If only Takeuchi could realise, Gouenji thought, what a truly imbalanced place the world was and the odds were against the majority. Traditional methods of helping them were set up by the very people who were the biggest culprits of all and they wanted to make sure they never find themselves at the receiving end of it. If one really wanted to bring improvements into the lives of common, helpless people, they’d need unconventional means.
so i’m not sure whose doing it, but it’s been brought to my attention that someone is reading my blog and telling everything i’ve been saying to rory. that’s really pretty petty of you, whoever you are.
none of my friends are coming after them. and i haven’t said anything disrespectful. i acknowledged that i could have communicated my feelings better with them, and all i wanted was for them to be happy. i love rory. i loved what we did. i still do. and i miss them dearly and would love to talk to them again. even if it’s just one more time. i wasn’t jealous of their ships. i was jealous of the friendships they seemed to have with others that i felt like i didn’t have with them anymore. i just didn’t realize what i was feeling until it was too late. so whomever it is that is telling them anything, you can tell them that: that i know i could have done better, that i understand that if they thought cutting me out of their lives meant being happier, and that everyone deserves to feel happy. that i deeply care about and love them still, and have been put on serious anti anxiety medications to get through the day because i feel that strongly about what happened and how much i just wanted to talk to them and have them hear me out. about how much i miss them and think about them and worry for them and want them to be okay.
otherwise that’s it. okay? i’m not saying anything hurtful, nor are any of my friends coming after them, nor have i asked them to, nor would they. don’t make rory worry any more about anything they don’t have to. it’s not fair, it’s not right, and it’s hurtful to them and to me. they’re going through enough hard times in their life right now to have this to contend with too.
"Episode 6 broke my heart!"
"Jfc, I was not expecting THAT!"
Me: yes, good, fans like being clobbered out of nowhere by trauma, right? At least, that's what I've learned from Tumblr, anyway.
wish i could come up with a comprehensive and informative summary but if i see va////////spider’s stupid fucking moose icon one more time i’m turning that lesbophobic freak into raspberry jelly
I HAD to draw this
Instagram @mudagog_art 🖤
also i'm sorry but if ur gonna take strangers' posts on tumblr personally and then guilt trip them saying they make you want to die then you need to take a break from tumblr
'I'll come back as rain. I'll come back as the first snow.' Guardian: the lonely and great God (Goblin), 2016.
Just a reminder that there's a force e greater than us, that souls are connected and love is inmortal. Even when it's pure rain and thunder there's the chance that some smile could cheer you up. Don't blame fate, face it.
istg, the number of times I've gone to block someone on this hellsite and accidentally hit the "follow" button because they're so damn close to each other...
Miss B I T C - … Courtney! 👩🏽⚖️
anyone also following my main may have seen me post that i had to drastically cut down my tumblr usage due to mental health, and that i was doing better for it. i was still allowed on the app, but i hate mobile tumblr and i’m not a big fan of using my phone, so i’ve barely been here the last few days.
well, i’m tentatively returning to desktop tumblr. i’ve thought about it and tried to figure out what, exactly, was causing me issues, and one of the things that i identified was the IDW comics. not Transformers in general, just the first run of IDW. it was hard to accept this, and it’s hard for me to type it now, but it’s turned into something of a trigger. not literally all of it, all the time; i’m looking at my icon now and only feel vaguely tense due to the association. but that’s enough that engaging with it at all isn’t good for me. it stopped being fun a long while ago, i was just too stubborn to admit it.
looking back on it, this all seems extremely obvious and i feel foolish for taking this long to really stare down the problem. there are other parts of my tumblr experience that were bad, a good chunk of the blogs i just unfollowed were people who posted like 75% doomblogging and i feel so nice about that, but this was the harder thing to admit.
i’m not rereading MTMTE anymore, of course. no more phase 1 beyond what i’ve already got. reblogs of IDW stuff will probably become very scarce from here on out--i can tolerate a lot of it still, as i said, but i’m blacklisting everything i can think of and i’m going to really try to not peek. i have a fic that i might finish, but even if i do i don’t know if i’ll post it anywhere.
i love tumblr and this fandom and i don’t want to take it all entirely away, so this is what i want to do.
24.01.21 recently i’ve started talking to one of my old friends again..but it wasn’t a choice i made. it was nothing more than a pure coincidence due to us having a mutual friend. i’ve moved on from what happened between us and am willing to be civil. but it's strange, you know? we’ll be mid conversation and all of a sudden i’ll remember what happened between us. this may seem like i haven’t moved on- but isn’t the saying,, forgive but don’t forget.
the main thing is, they haven’t changed at all. they're still the same toxic person they used to be, as they've proven time and time again. i think the obvious thing to do, would be to cut them off. but by doing that i’d be distancing myself from my other friend. so for now, it is what it is. i’ll be nice but i won’t let things go back to the way they were,, which i’m afraid is what’s already happening..
I want to paint a dark, wintery, slightly creepy piece that needs a dark underpainting before I can start - but it needs an underpainting before I can start. And I want to paint NOW. How dare the universe!
(flings herself down in overly-theatrical anguish)
I did put a layer of (orange+purple+green) dark brown paint on a canvas and sit it downstairs where it’s almost warm. Maybe by Wednesday I can start the real painting. patience. please I just need some. patience
I had my ask box open for the first time in year and I’m already regretting it,,
Opening my notes today, and I see how it is: y’all like the scandal and drama
i don’t know what i expected dot gif