Los ojos no mienten nunca ✨
Stay with me for one night
Even if you know that I’m gonna bite
I’ll let you get one ride
Only if let me come up inside
Celebrate the beauty of man: Charlie Knepper
Map of the Soul ON:E - Inner Child
Those baby blues 💙
Was feeling kinda bad today because I only got to see brief glimpses of T while passing his classroom. I also might be easing towards a fever lol, I always get sick for exams. He wasn’t even there to his duty for some reason :( but T was wearing a purple-red-ish sweater today that I haven’t really seen, and it looks great on him.
I was alone when I left our lockers at the end of school, and T walked towards me down the corridor! I almost couldn’t believe it was him. I bowed to him and he greeted me by name (god, probably the first time since half-term) and his smile was so- he asked me if my exams are going well and left me with “big ones tomorrow!” Yeah, two of our three English exams are happening tomorrow. After like a second, I turned again and called his name, asking him a question about the paper. It was kind of a stupid question, but I just needed to talk to him so bad and I want him to know how much I cared. When he was answering me, I got to see his stunning eyes and hair and face and everything up close again. We stood on the corridor, just me and him, and I could drink in his presence. I love how he always seems a bit closer when we’re not in such a busy space, like at the front of the classroom during his afterschool activity or when I’m away from my friends.
This was such a nice way to end the day, I haven’t had a conversation like this with him for ages, and I can’t stop remembering it over and over again.
He said good luck to me. I cannot fail English, god damn it.
Sooo our mock exams have begun, I sat the entire six ours. Horray. I did get kind of too busy to think of T, nervous to the point that I didn’t remember we would have normally had English in the morning, but he still popped into my mind every now and then throughout the day, and I heard his voice outside the exam hall a few times. Passing by his classroom in between exams was great, it made me just alive enough to continue. He wore a white shirt! I absolutely adore people in white shirts, especially him.
When we were waiting for our afternoon exam, I looked around at the corridor and suddenly saw T. It baffled me how I could have not seen him coming. I was hoping he would invigilate us, but he left again before we began, probably just helping sort everything out. Just as well, I would definitely be distracted if he was here. He passed us while leaving, and I got to see his stunning face up close for a second. I’m under the impression that he glanced at me for a brief second.
Despite all the exams, I went to his afterschool activity today. He was there. We were the oldest ones and arranged a lot of the stuff, so we were at the front of the classroom with T. There was an instance he was explaining something in front of the TV and I was behind/next to him, we stood so close to each other I didn’t dare breathe. Fucking hell, I love him. And his eyes. He asked the four of us a question and looked straight at me, those beautiful eyes… I noticed with the close proximity that there was a line in his eyebrow, like a scar, and now I can’t be sure whether it was always there or not. He helped us, he laughed with us, he asked us for advice, he smiled, so genuine and sweet that I died more inside. I heard him call my name again, and a voice sounded inside my head, you cannot fail English.
My highlight of the week is now over.