#tired Tumblr posts

  • kellystar321
    21.10.2021 - 7 minutes ago

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    #periodical life updates #life has been. god. im so tired and irritable lately. everything makes me upset so ive been withdrawing more. #retail work has been kicking anxiety and depression into high gear. i never do anything right and people yell at me without explaining. #i feel worse physically; mentally and emotionally with each passing day. i havent been eating as much or sleeping normally. #ive been. so upset for more reasons than just this. it feels like im struggling just to live day to day. just surviving. #i ordered dried mango tonight (my survival food for when i need /something/ to live for/look forward to) #my world's been such a dark place recently. and i just have to keep going. it feels like drowning in deep inky waters. barely treading. #im so tired. im so sad. im annoyed and angry and upset everday. time will pass and november will come and the wind will carry me away. #its shtty pop music and the constant beep of a scanner and putting clothes on back on hangers for them to inevitably fall away again #icarus met both apollo and posideon and maybe i will too. #i want a laptop. i want freedom and free will. i want to be happy again and i want to be loved (genuinely for myself and not what i provide) #(not for who i am in relation to people; not for selfish gain. i want to be loved just for myself. why cant i deserve that #theres more to say. too many unhappy occurances. theres always more to say and i wont say it. i'll keep it all. #i wish i remembered how to cry. i know i'll be annoyed tomorrow. i hope you wont see me. i need to go.
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  • uglyterrestrial
    21.10.2021 - 8 minutes ago

    I’m on max recommended dose of vyvanse and it does not help me at all at this point because I do not eat. the only thing it does is let me starve harder. today I realized if I’m planning to throw everything away I could maybe also consider getting ed treatment instead. but that’s like a thousand times scarier. I am not thin anyway. I don’t think a stranger would know and there’s shame in that. I hate that food is a puzzle that won’t fucking click for me. I don’t know where to start. I hate that my body doesn’t reflect the impact this has had on my life. I hate that I don’t know if recovering would make me feel better or be a more capable person. if I get professional help I would have to get off the medication that saved my life to begin with.

    all of it has been a long long long time coming. I hate that I denied it until it’s severe and unbearable, just like I did before. I hate that I‘m surprised how much I’ve fucked myself over with this, just like before. I hate that this has culminated in me being an incredible burden on others.

    #I am very tired and I know I’ve already made up my mind. I guess I just want to talk #Ed tw
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  • deathlot
    21.10.2021 - 8 minutes ago

    The scariest aspect of life is how spend, exhausted and running on diminishing fumes you feel but it drags on and on mercilessly...

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  • kyunsies
    21.10.2021 - 10 minutes ago

    good morning <3 another day of clinical …

    #☀️ #so tired …… i kinda slept well tho !!!!! and im not on the unit today so we’ll see how that goes 😭 #i hope everyone has a wonderful day <3 i’ll be back soon !!!
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  • chichikoi
    21.10.2021 - 10 minutes ago
    #🐟mail#🐟🍵anon #pls wait im tired and cant formulate a nice long response and brainrot with you #ill be okay soon though im on antibiotics so its #WAIT FOR ME ANON
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  • violevin
    21.10.2021 - 13 minutes ago

    GUESS WHO’S FINALLY FREE FROM FINALS 🥳🎉

    #FINALLY......... I'M SO TIRED #you know what this means 😏 #*falls asleep* #but also i have more time to write now! #[ GRABS YOU ] PLOTS RIGHT NOW #𝒊.   ooc   )   the paintbrush feels light today.
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  • vsingers
    21.10.2021 - 14 minutes ago

    3rd shift is slowly draining all of my lifeforce but this place pays rly well + i can get homework done & not really have to interact with a lot of guests so i dont Really wanna leave....but ik if i switched to a day shift i'd wanna quit on the spot

    #day shift at a hotel is somehow worse than all of tge cashiering jobs ive ever had #im tired of being nocturnal tho its so draining & actually pretty hard to work around with school shit #but ghhhghh im not gonna find another place like this really!! fuck! #t
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  • black-lodge-gatekeeper
    21.10.2021 - 18 minutes ago

    damnit!

    #it's just a cold #but I'm gonna kick everyone who showed in the office for the past 2 weeks visibly ill in their shins #I'm tired af and can't work properly #personal
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  • annieclark553
    21.10.2021 - 22 minutes ago

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  • redoqs
    21.10.2021 - 23 minutes ago

    I love. Coming into work. Everyday. And seeing my work station. Look like complete shit. That I have to clean. If I want to start my job.

