Its the small things ♡
Its the small things ♡
Everyone around me just wants casual casual casual and I swear to God I’m gonna aim for the throat. I’m gonna bleed em out if they ask anything of me or insinuate a single fucking thing.
I just don’t feel like talking but I love and care for you all
I am so sorry that I seem to just disappear I am like the worst at trying to set up a habit. I guess I am still adjusting to a new job. But I am so glad to be in a new job but its taking alot out of me meeting all the new people. I am pretty introverted it takes alot of energy to talk to my supervisor because I do not know them well, and it takes a few weeks for me to get super comfortable with someone and for them not to suck energy from me. This new job though will be interesting. I am working for a private company that works with families on helping them have visits with there kids and works reuniting families. I never thought I would end up in this field. I got my degree in History and political science and actually had a government job set up but due to COVID. The company is not hiring at this time. So I had to float around jobs till I got this job. Which I think is good. Those who are into politics and history and got degrees in it, we wish to become politicians but I sense that if I ever get that time of opportunity to aspire more in that direction. Then maybe my experience working with broken homes and reunification of families will give me a different prescriptive then most.
P.S. What was your dream job? If you went to college what did you study and are you in your field? Or did you not but worked yourself up in a company or job opportunity?
#mamashark im trying to learn how to twerk… #trying lol
Say what you will about Biden; it seems to me that he’s actually interested in being a good person, and that is so incredibly refreshing to see.
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We’ve all heard the joke that people are treating online school like a podcast, but atp I’ve turned the sound off my laptop and am just working from a textbook.
Currently uncontrollably crying because I weighed myself. I am not okay. I tried so hard to lose weight but I’ve gained it
I probably post random things here.
There is no perfection
There is only trying
And I’m trying my best. I know you can see it.
I need you to pick me up
Give me an arm so I can stand again
With your help I can be almost perfect.
Even on the darkest on nights,
And the scariest of days
I will try
I will try
Hey there! Welcome to the tentative start of my blog.
I’ve said it in my blog’s description, but if I happen to change it for some reason, here is my goal: hobbies.
I’ve been in a creative rut for years. I’ve watched myself drop hobbies I’ve held for years, and not even trying to pick up hobbies that spark an interest. I think there was a part of me that was aware this was my reality, but I didn’t put too much thought into it. But then I realized… I don’t do anything. What comprises my daily life? Am I even doing anything worthwhile? Anything that makes me feel happy or good?
You know, there are people out there reveling in their passions. I have roommates that spend a whole day on a creative project they want to get done… and then they work on it even more the next day. I’ve overheard people chat about what they’re passionate about, chock full of jargon I can’t quite understand. And I’ve also sat in front of fascinating people I want to get to know better, having absolutely nothing to offer of myself to the conversation.
And that’s a really sad and empty feeling.
For 2021, I wanted to address this. So, every month, I want to try three new hobbies. I want to spend that month delving into that hobby- research, practice, and having fun. And maybe, after that month ends, I’ll want to continue some of them!
Honestly, I made this blog more for me than anything else, but maybe someone else will get something out of this experience, too.
That said, good luck me, you, and everyone in between ✨
there’s a man in a hole in my wall.
but here’s the thing
HES scared of ME
I’m being honest. I’m talking less. I’m worried talking less is just easier because I’m so depressed right now but I’m trying to make this a new habit. I’m not going to lie. I’m going to make this stick.
I’ve started talking to a therapist, talking and writing about my feelings and I’m doing everything I can to keep myself level and productive.
I’m seeking out volunteering opportunities and going back to school this September.
(side note I’m irritated as fuck with my undiagnosed ADHD parent, I know it’s only because we’re very similar in a lot of uncomfortable ways but they are so LOUD oh my god)
I’m living truthfully. I have a lot to undo and relearn but I’ve never been committed to doing anything but hiding from that before.
I really, really miss my ex.
As always, if any of you can relate please don’t be shy. I’d love to meet people who can understand.
Not yet. Idk bro life has become too hard. My school is opening in like two weeks, I’v 4 months worth of work due and I have zero motivation.