who I am. I will fall in love with the guy I met online and who was generous enough to hear me out while I was being exceptionally toxic and self entitled. I love him so much. He is the guy I will be marrying. The day he looks me in the eyes through those hair and those beautiful eyes is the day I'll know love exists. Till then I'll come here and tell the world how I will be moving towards a better version of myself. Overall, it needs to be realised that it will be okay. I will be okay. He will love me as long as I keep trying. Thank you for existing cutesy. I love you loads.

okay i was watching jwcc again, yeah, and in the "i just wanted 24 hours..." scene, when kenji says ben's name, EVERYONE'S EXPRESSION CHANGES, like, darius looks up at him, brook and yaz look at each other and sammy looks away and it's DEFINITELY more of a "shit, this must be hard for kenji" look, than a "we miss ben" look.

all im saying is. T H E Y K N O W.

Add a little sunshine to someone’s life today <3

dont worry abt why i was looking up him