    #but if I did that I’d get a lecture on cleanliness oh okay #I literally can not wait until a better opportunity comes my way hopefully because I’m tired of this place
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  • hubun
    21.10.2021 - 36 minutes ago

    Y’all I can’t English I am so sorry 😭😭😭

    #I am tired but not tired enough to sleep #arwa.txt
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  • hotgirlsrk
    21.10.2021 - 39 minutes ago

    living in my parents house is like. damn the vibes are rancid in here

    #i'm TIRED and HUNGRY i want to EAT #ananya talks shit
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  • ryugujislut
    21.10.2021 - 39 minutes ago
    #I’ll rest soon 🥺 #i hope you get tired soon and get a good nights rest lovie ☹️💖 #but I’m proud of you for even trying cuz that’s all that matters 🫂 #you’re doing amazing and ily 💖💚 #don’t stay up too late please 🥺☹️
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  • shiwhore
    21.10.2021 - 42 minutes ago
    #♡ — zai #and I cannot #I’m not tired #I just ate a bunch of sugar so 🙂
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  • nameless-shrimp
    21.10.2021 - 44 minutes ago
    #interesting question anon #i'm really tired so this is all i got #forgive me :') #asks: anonymous
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  • jazon-todd
    21.10.2021 - 46 minutes ago

    I'm not sure if season 3 was good or if it was just exhausting to watch. it only works if there's one serial killer, not two

    #like joe and love CONSTANTLY going off the rails for each other was TIRING TO WATCH #you netflix
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  • johntheschizoid
    21.10.2021 - 46 minutes ago

    This rainy and grey weather makes me tired day after day. The sun doesn't come out and you also don't get enough light.

    I try to open the windows again and again to get some fresh air and I also don't use the radiator but nothing helps. And for sure I'm not much into sweets, so that wouldn't help me too...

    Also coffee didn't work. So I'm sitting here at work, in my cold office, tired and waiting for my free time.

    I also try to learn but it's not that easy when I'm tired...

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  • lastwordsofashootingstarrr
    21.10.2021 - 58 minutes ago

    a prayer disguised as a grieving poem

    i. we ask each other 'are you okay?' two dozen times in the span of two hours, on your sister's seventeenth birthday,         and we mean it to mean 'i love you, but i wish we weren't such damned liars.'             i'm supposed to be this gifted poet,                                                     someone who can make the wildfire burning through their bones                                                 anything more than pain,             but i'm getting worse at differentiating a pen from a floodgate             and all my poems seem more like arson than they should be.  i sat in an almost empty church with you,                 and remembered being seven years old again,                 hands clasped and head tilted upwards,                 praying for salvation; i can't say i don't believe in god anymore,         even though i knew in that church i didn't see the holiness on the cross possible of absolving my sins. i've put too much faith into the hope that something will save me              for it just to be another false detonation. ii. i wish i could've given you a warning label before i conned you into loving me. i wish you could've signed a waiver or written out your consent before i made you a home in this blast radius.  maybe then, i wouldn't feel guilt crawl through me;         maybe then, you wouldn't have sat two seats away in a loud bus four months ago,              two seats away from a panic attack i stifled under my jacket. even two seats away, you were too close. i wrap myself around you, even when everything in me is screaming for space,         for the soft, cold, endless void in which no one can hear you when anxiety hits you; i wrap myself around you, trying to convince myself that by pressing my lips to your shoulder blade          i could convince you of your perfection. i don't think i can,                                                                          and that knowledge tastes like the manna of fallen angels. iii. the sun is slowly dying. that's what i realize during the priest's homily.     i do not listen to the words about apostle-hood or discipleship;     i do not hear him when he speaks of almighty love;     i drown out the syllables that all seem to spell out s a v i n g   g r a c e, and i think about how the sun is going to die. we are living on an earth of dying suns, an earth where two people can fall in love in different ways,         an earth where whatever ink-stained, manna-rotting, angel-fallen, guilt-soaked misery can sit in the small space         between two best friends and turn the girls they used to be into husks of the starlight once held in their hands. iv. for the past three months, i've made a home of empty churches,                                 of false detonations,                                 of houses in my blast radius painted with sin-blue,                                 of quiet panic attacks in loud buses,                                 of a million miles in two seats,                                 of forcing myself to defy the space i crave to hope it pleases you,                                 of the manna of fallen angels                                 of a priest's empty homily,                                 of dying suns,                                 of nothing,                                                     and i've made a home out of love in a heavy coat:                                                             i've made a home out of grief. i am sick and exhausted of trying to make a home of the repulsive need to be seven years old again,             enamored with the world,             living in that full feeling in which you press your hand against your heart             and feel something beat back at you,                                                                             and convinced i was worthy of salvation.

    #poetry on tumblr #poets on tumblr #poem#poetry#spilledink#spilled poetry#spilled heart #im very tired and i think i want to go by she/they pronouns
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  • luvrinnie
    21.10.2021 - 1 hour ago
    #IM SO TIRED IM SORRY IF THIS IS TERRIBLE #I DIDNT REALIZE IT WAS 3 AM #i have to be up at 7:30 😍 n e ways #i hope u like it mwahhhh #sar’s ask games!
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  • guessimdoingthisagain
    21.10.2021 - 1 hour ago

    I’m so tired of my own voice, it’s always in my head

    I am so incredibly annoying.

    Like god do you ever shut up????? I just want it to shut up for five fucking seconds. I don’t want to think about my worthless life or any of this stupid shit in my head. I don’t want to think anymore.

    #sad #so sad right now #depressed#tw depression#so tired#worthless #i hate it here #i hate my life #kill me#end it #god i hate my brain #shut up #fuck my life
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