So I’ve had a really bad restriction week and expected to feel cold af, but I’ve had a few hot flashes. Instead of being worried my mind was like “see? We haven’t restricted enough to be cold!” 😂😂😂🤦♀️🤦♀️🤦♀️
Day 6: I tend to restrict all day and if I stay up long enough I’ll give in and binge a bit or on weekends when I go to my dads after a forced meal I’ll binge on snacks and I hate it because I can’t stop and feeling full is absolutely disgusting.
not where i want to be yet but it's great to see progress ❤️
sw: 68kg
cw: 62kg
gw: 55kg
ugw: 50kg
my “rules”
0-600 cals anything over is considered a binge :(
2-4L water
no eating before 1pm
must log in everything!
measure all foods
fasts have to be 16+ hours
nothing too carby/fatty
burn 200+
nothing past 8pm
having an ed at this point isn't even the worst part about me sometimes i even forget it's there i just adopted all the signs of it as habits 😭😭
Day 8
Haha bold of you to assume I work out
I most I do is Zumba like once a month and I walk a few times a week, especially at work.
I love how round her legs are but they’re still soft and dainty, and her proportions are perfect. I wish i looked like her.
the past hurts
the present hurts
but the future is gonna hurt tremendously if you don't change right now
18.04.2020 Eating Diary
Kebab with Halloumi 600 ig??
330ml Fanta Exotic 200 I couldn’t really not drink it bc my friend would’ve noticed if I suddenly am scared of liquid cals again
50gr(??) chocolate 300 +-100 idrk kinda regret eating that bc it was unnecessary
So around 1000-1200 which is okay compared to the last days lol
I don’t want to recover because I’ll miss out ..
I’ll miss out on having a big thigh gap
I’ll miss out on walking quietly in the snow
I’ll miss out on wrapping my hands around my wrists and thighs
I’ll miss out on my clothes never fitting because they’re too lose
I’ll miss out on being complimented
I’ll miss out on being called tiny and fragile
I’ll miss out on being the smallest in the photo
I’ll miss out on anything looking good on me
I’ll miss out on finally wanting to be me
I’ll miss out on everything...
I’ll miss out on so much...
I don’t know if I want to recover
Because when I do.. all of this will be gone
☆consistently losing a pound every day is quite literally my favorite feeling in the world☆
☆hey y’all, i’m gonna do a face/body reveal pretty soon if you guys still want it? it’ll probably happen later today! so if you see my profile pic change it’s because i changed it to me. super happy with my weigh in this morning, dropped a pound from yesterday. today is day three of my three day fast, probably going to break it with an apple or a rice cake tomorrow.☆
