I just watched the lore stream and I'm now stuck between
Holy shit that was so sad??? Why did it have to be so sad? The suit, the lmanberg anthem THE CRYING
Wow that was so good, I can't wait for the heartbreaking animations that will be paired up with it. The voice acting was amazing and the c!tubbo has a much more developed character now. THE FUTURE FANART
I wasn't mentally ready for Tubbo's acting in that scene
#id like to be left alone #my favorite character- *sobs* #he deserves the world i just wanna give him the world #how broke his voice was when #MAN *PUNCHES WALL* #mcyt#dream smp#dsmp#dreamsmp#tubbo #c!tubbo #tubbo lore #dream smp spoilers
god. im so fucking glad that we are seeing growth in tubbo.
tubbo, the kid who followed Wilbur and tommy into starting l'manberg. without question. he helped where he could and he cared
tubbo, schatts right hand man. he didn't set boundaries, he did what he was told without question despite never agreeing with it.
president tubbo, who when he tried to make a decision, was narratively punished for it. he tried his best in l'manbergs end days and it still wasn't enough.
and now we see him, with his security nukes and his own mansion husband and son.
he set boundaries, he spoke his mind. he grew. it's so clear character growth and i love it. and he still is coping with his trauma, but he is also growing as a person. his forgiveness is not blind trust.
i think the cards are setting up again for people to do more lore as time rolls around on the dream smp. people coming to terms with their trauma as dates roll past, or we at least see how they're doing.
the newest Wilbur stream opens up opportunity for both tubbo and ranboo lore stream. also indications of a future tommy lore stream or another Wilbur one. jack manifolds lore stream... so much potential there too.
(TW: Scopophobia, Eye Scarring/Discussion, Ableism Mention, Death Mention)
SO! literally nobody asked but I would like to share with you all my headcannon for Tubbo after the Festival.
I'm one of the many who depict canon deaths as scarring left over after respawns, and my first depiction of Tubbo after the Festival was him with blast scars over his face, blinded by the firework shot into him at close range. I also depicted him with his eyes permanently closed in every art...
...which I have NOW learned is not actually how eye scarring works! (Or maybe burn scars specifically DO glue your eyes shut, I'm not a doctor, I've only done some digging.)
Then I started to wonder what Tubbo's eyes WOULD look like open after the Festival, since there would be no way his eyes made it unscathed from an explosion right between them. It was then I discovered macular corneal dystrophy!
Macular dystrophy is specifically the name for the corneal opacity caused by injury/scarring! And yes, while I know "cloudy eyes = blind" is an insulting caricature of blind characters in media, in this instance I think because the discoloration is a direct symptom from scarred blindness, it's not just another half assed able-bodied depiction (I hope).
(However; if I'm incorrect, I implore blind folks to let me know and I'll scrap it immediately 👍. Also, Tubbo's situation is very very specific, so I went more general with my research since I couldn't find anything about eye injury related to explosions specifically.)
So, I found how it'd look for Tubbo to be blind after his execution. The next thing was to figure out how getting around in canon could be explained with my fanon interpretation of Tubbo being completely blind.
This was obviously the bigger hurdle, since I was/still am an uneducated, inexperienced person with full sight. To tackle the task to have a blind interpretation of a character without being offensive or ignorant, I turned to @cripplecharacters, who were INSTRUMENTAL in educating me on disabilities. (MASSIVE thanks, y'all!! I would still be researching and not creating if it weren't for you :,3)
You can visit the blog for specifics, but what the mods have done was compile an FAQ about blind folks for those who genuinely didn't know anything about them (read: me)
It was through them that I learned the dos and donts of depicting a blind character in my work, hence why my final headcannon of Tubbo is a) completely able to independent and mobile, NOT infantalized, b) almost always has an earpiece to explain the surroundings of the SMP's constantly shifting environment so he can realistically move around without hurting himself, and c) IS NOT COMPLETELY INHIBITED BY HIS BLINDNESS, emotionally or physically.
Of course, there's always going to be things he can and can't do because he is now blind, but in the grand scheme of things, Tubbo adapted well to his situation after time to get used to it. Becoming blind did not depress him or confine him, and it certainly did not stop him in his journey of self growth as a character.
I struggled with this, as I didn't want Tubbo's disability to be obsolete in the long run; blindness is now a part of him, and it was important to me that that is shown; but I also didn't want his loss of sight to, well, completely cripple him. I know it's a slippery slope to maintain as someone who never has gone through or experienced any inhibition of sight other than run-of-the-mill glasses, and I know I definitely didn't learn everything about how to properly convey a blind character.
That said, I open the doors to educate* me if you wish! Tell me if I was offensive or incorrect in any of my above research! I want to be respectful over all else when I draw/write disabled folks.
Basically, TLDR: in my fanon interpretation, c!Tubbo is blinded after the Festival, and I did a lot of research to depict his blindness realistically and respectfully, and I made this post at 2:45 AM because 👉 insomnia 👉 so sorry if the wording is a bit funny in places.
*please only comment if you're a professional in the field of optometry/eye injury or a blind person yourself! To those who are full sighted and just as inexperienced; this literally cannot be explained by you, so please refrain :)