Hey, on a kinda serious note, it’s ok if your gender identity effects how you view your sexuality. It’s all like, a part of you. I struggle with that, and I’m sure some of you do to. Your gender identity doesn’t invalidate your sexuality, I promise.
0Oh hello dysphoria, been awhile. A shame you didn’t stay away…
Yes I’m fully aware I still have breasts.
Yes I’m fully aware that my voice is starting to be less masculine because I haven’t had my testosterone in months.
You can shut up now… Seriously just shut up I know Dysphoria, I know!
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2 years ago yesterday, my top surgery was finally done after an extremely rough road getting there.
The hardest part I think (at least for me) is accepting the fact that top surgery didn’t instantly cure my dysphoria; rather, it opened some doors for new, more exciting forms of it such as the irregular scarring, the wonky post op nipples, and the fact that I do not look exactly like a cis man.
Stigma places almost a taboo (or lets b fuckn real, it deadass is a taboo) on trans bodies. Society places the expectation that to transition means to strive for as cis-passing as possible, and what deviates from that is shameful and should be hidden away. I internalized this for years. I think I’ve only gone shirtless in public maybe 4 times since my top surgery.
My body should not and does not increase or decrease in value based on how well I emulate cisgendered standards.
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telling a guy you’re trans ftm and him saying he’s confused because you’re the first guy he likes and now he’s gonna have to reevaluate his sexuality is the best feeling ever
1I don’t understand why people act like going on testosterone is the worst thing in the world. Like even if that shit was gonna kill me, which it won’t, I’d die happy anyway.
5Now I have my beard I’m never cutting my hair again. I’m bout to look like I’ve just walked out of an indie movie bitches.
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My New Stuff!…A supercute pair of sungless I got for an amazing price at a local swap meet before they closed up shop to fight the virus. These will be featured in my Shopping Stories #37 video.
1my hair is starting to get a bit Too Long again but it looks pretty good sticking out from under a baseball cap so im alright with that.
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