Sweet silly boy, you’re such a tease
Sweet silly boy, you’re such a tease
im like one year and five months on t and im still thicc as hell
This may not be an “every demi” thing
But something I appreciate about myself as a demisexual is that I match energies of my partner.
Wanna have sex? I’m as excited about it as you are, let’s go~
Wanna do some kinky stuff? For you, hun, I’ll try almost anything once.
Don’t wanna be touched intimately right now? That’s fine! Let’s share space while we each do our own thing~
Wanna skip sex and just cuddle? Hell yeah, I fucking love soft affection!
Maybe I really am just a canine in a human body; I don’t care what we do, I’ll be happy as long as I’m spending time with you.
So, i came out to my therapist today, and it went EXTREMELY well. He’s even going to diagnose me with gender dysphoria like, officially, when I’ve come out to my parents. He supports me a lot! And im really happy about that! And he eventually wants to give me resources for transition, when I’m able.
I just got my paycheck, so I’m gonna invest in my first real set of men’s underwear. I’ve worn a former partner’s before but, nothing of my own. Its a small step, but it’s something I can do.
I’m also gonna start voice training, and start exercising, so that by the time I take T I won’t be shocked by the sudden physical activity meant to help with the restlessness that’s said to come with the first few months of HRT. Voice training can also help me a lot with when I start T and ease that voice drop a lot better. And I’ll try to get some more regular tshirts rather than blouses, just so I can wear an article of clothing that makes me feel more comfortable in my binder. Wearing a binder in sweaters and blouses is overheating hell lol
Today is April 7th, 2020. I am, as of today, considering myself starting transition, at least at a small level. I might even just, start a blog to document the process.
I have a few people behind me now who support me, including a licenced therapist, two of my best friends, and my lovely girlfriend. Whatever happens after I come out… That’s the start of everything. This is the start of my life, truly.
While being trans isn’t a choice I made, I can make the choice to accept myself as I am, and start taking steps to make myself more at home in the body I was born with. Let’s do this!!!
half-thai thickie all she wanna do is Bangkok
Some people’s reaction to me telling them I’m getting bottom surgery. Many of them, especially in progressive spaces, seem to think that I only need it because of societal pressures and not because of gender dysphoria that I was born with. Because how dare a trans person not love and adore their “unique trans genitals”. I’m not getting bottom surgery because of cis’ people pressure, I’d need it even if I was the only person on the planet. I need it to be comfortable and complete. I wish that there wasn’t so much stigma around it.
I felt confident. 😉
So I got my period today and was immediately angry and upset. I wanted to hurt myself and others, which is really out of character for me. But my mum is a social worker and I asked her for help and I’m not mad anymore. Here are the simple steps to surviving a period lads!
1- Gratitude. No matter how shitty something is, showing gratitude for even the tiniest thing can help. Be grateful that you’re flow isn’t too heavy, or that your cramps aren’t as bad. And if they are, at the very least be grateful that your body is doing a natural part of life. It isn’t pleasant but it’s normal and most importantly, it’s healthy.
2- Acceptance. This part is hard at first but I found it freeing more than anything. Remember that a period is a cycle, like breathing and eating. Don’t tell yourself that it’s only for girls, don’t mention gender at all. It’s just a cycle that your body goes through. But the best part? Estrogen essentially goes through your body, but your body doesn’t need it, so it gets rid of it. A period is getting rid of your estrogen. Naturally, what chemical is left? Testosterone! Your period isn’t making you feminine, but it can be seen as a de-feminizing process!
3- that leads on to 3, take care of yourself. After your mental space is grateful and accepts that you actually have less estrogen in your body and more testosterone, take care of yourself! Eat good foods and drink plenty of water to make it lighter and hopefully ease cramping. While your body is running on t, do some workouts to get your ideal body! Do hobbies and things that interest you, keep your mind stimulated!
Obviously I haven’t gone into close details, but this is the general idea! Good luck lads, I hope it helps!
been struggling w depersonalization/derealization issues lately so i took some (silly? cute? funky?) to make myself feel better ❤️
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Since trans day of visibility was recently, there’s a pic of my top surgery, a year and 4 months post op. I see a lot of pics of slim fit trans guys but never chubby out of shape ones! I’m very happy with my body now, doing way better mentally in a lot of ways!
I think I’ve been on T for 4 years now? I’ve lost track of time lol
Maybe just words or pronouns…but also words can hurt…
(Feel free to add more)
love me love me, say that you love me
do you feel held by him? does he feel like home to you?
Ok, I am definitly trans. I may be high but I never was more sure than right now.
me : i think i pass
me : *opens front camera on phone*
Me: *throws rocks at gods window*
God: *opens window* “what do you want?”
Me: “my gender is broken I don’t want it anymore”
God: “what’s wrong with your gender?”
Me: “it has dysphoria”
God: “what the f**k is wrong with you?” *closes window*
are there any other post-op/post-transition trans people who still have a hard time loving their bodies? i despise mine (not to mention everything else about myself).