DO NOT show me any cisgender boys. If I even see a cisgender boy I WILL melt him to salt upon first contact. ONLY trans and non-binary boys are safe under my gaze. Thank you.
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Fuck it I’ve been dwelling on this for quite a bit now and I want some opinions so I can attempt to wrap my head around it.
Backstory: I’m non-binary thinking about HRT so I feel more comfortable in a physical sense. I’ve been nonbin for approx 3ish(?) years but just recently started thinking about HRT. Also I’m enrolled at an alternative high school that has therapists included, mine doesn’t do her job. Should also mention she regularly misgenders me and brushes it off.
Rising action/mini-rant: So I had to see my “therapist” cause she arranged a meeting with someone from a program that I have R E P E A T E D L Y said that I do not need. I arrived at the time she said but I guess that was too early. So I had to sit with her on her lunch duty.
Situation: I told her I want to transition cause dysphoria. She said “no I like the whole non-binary thing what about all the non-binary art and etc??” So I explained the thing about being comfortable physically. She asked what the effects would be and I showed her a page that covers the basics. You know what she said? “Oh my god this is so sexist. Women can have these features too”
Situation part 2: I reluctantly had to be in a car with my sister and was trying to make conversation and be civil. I was ranting and mentioned this. She said that wanting to be a man is sexist and hormones mess up your body and used my brother as an example (but my brother has had drug and alcohol issues). She also said by making me sign for something I don’t need she was doing her job but again, different rant
ANYWAY TL;DR My therapist and sister said testosterone is sexist and I needed to rant and maybe some counter arguments cause I was (still am) too dumbfounded to respond.
2Really tired of fighting my pharmacy every time I need my hormones filled so I decided to just grow my own dick and balls
0challenge: enter your nearest chick-fil-a and scream “I’m gay” as loud as you can.
you won’t.
2I started volunteering to help run the welcome table at church (show up around service time, sit at a table, answer questions from new people and existing members, etc.) Today we had our first meeting as the welcome table is a new ministry. It’s just me and like 7 women. I know them all, they’re all super cool gals.
This one lady though, Jenny* (*not real name) is mid 60s, works with me frequently, long time member, puts in a lot of volunteer hours, loves our congregation and facility, upstanding church member, etc. She has more trouble than anyone at our church/my place of work with my pronouns. Whatever, I get it, I was a woman and now I’m a man, pronouns are hard. But Jenny is the only one who never gets it right. I used to politely call her out, but generally she’ll “she” me once and move on and I’ve realized it’s not good for my mental health to call people out every single time.
But today at the meeting, not only did she exclusively call me she (even though all other members called me he - THANK YOU other members) at one point she looked around the room and went, “Are there any men in this ministry? Is it just us?” So, uh, that crushed me.
And then when there was a lull and people were idly chatting with their neighbors, Jenny came up to me and ‘playfully’ said, “Oh Michael I need to punch you.” I’m like “Why?” She says, “Are you stretching your ears out?” (I have size 2 plugs.) I’m like “Yeah, had these a while,” blah blah, and she said, “Well I had to say something.” So I said, “Did you?” And she laughed it off. But I wasn’t kidding. She didn’t have to say shit.
Not only does Jenny not see me as a man (something I cannot change), but she judges me for the things that make me actually feel good about myself. I need little things like my gauges because people like Jenny call me she and I can’t change that; at least I can change out the jewelry in my ears. It’s one of the few things I have any control over. And I can correct Jenny, but I can’t make her feel differently about who I am. And ultimately, she was disrespectful. My style is none of her fucking business. Who I am inside should be her business if she gave two shits about me, which she doesn’t if she can’t even try to see me for who I am but will go out of her way to criticize what I’m wearing.
People misgender me. It happens. When they say ‘sorry’ and try to use the right pronouns, I know that even if they don’t 100% see me as a man (yet, hopefully) they see me as a person. Jenny has not shown me that.
And it’s hard because she does a lot, and I mean a LOT for the church. I respect her so much, you don’t even know. But for this, I outwardly disrespect her and I have no idea what to do about that.
And I realized something important when I was in my car on the verge of tears tonight, which is that when people call me she, they aren’t letting me mourn her, the person I’m trying so hard to get over. She is dead. I just want to move on. And they won’t let her die.
Thank you for listening.
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Super sensitive. Both sexually and non sexually.
Hardened personality. Kinda starting to be a bit desensitize.
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Gay Omens~
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I might be making this into a poster aswell as making it optional to customize what Pride flags you want, but only if enough people show genuine interest!!!
DM me or send me asks letting me know you want this as a poster or as other merch types of you would like suggest, because I can also sell them each individually!! Like if I wanted to do Keychains~ You buy just a Crowley and or Aziraphale, or just an or all 4 of them~
If I do end up doing posters you may request specific flags BUT it will cost alot more! Because it wouldnt just be from a big batch.
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I’ve had this done for a while but didn’t have the motivation to post it, this went up on Instagram like a week ago-
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Flags:
Crowley - Gender Fluid, Acesexual
Beelzebub - Non Binary
Gabriel - Pansexual Transgender
Aziraphale - Aromantic (with a pride bowtie)
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Literally, i feel so nice and clean, i had such a busy day! I chipped ice off the driveway and shoveled snow. Then i lit a fire in the fire pit in the back yard and had fun with that.. after all that, i took a shower, shaved and put on my smelly lotion.. Now im all cute and bubbly, soft and cuddly!!
2#YourWillieShop #ftm #transgender #stppacker
https://www.instagram.com/p/B8-nq_zjEed/?igshid=ri7j0pe9z17o0
