#trauma vent Tumblr posts

  • doomwizards
    17.01.2022 - 49 minutes ago

    i feel like my head is about to explode

    #my mom only likes transphobic tweets and i keep checking her twitter account #she follows mostly terfs #i dont know whay to do #i wish so badly to be able to finally mend our relationship and forgive her for years of trauma because i still love her so much #but how can i ever believe she truly loves me back if she refuses to see me for who i am #she changed my name on netflix and hulu and hbo max #i dont know what to do and it all just hurts so bad and i miss my mom #txt#vent
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  • grotesqueman
    17.01.2022 - 1 hour ago

    decisions decisions

    #vent #everybody dont lookjkjj im just being like. sad silly #i could. on one hand. check our dms to see if my “”trauma”” is warranted possibly triggering myself. #orrrrr i could just not
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  • traumatizeddfox
    17.01.2022 - 1 hour ago

    i wrote this in Sept 2021  after i found out he watched cp. i felt so sick.

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  • ceasarslegion
    17.01.2022 - 1 hour ago

    Having a weird day today yall think that catholic guilt can be experienced by someone who was never catholic but went to a catholic school for 2 years

    #having a weird one #idk ive been exposed to a lot of religious talk lately and its been having some negative effects on me psychologically ive just realized now #which is weird because im very much of the belief that you can believe whatever you want as long as you dont hurt anybody #so why do i feel so shit about it when none of it was negative #methinks i might have religious trauma that never got addressed #because theres not really another explanation as to why my emotions are becoming volatile around it when nothing BAD happened recently #like this reaction is dumber than dogshit. why are you upset #ill bring it up to my therapist im just screaming into a void rn #gonna watch some jimmy snow and telltale and genetically modified skeptic just to feel... i guess secure? again #maybe thats the wrong word because i never doubted my own belief system #perhaps its the human need to be told your worldview isnt wrong #which again is dumber than dogshit because no one told me it was #anyway#vent post
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  • xfaeriex
    17.01.2022 - 1 hour ago

    i h8 my classmates !!

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  • bpdstevenuniverse
    17.01.2022 - 3 hours ago

    // TRIGGER WARNING - implied suicidal thoughts

    idk i just keep having less hopes for the future.

    i dream of having a loving healthy family of my own, but i have no fucking idea of my career, driving or even a first job at all, idk man i can’t be a functional adult and everyone else just expects so much from me

    #trauma#cptsd#actuallybpd #suicide mention tw #suicidal thoughts tw #venting#personal#my journal
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  • bpdstevenuniverse
    17.01.2022 - 3 hours ago

    // TRIGGER WARNING - suicidal thoughts

    i might be doing smaller chores but long-term goals like college or a job i’ve just given up completely, what’s the fucking point if i’m only gonna get fucked by the world lmao i know i’m not gonna live until then.

    #trauma#cptsd#actuallybpd #suicidal thoughts tw #suicide mention tw #death mention tw #venting#personal#my journal
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  • bpdstevenuniverse
    17.01.2022 - 3 hours ago

    // TRIGGER WARNING - suicidal thoughts

    the more days pass the less i want to live, there’s literally nothing for me to keep going, everything is too fucking intense to me and no one cares, not even when i clearly need help

    i don’t know how to live life when nothing distracts me, nothing helps me, not even exercise, not even hanging out with my friends. everyone pisses me off bc everyone is ignorant, no one wants to respect that i’m more affected by reality than they are, not even my psychiatrist, he just wants me to be an independent self-made woman

    at this point i just feel like i’m a zombie washing the dishes

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  • bpdstevenuniverse
    17.01.2022 - 3 hours ago

    i legitimately want to know what makes my mom and my brother leave me endless chores when i’m fucking depressed and i also want to know why they feel so fucking attacked when i ask them to try to make things easier for me

    and then you fucking wonder why i don’t call you for help

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  • bpdstevenuniverse
    17.01.2022 - 3 hours ago

    they didn’t call my parents but i hate that my emergency contact is my dad so what if i don’t want their help huh since when they bother helping me

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  • hop3wrlds
    17.01.2022 - 3 hours ago

    sometimes i wish i still believed in the christian god so i could have something to direct my anger at

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  • elijahsretreat
    17.01.2022 - 4 hours ago

    Family fucking sucks

    // tw for toxic family , eating disorder talk , and general trauma dumping

    God. Fucking. DANMIT.

    Sighs in crying from eating apple pie my dad made :(

    You know when I was at my lowest I was at my highest. I talked to friends, clean my room, clean myself, BRUSHED MY TEETH?! But now I'm just sitting here having not showered for two weeks, brushed my hair or teeth in a long time and doing NOTHING with my life.

    I wish I could fast or at least just survive on coffee til dinnertime but NO my family has to be obsessed with cookies and chocolates ugh and I wish they could just buy healthy sweets that are low cal.

    I wanna go back to when my wrists were small and my were small :((

    I just wanna go back to being small. Gods I wanna kill myself so bad, just bang my head against the wall.

    I wish my family was normal :(

    Time for some ✨ trauma dumping abt my fucked up filthy lil family ✨

    My mom has a surgery and itll be awhile before she'll recover and my older sib and I are tasked with taking care of our lil sister.

    Easy right? Let me sum up how much shes destroyed our lives :)

    She has torn up all the furniture like some rabid animal, bitten/hurt our parents (which has long lasting effects to this day) and the cats, broken like 10+ things made of glass, broken down our doors slasher killer style, thrown garbage at me and my older sib (we share a room and bed) as we were sleeping, has broken several very precious/valuable things and a plethora of other insane shit and I-oh gods

    Like bro I have anger issues like if it werent for the fact my hand would get busted I would probably punch holes into the walls (fixing it up at the hospital and them asking why aha)

    Like I'm going to hurt bc I cant I just fucking cant control, it's like a ticking time bomb for me to just snap, like I genuinely feel sorry to the fucker that upsets me slightly

    Sigh I just wish she was normal or just didnt exist like ugh

    Good thing is that she's gonna be 18 in *checks calendar* 1 year so the state will take her but still itll take years to fuvking recover from the fear I have while living here

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  • sickenedheart
    17.01.2022 - 5 hours ago

    When you're abusers team up with other abusers...

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  • void-girl
    17.01.2022 - 5 hours ago

    hello and good morning I feel like a broken toy nobody wanted

    #im going to do some trauma work #but also I need to vent about my grandma who discovered religious TV and now everytime I go downstairs I get triggered lol!! #also this morning I went down to get breakfast and tea and some anti abortion propaganda was coming from her room haha nice #religion / #abortion m /
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  • bpdstevenuniverse
    17.01.2022 - 6 hours ago

    I'm at the hospital let's hope they don't call my parents

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  • pastel-purity13
    17.01.2022 - 11 hours ago
    #mine#vent#mental illness#depression#anxiety#bpd#trauma#paranoia#abuse#traumacore#ventcore #ok to rb #edit: i hope no one minds but i removed the flowers idk they just didn't look right??
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  • lil-stark
    17.01.2022 - 11 hours ago

    tw vent

    i'm so fucking done with my parents. this morning my dad hit my little brother really roughly and he's only 5, and today i cried because my mom told me to kill myself and how i'm evidence for bad parenting, and so is my brother because he learned how to cuss. and i called her out on her shitty parenting, because it IS.

    and it's fucking humiliating to be calling myself a hindu while having parents like this and to be living in these conditions. i feel like i'm losing faith every single day, and i know most of this temporary but it's so scary to think that my life will be like this for a couple more years before i can move out.

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